BrightSpace666
Member
I haven't been in touch recently, and I feel I have to write something about it here. The reason is that I have been busy. I read the forums every single day, I don't miss a day, I just don't log in often. I follow the current developments with JoS.
I have a lot of plans, but I do them all on my own and often get discouraged and realize it's stupid, but then I start again and realize it again - this paradigm repeats itself a lot, maybe I should find a constructive state in between.
My I2P site has similar problems - I often don't feel like it. I don't know the reason for this, maybe some kind of regressive phenomenon deep in my soul, who knows.
I've had problems [suicidal urges, self-harm, etc.], I've always been aware of the psychological and spiritual reasons for it, but I didn't do anything about it, but I'm putting an end to this "destructive" tendency.
My Guardian Demoness pointed out things I had no idea about, and after long conversations with Satan, I understood certain things about myself, but I still don't feel complete.
They tell me things in vain, but they require a higher level of understanding, which is harder than before because of my lifestyle. For years I have had a routine of meditation, breathing exercises and yoga, but I have been doing these irresponsibly.
They have helped me a lot and I have made progress in Kundalini, but my inhibitions are still strong and my personality makes me prone to "negative" things.
I am trying to fix myself, but it takes time.
I used to write many, many longer, relevant posts, but lately I feel like I have nothing to write about. I have also noticed in my meditations that I am "weakening". I find it harder to do in meditation what I used to do easily.
I've never had to practice visualization because it is monumentally vivid - I often can't distinguish reality from my visions and visualizations, but lately I seem to be having trouble with that too.
I've been neglecting myself.
My site on I2P, Kundalini-Tool - all part of a big Project of mine, but they take time to implement because as I said, I'm working on all of them on my own, and that's fine, I'm just moving slower.
I also want to extend more and more of JoS to the Tor network, Lokinet, I2P, and these will manifest in the near future. I'm fucking sick of lizards and they will get what they deserve back.
The idea has occurred to me that moving JoS, Forums to Tor or I2P would monumentally increase the security of members and also increase the security status of the sites against attacks.
The Kundalini-Tool is under development - 2 new "Tools" have been added, one is finished, the other I'm still fiddling with as it doesn't work properly. The current scripts have also been reworked.
Kundalini-Tool is growing intensively in both structure and strength. I'll be honest and say that instead of this post, I'm going to write an updated version of the Kundalini-Tool, as I had planned to publish it today.
Since I test it constantly and don't let it out of my hands without testing and confirmation, I did so this time. But there were problems in the script lines that I had no idea could cause problems.
Fixing these won't take much time (I hope), as the vast majority of the scripts work for 95% of the time. They work now, there is only a "minor" problem with the recovery (For example, restoring the original DNS addresses, etc).
I did not want to write such a long post, as I just wanted to write a little "status report" about me.
The point is that I'm here and I'm working in the background for a while. I'll be back on the Forums on a regular basis, as I have been, only now I'm devoting more time to my programming projects. Maybe I should take myself more seriously - whatever.
My love for Joy Of Satan has continued to grow lately. I am proud of you all, and proud to have such a large family in the presence of Satan and the Gods. I never leave Joy Of Satan, that is a fact. Spiritually we all belong to Satan, no one will change that in any way no matter how hard they try.
My goal with my Projects is to ensure the safety and well being of Joy Of Satan and my Brothers and Sisters on a monumental level, the Kundalini-Tool serves that purpose. Joy Of Satan must be taken to the sky so that the light reaches everyone.
Blessed are you, my Brothers and Sisters in Our Father Satan, and remember - You are the light in the darkness.
BrightSpace666
I have a lot of plans, but I do them all on my own and often get discouraged and realize it's stupid, but then I start again and realize it again - this paradigm repeats itself a lot, maybe I should find a constructive state in between.
My I2P site has similar problems - I often don't feel like it. I don't know the reason for this, maybe some kind of regressive phenomenon deep in my soul, who knows.
I've had problems [suicidal urges, self-harm, etc.], I've always been aware of the psychological and spiritual reasons for it, but I didn't do anything about it, but I'm putting an end to this "destructive" tendency.
My Guardian Demoness pointed out things I had no idea about, and after long conversations with Satan, I understood certain things about myself, but I still don't feel complete.
They tell me things in vain, but they require a higher level of understanding, which is harder than before because of my lifestyle. For years I have had a routine of meditation, breathing exercises and yoga, but I have been doing these irresponsibly.
They have helped me a lot and I have made progress in Kundalini, but my inhibitions are still strong and my personality makes me prone to "negative" things.
I am trying to fix myself, but it takes time.
I used to write many, many longer, relevant posts, but lately I feel like I have nothing to write about. I have also noticed in my meditations that I am "weakening". I find it harder to do in meditation what I used to do easily.
I've never had to practice visualization because it is monumentally vivid - I often can't distinguish reality from my visions and visualizations, but lately I seem to be having trouble with that too.
I've been neglecting myself.
My site on I2P, Kundalini-Tool - all part of a big Project of mine, but they take time to implement because as I said, I'm working on all of them on my own, and that's fine, I'm just moving slower.
I also want to extend more and more of JoS to the Tor network, Lokinet, I2P, and these will manifest in the near future. I'm fucking sick of lizards and they will get what they deserve back.
The idea has occurred to me that moving JoS, Forums to Tor or I2P would monumentally increase the security of members and also increase the security status of the sites against attacks.
The Kundalini-Tool is under development - 2 new "Tools" have been added, one is finished, the other I'm still fiddling with as it doesn't work properly. The current scripts have also been reworked.
Kundalini-Tool is growing intensively in both structure and strength. I'll be honest and say that instead of this post, I'm going to write an updated version of the Kundalini-Tool, as I had planned to publish it today.
Since I test it constantly and don't let it out of my hands without testing and confirmation, I did so this time. But there were problems in the script lines that I had no idea could cause problems.
Fixing these won't take much time (I hope), as the vast majority of the scripts work for 95% of the time. They work now, there is only a "minor" problem with the recovery (For example, restoring the original DNS addresses, etc).
I did not want to write such a long post, as I just wanted to write a little "status report" about me.
The point is that I'm here and I'm working in the background for a while. I'll be back on the Forums on a regular basis, as I have been, only now I'm devoting more time to my programming projects. Maybe I should take myself more seriously - whatever.
My love for Joy Of Satan has continued to grow lately. I am proud of you all, and proud to have such a large family in the presence of Satan and the Gods. I never leave Joy Of Satan, that is a fact. Spiritually we all belong to Satan, no one will change that in any way no matter how hard they try.
My goal with my Projects is to ensure the safety and well being of Joy Of Satan and my Brothers and Sisters on a monumental level, the Kundalini-Tool serves that purpose. Joy Of Satan must be taken to the sky so that the light reaches everyone.
Blessed are you, my Brothers and Sisters in Our Father Satan, and remember - You are the light in the darkness.
BrightSpace666
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