darkmonkey666
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I decided to post this here as this is probably a more helpful location than on the thread of the sermon on Saturn. Yes I am knowledgeable in Astrology that doesn't mean I fully know how to overcome stuff. That is why I am posting this.
I feel I am a little too serious about my beliefs and pushy on others. My Saturn is in Sagittarius (if you need more info let me know but I am trying not to reveal too much) But long story short this placement of Saturn and it would show if you saw it is the reason I ended up in a home where my dad was a pastor and my mom was serious into xtianity. I feel like I am way too serious in the area of beliefs and need to lighten up more enjoy life.
Originally it was because when I was around 4 or 5 people would sit there for hours telling me the horrors of hell and things like that (xtian version) and I got very scared by that so I needed to seek getting saved in some way. After awhile my desire to actually live life and feeling of being restricted by it freed me from xtianity. I started out in hearing Marilyn Manson music on the radio. Something felt familiar about that cause I was a Satanic soul in a past life it was close enough that it awakened me inside even though yeah it's fake Satanism and I can't stand that music now it feels like death energy and I am sure the guy is a kike. At that point I started literally believing in nothing going back and fourth with xtianity but I was awakened couldn't do it. Till I moved onto New Ageism wanting to gain psychic powers so I could do cool things that others couldn't (I know it sounds dumb but I literally was only 13 to 14 at that time so this is like what a teenager would do) so I found the site searching on google for stuff on psychic powers and deidcated.
So yeah I was always serious about religion stuff. But anyways I would like to feel like I am ok fully and relax more in these matters. Even someone else that was a Serious SS once told me you have to live in the material and actually live life not just focus on spiritual things. I take it this placement will be useful in the future for something I am going to do probably but not at this point. Part of the problem is too much focus on Sagittarius and Jupiter in general cause I have a bunch of planets in that and Jupiter aspects most things in my chart. I don't see that this is that useful. Cause no one in today's world cares about spiritual things that much. Plus I can be serious but lazy at the same time. Just thinking about and focusing on a lot of stuff not doing it. So I probably will not achieve Godhead this life for that reason. At least I am serious on spiritual warfare though or have been able to be. Sometimes I do little on that too but I think about it a lot.
Oh how great it would be if I added more meditations to my schedule I think about doing it maybe even do them some day but then kind of don't carry it on. But I am overly serious at the same time to the point some don't enjoy being around me sometimes. Part of the problem is my Jupiter placement along with Saturn. It is in Aries and aspecting Mars so I tend to think your either with me or your against me. Your against my beliefs this is war so your not my friend no matter how much you love me or try to help me. That kind of thing. So I am not really a friend to xtians or any of that. I think it would be helpful if I was a little calmer on these matters though. I think I have way too much fire energy I can go on long rants and tear just about anyone down if I think what they are doing is not right.
I would like to overcome some of the negatives of both Saturn here and maybe having too much Jupiter and Mars energy as well.
I know I could be a really cool person and fun and all that. My girlfriend has Saturn prominent about as much as Jupiter is in my chart. That is interesting in that we really get along and connect deeply she has 5 Capricorn placements and a bunch of Saturn Aspects. But she isn't serious at this point about spiritual things fully yet. I mean she is on our side but has trouble getting into mediatation as she can't focus and gets frustrated but she knows this is serious so feels bad sometimes.
I feel I am a little too serious about my beliefs and pushy on others. My Saturn is in Sagittarius (if you need more info let me know but I am trying not to reveal too much) But long story short this placement of Saturn and it would show if you saw it is the reason I ended up in a home where my dad was a pastor and my mom was serious into xtianity. I feel like I am way too serious in the area of beliefs and need to lighten up more enjoy life.
Originally it was because when I was around 4 or 5 people would sit there for hours telling me the horrors of hell and things like that (xtian version) and I got very scared by that so I needed to seek getting saved in some way. After awhile my desire to actually live life and feeling of being restricted by it freed me from xtianity. I started out in hearing Marilyn Manson music on the radio. Something felt familiar about that cause I was a Satanic soul in a past life it was close enough that it awakened me inside even though yeah it's fake Satanism and I can't stand that music now it feels like death energy and I am sure the guy is a kike. At that point I started literally believing in nothing going back and fourth with xtianity but I was awakened couldn't do it. Till I moved onto New Ageism wanting to gain psychic powers so I could do cool things that others couldn't (I know it sounds dumb but I literally was only 13 to 14 at that time so this is like what a teenager would do) so I found the site searching on google for stuff on psychic powers and deidcated.
So yeah I was always serious about religion stuff. But anyways I would like to feel like I am ok fully and relax more in these matters. Even someone else that was a Serious SS once told me you have to live in the material and actually live life not just focus on spiritual things. I take it this placement will be useful in the future for something I am going to do probably but not at this point. Part of the problem is too much focus on Sagittarius and Jupiter in general cause I have a bunch of planets in that and Jupiter aspects most things in my chart. I don't see that this is that useful. Cause no one in today's world cares about spiritual things that much. Plus I can be serious but lazy at the same time. Just thinking about and focusing on a lot of stuff not doing it. So I probably will not achieve Godhead this life for that reason. At least I am serious on spiritual warfare though or have been able to be. Sometimes I do little on that too but I think about it a lot.
Oh how great it would be if I added more meditations to my schedule I think about doing it maybe even do them some day but then kind of don't carry it on. But I am overly serious at the same time to the point some don't enjoy being around me sometimes. Part of the problem is my Jupiter placement along with Saturn. It is in Aries and aspecting Mars so I tend to think your either with me or your against me. Your against my beliefs this is war so your not my friend no matter how much you love me or try to help me. That kind of thing. So I am not really a friend to xtians or any of that. I think it would be helpful if I was a little calmer on these matters though. I think I have way too much fire energy I can go on long rants and tear just about anyone down if I think what they are doing is not right.
I would like to overcome some of the negatives of both Saturn here and maybe having too much Jupiter and Mars energy as well.
I know I could be a really cool person and fun and all that. My girlfriend has Saturn prominent about as much as Jupiter is in my chart. That is interesting in that we really get along and connect deeply she has 5 Capricorn placements and a bunch of Saturn Aspects. But she isn't serious at this point about spiritual things fully yet. I mean she is on our side but has trouble getting into mediatation as she can't focus and gets frustrated but she knows this is serious so feels bad sometimes.