Artanis
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Short-tempered, violent dad for 12-13 years of my life, while having childhood ADHD, getting bullied at primary school from 2nd grade(8 years old), to the end of primary school (9th grade; 16 years old). Depression, bad depression, suicidal thoughts, few close-call suicide attempts(Almost succeeded, never really had the will to. If i had committed, it would have been by accident), parents knew, didnt care(Thought of it as "just a big temper-tantrum"). Horrific 9 year long anxiety/panic attacks. Without the count of 1 extremely good and close one for a few years, NO friends whatsoever in life(Am 23 by Mays end). Aspergers syndrome. Slow motor development.
Its a wonder im still ALIVE, let alone have the will to do anything. The only thing that i have picked up from all these years, is rational and analytical thinking. The ONLY thing that can get me to advance myself, would be to get something that motivates me EVERY. SINGLE. DAY: Good, close friends, love interest(NOT my soul mate), something physical that appreciates me developing, keeping me motivated. I HAVE the long-term goal/s, but i MUST also have day-to-day motivations as well. Before that happens, i WILL NOT advance a day. And NO, i AM like a car without fuel(That day-to-day motivation) right now. I wont start going forward without it...
Its a wonder im still ALIVE, let alone have the will to do anything. The only thing that i have picked up from all these years, is rational and analytical thinking. The ONLY thing that can get me to advance myself, would be to get something that motivates me EVERY. SINGLE. DAY: Good, close friends, love interest(NOT my soul mate), something physical that appreciates me developing, keeping me motivated. I HAVE the long-term goal/s, but i MUST also have day-to-day motivations as well. Before that happens, i WILL NOT advance a day. And NO, i AM like a car without fuel(That day-to-day motivation) right now. I wont start going forward without it...