After a few months of research and self examination I finally performed my dedication ritual.
My previous Cult affiliation used to have a saying that there is opposition in all things, and when you are trying to do something that is true you will have obstacles placed in your way. But that you need to endure, so this is my story of my ritual.
I woke up intending to do the ritual while it was still dark.
I had a shower, got dressed and was going to perform the ritual.
Alas - no red candles in sight, i had some but could not find one for the life of me.
So went out to drop my daughter off at school and was going to go to the shop.
The shop never had any candles - but my wife said she saw one under the car seat - so score - i have the Red Candle.
I get home and the missus is tired so she goes to sleep.
I start preparing myself for the ritual - I have the candle, i have a stainless steel bowl to use as it is now raining and light outside so i can't do it outside.
Matches are no where to be found, i search high and low. they are not where I keep them. eventually i find them in the kitchen.
so i have the candle and matches. I light the candle, write out the dedication on paper, now i need to get ready to sign.
the box of blood lancets are missing - I try the following:
- Nail clippers - cuts the skin but no blood.
- unpick tool - this thing literally shreds you normally - doesn't make a dent in the finger.
- I get a sharp fork from the kitchen - same nothing.
eventually i find a needle in my daughters room.
So i sterilize the needle and it doesn't want to break the skin...
after much poking i get a drop of blood out then the pen won't write the blood properly.
I managed to persevere and get it done.
The ritual goes well after that, i say the words out loud, burn the paper and "So Mote it be, HAIL SATAN"..
i sat and pondered for a while - had a short prayer and blew out the candle.
The interesting thing was - I went through the ashes and a piece never burned, the words that were left:
false jehova and worthless.
I burned the paper and scattered the ashes to the wind.
So I am now dedicated and firmly on the left hand path.
Hail Satan