My mother and father were never christians, and for this reason I had no attachment to god. But through my sister's influence, I came to know religion. I started to get attached to it, and actually believed what they said about it (or almost everything), and felt good things coming from somewhere.

But when I met JOS, through someone's influence, I started to review and question everything I had been told about him for a long time, open to new things and especially to JOS. I realized the countless errors that the christian religion had, but each time I studied, the more lost and anxious I felt, because something always called me to return to god and said that I was doing wrong and would regret the rest of my life. There is always something pulling me back and telling me how wrong I am.

I have had some positive experiences and feel like going deep, but this fear and horrible feeling always haunts me. Maybe because of the christian influence around me, I allow myself to take their opinions. Because I am a newbie, I was also afraid to say this publicly. I really want to give myself, Satanas and his demons a chance, but I don't know how to get this heavy feeling out of me, and I want to move on without any fear. How can I stop feeling that I am making mistakes all the time?

The best thing you can do to deprogram from Xianity, is to continue delving into xianity. Because the more you look into it, the more fallacies, stupidity, lies and corruption you will see.

We do not mistreat anybody for having the bravery to question xianity and ask for answers. Myself personally, I have a lot of respect for you for having the courage to step outside the comfort of the xian beliefs and question these same beliefs. We are about truth, and truth does not fear investigation.

You are welcome to ask any questions you may have.

Understand that xianity is a program that binds and enslaves the souls of gentiles, and feeling like you're being pulled back into it is not abnormal. This will fade as you deprogram and liberate your soul.


https://satanslibrary.org/ExposingChristianity/EXPOSING_CHRISTIANITY_MAIN.html

https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=245132#p245132

https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Freeing_the_Soul.html

https://satanism-nazism.webs.com/hp_hooded_cobra_40_day_meditation_program.pdf

Just say to yourself that this jewsus rabbi is a jew and he/it wants only the best for his own tribe.
"I am not a jew, idc what he/it says, i will take my life into my own hands, no jew has the right to tell me what to do."
He never even existed, it is a jewish hippie thoughtform,
which uses the goodness of humans against them in order to enslave them. It is like a parasite which attaches to your soul.

Humans need to be strong and independent, take responsibility for themselves and their souls and not be babies to some sort of imaginary jewish babysitter.
And then dedicate and work on your soul and grow/advance.