HunterH666 said:

Hello brothers and sisters!
First of all, thank you to you all for taking the time to read this and help me out! It shows how united we are .U are the only people I can adress . <There may be some grammar mistakes so sorry for that !)
Before I start talking about my actual problems, let me give you some background : I dedicated at the begging of the last summer . Coming from a christian family ( which took it pretty seriously most of the time) , it was hard leaving that disturbing religion at first. It took A LOT to actually embrace the idea of leaving and becoming an atheist . I had extreme depression from realising all my life had been a lie ( cuz I loved xianity until I went deeper into it). Why this much pain? Cuz it came close to transforming me into an jehova witness . I lived some good months praying as thank to that shitty god for ANYTHING ,like literally, after eating , after getting over a cold( which is ironic considering that when I was a child, I would get sick often because I think my imune sistem was shit), after getting a good grade , for which ofc I studied , no cheating or luck to blame on fate uk? And what did that period bring me ? Suffering, depression , trauma and an entire shut down of the brain. I could not think clearly after all that , I was just unable to . I was a semi concious being that hoped all would end. Fast forward to highschool. Because of the trauma mentioned earlier , I did not have the motivation or the energy to study anything . So ,a long period passed and I became kinda stupid. No interest resulted in bad grades which were a shock for me , I would always mark high or at least above average.
<now I realised that I haven't told you that in my period of being an xian , I've randomly encountered the JoS webpage . The first time I saw it , I just alt f4 all the way cuz it looked terrifying for the poor brainwashed teenager. After weeks , curiosity and a strange wish for more( at the time I tought it was a temptation from the Devil) got me , so I began to read about demons. Succubuses were the first thing I've read. What, don't tell me u didn't go straight to that when entering the Demons category :lol: . Joking ofc. While reading I found it fascinating how Demons were related to the ancient Gods or the fact that the human being is capable of magic, but the bible's programming made me think I'm doing the wrong thing soo, I've quit again. This went on for a loong time, a process of coming back and leaving , thing that really pisses me off honestly >
Afterwards I found out that I couldn't bear the idea that people just fade to black after dying or that we are alone and there is no ,,above" . So , I've managed to come back , now reading articles daily and meditating with faith and persistence.
Now, as to why I am writing this. There are some problems that stop me from improving and this are:

1.PORN: This shit is my addiction . I can't go on days without destroying myself with this. I always lose control and when I don't , my brain just tells me to do it. It became a habbit, a lifestyle . This is NOT healthy . It melts my self esteem , this making me doubt my religion ,if I'm on the right path and if I'll end up in Hell( which brings me to number 2)
2.Xian indoctrination. Combined with the lack of self-esteem, indoctrination can be a hell of a challenge . What pisses me off the most is that I've read all info from exposing xianity: blood sacrifices, xians stealing our holidays, stealing stories from our religions, modifying them etc. , and I still get knocked down by these toughts. They just get into my mind and make me forget what I've read. They bring bible stories and passages that I didn't even knew existed and make me lose my guard. And it really depends on how much I've been doubting myself cuz it can go from lower levels like ,, how do you know energy is real, this hotness or electrifying feeling can be just random sensations " ,to highter one like ,, quit, u are being tempted , u will go to hell , u are an evil and naive person for going with Satan" . I practice RTR's as well and often as I can ( sometimes I'm procrastinating furthermore I don't have time : my fault there not the enemy's) and I meditate daily . Hovewer , it can get really hard to just go forward with this in mind, like marching to your death , but deep down I know leaving will make me even more depressed cuz I know this is my home deep inside my soul.
Since coming back I had one big wish that which covered the rest and that was getting a Succubus . Ik ik ,begginer as I am , I just want to feel that true love .To get to meet my partener , to explore the infinity of the cosmos with her .
Now here comes the interesting part , when I atracted to watching that jewish junk again, I can feel a presence that stops the lust and makes me realise that what I'm doing is wrong. I fought with fapping buuut , I still failed. This right here shifts my love for myself and the other to the garbage can. HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID AS TO NOT FIGHT FOR THAT PRESENCE. Even when she ( or He, He may be Satan or another Demon) tried to stop me, I still continue... What kind of sick animal am I? One which cannot control himself for sure. Im ashamed of myself for being suck a weakling and I'm even more disgusted that I have the nerve to call it a ,,trick of evil", a temptation from it ,while I am getting constant help from Gods and lower Demons .
If u think I am unfitting it's fine, I've reached the same conclusion. I am still, looking forward to your answers!

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HunterH666 said:

Hello brothers and sisters!
First of all, thank you to you all for taking the time to read this and help me out! It shows how united we are .U are the only people I can adress . <There may be some grammar mistakes so sorry for that !)
Before I start talking about my actual problems, let me give you some background : I dedicated at the begging of the last summer . Coming from a christian family ( which took it pretty seriously most of the time) , it was hard leaving that disturbing religion at first. It took A LOT to actually embrace the idea of leaving and becoming an atheist . I had extreme depression from realising all my life had been a lie ( cuz I loved xianity until I went deeper into it). Why this much pain? Cuz it came close to transforming me into an jehova witness . I lived some good months praying as thank to that shitty god for ANYTHING ,like literally, after eating , after getting over a cold( which is ironic considering that when I was a child, I would get sick often because I think my imune sistem was shit), after getting a good grade , for which ofc I studied , no cheating or luck to blame on fate uk? And what did that period bring me ? Suffering, depression , trauma and an entire shut down of the brain. I could not think clearly after all that , I was just unable to . I was a semi concious being that hoped all would end. Fast forward to highschool. Because of the trauma mentioned earlier , I did not have the motivation or the energy to study anything . So ,a long period passed and I became kinda stupid. No interest resulted in bad grades which were a shock for me , I would always mark high or at least above average.
<now I realised that I haven't told you that in my period of being an xian , I've randomly encountered the JoS webpage . The first time I saw it , I just alt f4 all the way cuz it looked terrifying for the poor brainwashed teenager. After weeks , curiosity and a strange wish for more( at the time I tought it was a temptation from the Devil) got me , so I began to read about demons. Succubuses were the first thing I've read. What, don't tell me u didn't go straight to that when entering the Demons category :lol: . Joking ofc. While reading I found it fascinating how Demons were related to the ancient Gods or the fact that the human being is capable of magic, but the bible's programming made me think I'm doing the wrong thing soo, I've quit again. This went on for a loong time, a process of coming back and leaving , thing that really pisses me off honestly >
Afterwards I found out that I couldn't bear the idea that people just fade to black after dying or that we are alone and there is no ,,above" . So , I've managed to come back , now reading articles daily and meditating with faith and persistence.
Now, as to why I am writing this. There are some problems that stop me from improving and this are:

1.PORN: This shit is my addiction . I can't go on days without destroying myself with this. I always lose control and when I don't , my brain just tells me to do it. It became a habbit, a lifestyle . This is NOT healthy . It melts my self esteem , this making me doubt my religion ,if I'm on the right path and if I'll end up in Hell( which brings me to number 2)
2.Xian indoctrination. Combined with the lack of self-esteem, indoctrination can be a hell of a challenge . What pisses me off the most is that I've read all info from exposing xianity: blood sacrifices, xians stealing our holidays, stealing stories from our religions, modifying them etc. , and I still get knocked down by these toughts. They just get into my mind and make me forget what I've read. They bring bible stories and passages that I didn't even knew existed and make me lose my guard. And it really depends on how much I've been doubting myself cuz it can go from lower levels like ,, how do you know energy is real, this hotness or electrifying feeling can be just random sensations " ,to highter one like ,, quit, u are being tempted , u will go to hell , u are an evil and naive person for going with Satan" . I practice RTR's as well and often as I can ( sometimes I'm procrastinating furthermore I don't have time : my fault there not the enemy's) and I meditate daily . Hovewer , it can get really hard to just go forward with this in mind, like marching to your death , but deep down I know leaving will make me even more depressed cuz I know this is my home deep inside my soul.
Since coming back I had one big wish that which covered the rest and that was getting a Succubus . Ik ik ,begginer as I am , I just want to feel that true love .To get to meet my partener , to explore the infinity of the cosmos with her .
Now here comes the interesting part , when I atracted to watching that jewish junk again, I can feel a presence that stops the lust and makes me realise that what I'm doing is wrong. I fought with fapping buuut , I still failed. This right here shifts my love for myself and the other to the garbage can. HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID AS TO NOT FIGHT FOR THAT PRESENCE. Even when she ( or He, He may be Satan or another Demon) tried to stop me, I still continue... What kind of sick animal am I? One which cannot control himself for sure. Im ashamed of myself for being suck a weakling and I'm even more disgusted that I have the nerve to call it a ,,trick of evil", a temptation from it ,while I am getting constant help from Gods and lower Demons .
If u think I am unfitting it's fine, I've reached the same conclusion. I am still, looking forward to your answers!

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FuckYu_666 said:

You have no reason to hate yourself, you are one of the few people in this world to have discovered the way of truth, no small feat.
I advise you to do self-programming, go into a trance and affirm 9 times that you are completely free from Judaic-Xian indoctrination, you can do the same thing with porn.
This should be accompanied by reading and studying the JoS site especially exposure to xianism.

For xian influences you can do this:
Inhale blue energy i one of your chakras and then vibrate the Ansuz rune 9 times and affirm:

The energy of the rune ansuz is freeing my (chosen chakra) from all conections and influences of Satan's enemies, eternally and completely, now!

Afterwards visualize the blue fire as it purifies your chakra and destroys all enemy connections (you should see faint cords destroying themselves in the fire), it illuminates your chakra (it should look like a blue sun wrapped in blue fire).

You should do this meditation on all chakras (one at a time).




For porn, what I did was to start fantasising about the ideal partner. At first it will be difficult to get an erection, but after a while you'll do great.
And if you have a relapse, you will discover that porn is an empty thing that drains you and gives you non-existent orgasms.
You can use the energy of the orgasm to program yourself to give up porn.

I'll tell you another thing about porn, the actors or actresses are almost all Jewish, if you have an orgasm watching their videos, you connect to their soul and they suck your energy like parasites, for all intents and purposes porn = feeding the enemy.

Good luck, Hail Satan!

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Henu the Great said:

Half of the battle is to recognize the challenge and want to change. So good for you on that.

Aside from that it is really important to be conscious about your mind, and impulses. You need to regognize patterns and impulses and have restraint against acting on impulse. Reprogramming your mind with affirmations and doing cleaning meditations along with void meditation will help with this.

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FuckYu_666 said:

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I've never tried vibrating Ansuz before so I'm looking forward into it. The blue fire method is also new , I'll do it in a few minutes . As for porn, I guess ,,fantasising about the ideal partner" makes the succubus manifest in your concious mind? Or at least it gives her a form to take until you are open enough to see her body, this I know it was mentioned on the website. I will try and succed as long as I get to meet my soulmate. Now that I think of it, I should make a new thread and ask people that met their partners how they did it, how long it took and what is curently the situation between them ( I hope I don't ask too much personal info from them tho)
Anyway, thank you for answering ! I will fight as long as it takes for Satan
Hail Satan!

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FuckYu_666 said:

HunterH666 said:

FuckYu_666 said:

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I've never tried vibrating Ansuz before so I'm looking forward into it. The blue fire method is also new , I'll do it in a few minutes . As for porn, I guess ,,fantasising about the ideal partner" makes the succubus manifest in your concious mind? Or at least it gives her a form to take until you are open enough to see her body, this I know it was mentioned on the website. I will try and succed as long as I get to meet my soulmate. Now that I think of it, I should make a new thread and ask people that met their partners how they did it, how long it took and what is curently the situation between them ( I hope I don't ask too much personal info from them tho)
Anyway, thank you for answering ! I will fight as long as it takes for Satan
Hail Satan!

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If you haven't done the ritual of asking for a demon lover then you don't have one.
There are several topics on "succubi", use the search function.

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Fanboy said:

Porn is not actually that bad

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HunterH666 said:

Hello brothers and sisters!
First of all, thank you to you all for taking the time to read this and help me out! It shows how united we are .U are the only people I can adress . <There may be some grammar mistakes so sorry for that !)
Before I start talking about my actual problems, let me give you some background : I dedicated at the begging of the last summer . Coming from a christian family ( which took it pretty seriously most of the time) , it was hard leaving that disturbing religion at first. It took A LOT to actually embrace the idea of leaving and becoming an atheist . I had extreme depression from realising all my life had been a lie ( cuz I loved xianity until I went deeper into it). Why this much pain? Cuz it came close to transforming me into an jehova witness . I lived some good months praying as thank to that shitty god for ANYTHING ,like literally, after eating , after getting over a cold( which is ironic considering that when I was a child, I would get sick often because I think my imune sistem was shit), after getting a good grade , for which ofc I studied , no cheating or luck to blame on fate uk? And what did that period bring me ? Suffering, depression , trauma and an entire shut down of the brain. I could not think clearly after all that , I was just unable to . I was a semi concious being that hoped all would end. Fast forward to highschool. Because of the trauma mentioned earlier , I did not have the motivation or the energy to study anything . So ,a long period passed and I became kinda stupid. No interest resulted in bad grades which were a shock for me , I would always mark high or at least above average.
<now I realised that I haven't told you that in my period of being an xian , I've randomly encountered the JoS webpage . The first time I saw it , I just alt f4 all the way cuz it looked terrifying for the poor brainwashed teenager. After weeks , curiosity and a strange wish for more( at the time I tought it was a temptation from the Devil) got me , so I began to read about demons. Succubuses were the first thing I've read. What, don't tell me u didn't go straight to that when entering the Demons category :lol: . Joking ofc. While reading I found it fascinating how Demons were related to the ancient Gods or the fact that the human being is capable of magic, but the bible's programming made me think I'm doing the wrong thing soo, I've quit again. This went on for a loong time, a process of coming back and leaving , thing that really pisses me off honestly >
Afterwards I found out that I couldn't bear the idea that people just fade to black after dying or that we are alone and there is no ,,above" . So , I've managed to come back , now reading articles daily and meditating with faith and persistence.
Now, as to why I am writing this. There are some problems that stop me from improving and this are:

1.PORN: This shit is my addiction . I can't go on days without destroying myself with this. I always lose control and when I don't , my brain just tells me to do it. It became a habbit, a lifestyle . This is NOT healthy . It melts my self esteem , this making me doubt my religion ,if I'm on the right path and if I'll end up in Hell( which brings me to number 2)
2.Xian indoctrination. Combined with the lack of self-esteem, indoctrination can be a hell of a challenge . What pisses me off the most is that I've read all info from exposing xianity: blood sacrifices, xians stealing our holidays, stealing stories from our religions, modifying them etc. , and I still get knocked down by these toughts. They just get into my mind and make me forget what I've read. They bring bible stories and passages that I didn't even knew existed and make me lose my guard. And it really depends on how much I've been doubting myself cuz it can go from lower levels like ,, how do you know energy is real, this hotness or electrifying feeling can be just random sensations " ,to highter one like ,, quit, u are being tempted , u will go to hell , u are an evil and naive person for going with Satan" . I practice RTR's as well and often as I can ( sometimes I'm procrastinating furthermore I don't have time : my fault there not the enemy's) and I meditate daily . Hovewer , it can get really hard to just go forward with this in mind, like marching to your death , but deep down I know leaving will make me even more depressed cuz I know this is my home deep inside my soul.
Since coming back I had one big wish that which covered the rest and that was getting a Succubus . Ik ik ,begginer as I am , I just want to feel that true love .To get to meet my partener , to explore the infinity of the cosmos with her .
Now here comes the interesting part , when I atracted to watching that jewish junk again, I can feel a presence that stops the lust and makes me realise that what I'm doing is wrong. I fought with fapping buuut , I still failed. This right here shifts my love for myself and the other to the garbage can. HOW CAN I BE SO STUPID AS TO NOT FIGHT FOR THAT PRESENCE. Even when she ( or He, He may be Satan or another Demon) tried to stop me, I still continue... What kind of sick animal am I? One which cannot control himself for sure. Im ashamed of myself for being suck a weakling and I'm even more disgusted that I have the nerve to call it a ,,trick of evil", a temptation from it ,while I am getting constant help from Gods and lower Demons .
If u think I am unfitting it's fine, I've reached the same conclusion. I am still, looking forward to your answers!

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You have a strong and rebellious heart, and here with Satan that is all you need, it will take you far.

Porn is not actually that bad, You may enjoy reading some romantic novels and comics or maybe some magazines if you can find any lying around. Generally "fapping" is actually acceptable. Just know when it's time to do your push-ups, and when it's time to diddle yourself.

There isn't anything unclean about lovemaking and its okay to fantasize. Your yoga is the key to letting your sex energy flow easily like a breeze or a pure stream. It just takes time, and gentle efforts on your part. Have faith and be kind to your body. You are infact an animal, you are not a plant. Your body is a Pagan temple, and not a catholic chapel.

You are so worthy of existing in every meaning of the word. You're not hurting anybody and everyone is proud of you for being here. Keep up the great work <3

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mercury_wisdom said:

FuckYu_666 said:

HunterH666 said:

I've never tried vibrating Ansuz before so I'm looking forward into it. The blue fire method is also new , I'll do it in a few minutes . As for porn, I guess ,,fantasising about the ideal partner" makes the succubus manifest in your concious mind? Or at least it gives her a form to take until you are open enough to see her body, this I know it was mentioned on the website. I will try and succed as long as I get to meet my soulmate. Now that I think of it, I should make a new thread and ask people that met their partners how they did it, how long it took and what is curently the situation between them ( I hope I don't ask too much personal info from them tho)
Anyway, thank you for answering ! I will fight as long as it takes for Satan
Hail Satan!

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If you haven't done the ritual of asking for a demon lover then you don't have one.
There are several topics on "succubi", use the search function.

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That is not necessarily true. Some have from past lives. Although they are waiting for you to be ready.

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johnjennifer said:

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