Summary of my questions are in the last paragraph at the bottom, if you don’t feel like reading.
Couple questions about my personal experiences:
so at one point in my life I was having quite a few “spiritual” experiences, to me astral projection, chakras, Magic have all been natural experiences to me.
These ranged from being aware of chakras, actively engaging in psychic vampirism and getting “energy” spiked (lol I was a teenager), to having an entity latch onto my crown chakra that sapped me of all emotion(literal octopus looking mf) but there are a few experiences that have confused me for awhile.
This experience I did not connect as a diversion until recently, when I thought back about what was going on.
This was shortly after I made an altar to Satan, the first was a woman came to me from my mothers church, channeled energy and told me to do stuff for “god”(I had zero motivation to do anything for “god” because I never felt anything from it) but I now recognize that energy as overwhelmingly negative experience that sent me away from Satan and power in general, it was a curse that promised me “darkness that would continue” if I didn’t do “gods will”.
What a loving “god” it is?
The other one happened maybe months after this, or maybe before, it’s hard for me to remember the exact timeline now, but they were in 6 months of each other. my friend channeled(which he has zero memory of, ritual abuse survivor so his personalities kinda split) what I can only describe as a “celtic/roman” vortex of spiritual energy that seemed to go on forever I couldn’t reach the top(astrally)and it seems to go on infinitely but astrally I saw things of celtic nature, the energy was as real as the air that I breathe and a sort of “hyper reality” that I was allowed to access for that brief time(no idea how long it was, time ceased its relevance) the experience actually filled me to a point where it was the most peace I’ve ever felt ever, but at the same time I could feel all of the places/people where my energy was being drained. It was what I’d refer to as “enlightening” I was above the world. In this vortex my friend ended up connecting my 3rd chakra to my 6th chakra. Which was previously fucked up before.
I’ve also had experience with “paledian” or whatever their called energy, but those experiences were largely “fluff” nothing really happened, it was more like getting High and”oooo.... this is kinda different” I felt slightly better, but also unfulfilled and empty at the end of it.
after these experiences in hindsight, it’s clear to me that there are sides in this thing, but I can’t put a name on either of them yet(for sure, although what is posted here largely agrees with my intuition, Christianity has never ever agreed with my intuition and is largely a mental exercise). I do know Jews and Christians have largely fucked the world up however, so I have zero issues standing against their ilk, which I’m doing with the FRTRS and associated rituals. After all doesn’t their bible say not to practice magic? Naughty naughty jEWS, let me help you reverse that ;p
I can feel the oppressive energy that comes from somewhere, it’s why I’ve been frustrated spiritually and I feel separated from my BIRTH RIGHTs, I’ve tried to evolve, but it’s like my chakras got shutdown. Best way I can describe it is “Catholic programming” that makes me feel like all spirituality is playing games/lies like I can see the carrot being dangled in front of me and I know that the carrot would help me tremendously, but I can’t catch the damn thing because of the programming in my youth. It’s like there are lies everywhere by design. But on the flip side, I should’ve been dead sooo many times it’s not even funny(I’ve had knives pulled on me 3x, lots of close calls in cars, and lots of potential overdoses in my past, rattlesnakes have brushed up against my leg, ect....) so I feel a very strong spiritual power protecting me and guiding me, even though I don’t have a name for him/her. The reason I came back to the JOS website was because I’ve felt the power that the practices have, This was a thought that I’ve had several times in the past year.
Ex: I should check what they are up to.... and it never stopped for a year.
Even though I’ve never socialized in the past, with anyone on here and man, the JOS is evolved quite a bit in a beautiful way I the past 12 years or so....
Anyways, to summarize: my mother is very psychic/has magical ability, but she worships “Jesus”, she’s not strict in the literal interpretations of the Bible and sort of bends the Bible to be “nicer” than it is.
She’s not Jewish, what are the chances that the enemy would empower/allow a gentile to perform any type of magic And that this magic would be a threat?
Are there people out there that offer half teachings that are supposed to be a diversion/or just misinformed, like the people that mix Kabbalah shit and new age shit? Shamanism?
Because I’ve felt energy from all of these, but the only ones that have helped me to any extent are web working and earth based shamanism, but other things in that stuff and those practitioners have felt fake to me and farcical.
For my mother, is this just her natural abilities, that she’s been able to retain, despite the curses?
Is being around strict followers of the liar “god” a threat to me and my peace?
