Sounds like you are in denial and trying to convince yourself that all is good. I'll leave you to it.
As for how I should be employing my spare time, you leave that to me. I've done more RTRs in one day than most people here have done in their whole life, which is something very few other people here can tell. My other duty is to give back for the amazing gift HPS Maxine in primis and the rest of clergy have given us. And I will spend as much or as little time as I want on it. Publicly or privately. Period.
So, keep your "go do more spiritual warfare" to yourself, as you also have no idea as to what my total energy reserves and energy output for each ritual is.
That being said, I read your reply this last time out of respect. I will not be reading any other reply that is not properly divided in paragraphs, since you do not have the same level of respect for necessary grammar conventions that most on here adhere to (thankfully).
For all other readers, do not get obsessed with Buddhism and comparing Satanism to it. Some people here, and it is not just Narciso, do not seem to understand that, once you know the truth about certain things, you make the necessary cuts in your life. For example, you cut leeches and other unhealthy/negative relationships from your life. I personally cut 3 leeches out of it.
Next we'll have someone promoting alcohol or marijuana, focusing excluding on the perceived positive effects of them, unwilling to become independent from them and use something else that is 100% positive for you instead of having severe drawbacks. The behaviour of an addict can be of two types:
• denying the negatives and focusing only on the positive (cf. New Agers);
• repeating the same compulsive behaviour despite knowing its damages.
Both are equally difficult to defeat but you can have help in the SS Health forum.
Some addictions, such as passive entertainment, may be either used occasionally in moderation or eliminated completely. Others, such as porn, alcohol, tobacco, drugs, veganism, and others are best cut off completely. Getting outside the delusion that, just because you cannot see the actual damage (short-term), there is no damage, it's key.
Giving up on things that you have been brainwashed by society to believe they are fun may make you unhappy short-term as when you're dealing with trauma, as it is dross in your soul that you are facing. Once you have freed yourself from it, however, you will understand which positive things are aligned to your soul and you can use those to entertain yourself and have fun in your spare time. In time, you will find out that robots/machine are actually those who are ensnared in the enemy vortex of negativity which is politically-correct, socially-acceptable and popular "fun"/entertainment, while you that are free from it are actually the one who is exerting free will and being true to your soul, to yourself.
They way is not to just passively read what I am saying, but to make the decision for yourself to take action today and free yourself. Best of luck with that, guys.