Big Dipper
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Sun said:When is comes to wealth im kinda fucked on this aspect. I was born with a bad Saturn placement that causes poverty. I've tried my hardest to make a living for myself, and also Ive tried talking to the gods, and also my guardian who specializes in money and wealth, but I can never seem to get a response from them or anything. I hope things are better for me in the near future. Life is getting pretty rough and stressful right now, and I don't know how long it'll be before I actually end up homeless.
I hope it doesn't get to the point where I have to steal and become a thief. I've been trying to build up and YouTube and streaming career and hopefully make some profit from it in the future. Its hard to get a career started like that with YouTube. Everyone and they're mother has a YouTube channel to try and make money from it, theres so much competition these days with YouTube and twitch and all that.
I always see these big youtubers and streamers handing out thousands of dollars and throwing money around like its nothing, and it disgusts me to the core. I'm not sure were life will take me, but so far it hasn't been pleasant.
Im starting to highly doubt myself and my abilities and this path in general. I try to keep faith in Satan. So far I haven't ran into anything seriously tragic, well, I have had 1 thing tragic happen to me since joining JoS that has caused a lot of depression and left me stuck poverty, losing my only source of income.
I kept seeing all these people on YouTube and twitch constantly making hundreds of dollars every day from streaming and playing games and everything. I wanted to get in on that action myself, so now I have a decent gaming PC and I can record games and everything, and I've started my own gaming channel on YouTube. Not gonna give the link to my channel here for obvious reasons, but I hope I can make something out of it.
I've looked into the natal charts of most of these big youtubers and streamers, and I've noticed that they all have a very prominent Mercury or Gemini influence. Either Mercury is the chart ruler, or the ruler of the 10th house.
In almost all cases of natal charts that I've looked at of these youtubers and streamers, they seem to all have Mercury in the 10th house, along with Mercury being the chart ruler or the ruler of the 10th house by having Gemini on the cusp of the 10th. The sun is usually in the 10th house as well with these people.
I've been using the Mercury seed mantra and programming it to increase my success with my YouTube career, and also to empower myself with the energies of mercury. My natal mercury is in a good house, but its in its sign of detriment, Pisces, so I believe it needs work.
I wish I could communicate with my guardian like most people do, but I cant get any response from them, or im just missing signs. I tried asking my guardian for a little help with my success with my YouTube career, but I kind of feel bad about it.
I don't want them to think that im some selfish prick or something like that. Im just struggling with trying to make a living for myself. Life has been miserable. I don't mean to offend them or anything like that. I'm not like someone who is in it just for the money or someone who only wants money, or a person like that. I hope they understand. I just want to feel secure and have a good income along with my career.
I've also been trying to do the same thing for a while now. I have around 100 vids and not as many subs. I would do much better if I had someone to play with. I mainly do ps4 since im not good at anything pc related and my pc isnt really good at all. If there was some way we could contact each other and form a collab I would like that a lot. However at the moment im terribly behind on rtrs and wouldnt be playing until I got caught up. ~im not secretly jewish lol~