Wildfire said:
Ninja 666 said:
Hello, Wildfire! How are you? : )
*takes one deep breath*
Fine 
but completely nervous and excited at the same time that I'm finally graduating senior high, (*~I'm about to face the world~*). Managing my life as usual, life sometimes just turns lunatic mode on me, I lasted pretty long until I got influenced into self harm, the harassment, self guilt, and life took a toll on me BUT QUICKLY JUMPED BACK to reality and apologized heavily for what I fucking did to my arm in the school bathroom(Happened during the perfect time I noticed a sermon that mentioned astrologers being severely cursed posted on the forums), this is stupid and that fault stays in me. If this is like a war then this is like gas mask setup fails or normally getting hit by an explosion and severely wounded. BUT I'd rather not think about that edgy part of the recent past anymore. These are times where I can just hate myself. Even after I have adapted from it like usual.
I saw progress on our fight against the enemy(Priests are ranting end of the world verses and guilt bs in a stupid local barangay catholic church with mics and speakers, JUST AFTER A BAD DAY FROM SCHOOL AND IT WAS AT EARLY SEVEN WHEN THE MOON IS IN THE SKY ALREADY XD WTF people might be sleeping early. Maybe because people are treating churches like shit and wearing irregular clothing, a lot is going wrong with them now. Like some one time some guy posted himself in FB in a spider man costume running past a pusstard of the crock public reenactment :lol: :lol: :lol: ) as well as the enemy drumming insults and slander at me, trying to make me guilty for every mistake I do, especially if I offend or hurt someone, take advantage of my natural sensitivity and I either remove or use that emotion for black magick on assholes and past assholes, Final RTR, art projects and when human error happens because of forgetting to charge my AoP when I have to wake up early in school and not try to forget homeworks, important personal stuff, freelance artist journey and deadlines, they can overrun my head and attempt getting me to go 100% faggot mode(Glad I kept fighting it.), trying to stop me from getting people woke or doing the things I need and like..
Btw, this is perfect timing when I felt like getting overrun by emotions, is this a sign of the gods responding to my over thinking self guilt.hate episodes? Coincidence or just normal perfect timing. You stopped me from going completely berserk like I did not care anymore btw. Thank you so much and I FUCKING PROMISE NOT TO HURT MYSELF EVER AGAIN. I'LL REMEMBER THIS UNTIL THE TIME I'LL WRITE THIS ON MY LAST WILL ON MY DEATH BED AND I HOPE I WILL THROUGHOUT MY NEXT LIVES. I may have felt it weaken me spiritually like my chest got lighter after doing that. I'm real sorry for that about two weeks ago but there are times our enemy brings out the heavy weapons or things happen out of mental block/ignorance/normal human error caused by astrological conditions got in the way. Never underestimate, "yourself"(I may have forgotten HPHC's quote on that one and I'm going to got to that right now and remember what not letting "oneself" stop him meant), the Xtards, Moosleems, poos, kaka bugs, homicidal barneys and in general the enemy(I hope we can nuke/destroy in any possible way wherever those fuckers live when we advance to that capability)....life is just is....nor cruel, nor beautiful. It depends on where the person wants to go in life.
I'm fine right now, there are also times I can get negative and this is because I get drawn into grim dark stuff I read, draw and write(I can draw positive cute stuff when I want to) and had to clean up. I can always adapt and get back up from losses no matter how great, then laugh about it if I really have to but if it is something truly grave, what I can do to myself is different which is hating and cringing that I did that in this life and immediately forget that, hoping the enemy does not interfere with my skeletons in the closet, errr, vault. I may have forgotten to mention about that one, if I did and you wrote a solution to my self shame and hate, I'm going to check on the thread you set up for me.
Life is an epic story for me isn't it? I can finally pry away all the stupid jewish poison being forced into my head in that crazy school. They're trying to make me retarded.
On the band diusturbed, I am shocked and just 180 degree'd on that band when I have just heard of the lead singer being jewish, I searched it up and bang! I ditched it 100 percent. Is Luca Turilli safe btw? I've searched up his bios and found nothing about him being a Jew so far. Black dragon got me hooked to his songs at grade 4.
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Post script: I want to talk with you personally but you might not like my weird, shy/outgoing ambivert dual, hot headed, crude humor loving/sensitive and chaotic personality IRL which is why I bricked myself from people and faced fixing it alone, even if this took me hundreds of attempts because there is a lot about me I'm trying to uncover on my own, did I just get driven cray cray and died from the inquisition in the past life or am I just a first degenerate incarnate? How the hell do I fight back verbally against the enemy when they insult me on my dirty secrets at the times where I am emotionally vulnerable? I can't tell things that hurt me the most here since the enemy is watching....right now, they might have said that I'll get slandered and other negative prophesy here while writing this.
I already miss all genuine SS here.
I don't know if it was the Gods. I saw your comment and wanted to see how you were doing. Because your Wildfire ;p
Don't worry about all this self-doubt nonsense. I bet you didn't think so much about this before you became dedicated. The enemy loves to isolate SS, because it makes us an easy target.
You must remember to clean your aura and build your aura of protection. And also to send the negative energy straight back to the assholes who treat you like shit.
Fighting Back
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Fighting_Back.html
You can also use Blue Satanic Fire on them, add an affirmation if you find out you want to try it, you can also use the Blue Satanic Fire on Greys and other shit entities around you, but also in areas where you feel it is a lot of negativity.
Check out the blue flames on the sigils and sword at the middle of this page for inspiration:
https://astralartsofthegods.weebly.com/extras.html
The self-hate and self-harm is unnatural, so it's either some shit in your subconscious mind or soul, basically negative "karma", not necessarily of your own doing, this can come from others who hate you and have done things to you in this lifetime and other lifetimes and it has stuck on your soul. Or it can be some external source in the present. Should it be something on your soul you can try using the Munka vibration.
Using Words of Power - Freeing the Soul
https://www.satanisgod.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Freeing_the_Soul_2.html
If the shit comes again you should have some tools to deal with this now.
It can also be a bad Saturn transit. So doing a Sun Square should help. I know it can be time consuming, you should try to get it in, if you can't, perhaps you can try to keep your energies high at these times and doing some positive affirmations.
At last but not least, you can also ask Satan or your Guardian Demon for help when it gets to rough. It's better to ask for help then to be destructive.
There was a time back I asked Satan for help close to everyday of the month, it was that bad. But as soon as I did a Sun Square and raised my energies I took care of it myself.
I looked up a chatting program in the past, but can't remember it. You want to talk on Skype? Don't worry about all the shit the enemy throws at you when you want to socialize with other Spiritual Satanist. "We do mistakes, we fail, and we succeed." It's better to talk with an SS, then there is to talk with someone who is without, it's hard to relate to them on the most important aspects of life and destiny.
It would also be nice to have a back and forth chat, instead of: I ask you a question, and you write me a novel ;p (Just joking here, don't let the enemy get to you) Although I enjoy reading it, I don't always have the time for it sadly.
