I am currently going through a Saturn return and it's honestly been kicking me in the ass emotionally. I have strong random bouts of depression, anxiety, low energy, stress, loneliness, insecurity, etc. I am no stranger to intense negativity but the constant internal pain is something I really want to overcome. My natal Saturn is also very strong by default in where it's placed and is aspecting pretty much everything important for my chart, including first house. I noticed that when Saturn or the Moon is strong are the worst times. So Monday/Saturday and any day during the hour of Saturn/Moon. My middle and throat chakras seem to be suffering the most and have a constant nagging feeling to them. I have been focusing on cleaning them.
So far I have done 2 Sun squares and 1 Ur + Ansuz working before the return started quite a few months ago, hoping it would help mitigate it. As for during the Saturn return, I have started an extra aura of protection working to explicitly defend against Saturn energies, transits, and influences. I added in more yoga and cleaning as well, but my emotional state is still garbage. It's been taking a huge toll on my practices and I barely finish them all each day.
A lot of my current problems and emotional state were already issues before the return and I understand that I need to resolve them but for now, I am just looking for a way to get through the transit smoothly and peacefully. I plan on starting multiple workings to combat where Saturn is strongest in my chart. One example being that it's placed in my 11th house. I have always had a problem with making friends and connections with people but at the moment I am basically completely alone and isolated from everyone. I wanted to start a few workings for friends but an optimal timing is a month away. Then it will take who knows how long before it manifests.
I have consulted with Father Satan on this matter a lot recently and don't know where I would be without his guidance thus far. I was trying not to post this but I think I hit a point where it's needed. Any advise is greatly appreciated!
So far I have done 2 Sun squares and 1 Ur + Ansuz working before the return started quite a few months ago, hoping it would help mitigate it. As for during the Saturn return, I have started an extra aura of protection working to explicitly defend against Saturn energies, transits, and influences. I added in more yoga and cleaning as well, but my emotional state is still garbage. It's been taking a huge toll on my practices and I barely finish them all each day.
A lot of my current problems and emotional state were already issues before the return and I understand that I need to resolve them but for now, I am just looking for a way to get through the transit smoothly and peacefully. I plan on starting multiple workings to combat where Saturn is strongest in my chart. One example being that it's placed in my 11th house. I have always had a problem with making friends and connections with people but at the moment I am basically completely alone and isolated from everyone. I wanted to start a few workings for friends but an optimal timing is a month away. Then it will take who knows how long before it manifests.
I have consulted with Father Satan on this matter a lot recently and don't know where I would be without his guidance thus far. I was trying not to post this but I think I hit a point where it's needed. Any advise is greatly appreciated!