Usthepeople666
New member
Hello all my respected fellow members.
I need some serious help and would really appreciate if you all could read my story.
Hi I am a 19 year old from India. I was 16 when I converted to satanism and actually found this beautiful site. I used to meditate and practice yoga on a daily basis when I was 16. But after that I joined college and got into heavy drug usage like weed and lots of alcohol everyday. But I still indulged myself in a lot of sex magick and got lots of girls. But in my time in college ie in my first year I started doubting if I am a Jew. I lost my faith in Satan and stopped meditating and yoga. I went into a depression and came back to my hometown and joined a local college. Because of the depression pills I couldn't mediatate properly and always felt as if someone was watching me and stopped even sex magick. One and a half year has passed since then and I am still on prescribed pills . I prayed to Lord Satan for help last night and here I am a new member on this group. Pls guide me . I have lost all my faith and have developed a phobia of Satan, his demons and darkness in general. Pls help me . I used to do lots of rtr when I was 16 but am scared to do them now. I have lost all confidence and fear everything. Pls suggest me what to do . I wanna fight and live again as a proud Satanist. Am I really a Jew? I have an aquiline nose but looks like a straight nose from a distance and have black curly hair . I feel like Satan doesn't love me anymore? Pls help me on what I should do now and how to become one with Satan again . Thanks for reading
I need some serious help and would really appreciate if you all could read my story.
Hi I am a 19 year old from India. I was 16 when I converted to satanism and actually found this beautiful site. I used to meditate and practice yoga on a daily basis when I was 16. But after that I joined college and got into heavy drug usage like weed and lots of alcohol everyday. But I still indulged myself in a lot of sex magick and got lots of girls. But in my time in college ie in my first year I started doubting if I am a Jew. I lost my faith in Satan and stopped meditating and yoga. I went into a depression and came back to my hometown and joined a local college. Because of the depression pills I couldn't mediatate properly and always felt as if someone was watching me and stopped even sex magick. One and a half year has passed since then and I am still on prescribed pills . I prayed to Lord Satan for help last night and here I am a new member on this group. Pls guide me . I have lost all my faith and have developed a phobia of Satan, his demons and darkness in general. Pls help me . I used to do lots of rtr when I was 16 but am scared to do them now. I have lost all confidence and fear everything. Pls suggest me what to do . I wanna fight and live again as a proud Satanist. Am I really a Jew? I have an aquiline nose but looks like a straight nose from a distance and have black curly hair . I feel like Satan doesn't love me anymore? Pls help me on what I should do now and how to become one with Satan again . Thanks for reading