666fairy said:

I want nothing to do with Joy of Satan or Lucifer anymore. It was a mistake and realize Satan used my childhood trauma against me to decieve me to worship him.

I have been a devout Satanist since 2016 and it has landed me in scary, scary, scary places. It has led me to being human trafficked, homeless, raped multiple times, attacked and bullied everywhere I go, and to havesevere depression and spiritual attacks and be under severe spiritual warfare. Everywhere i go I see creepy ugly looking people who wear satanic symbols. I get bullied all the time despite being kind hearted, and polite unless I have to defend myself.

Last year I decided after only being on the main website to come on ancient forums and the fact people bullied and attacked me on here off the bat just for asking for help should of been my sign to turn to God, but instead I got deeper into Satanism and fought for Satan with all my heart.

Now I know that I have been deceived and lied to. Satanism has made me isolated, depressed, even more suicidal than I was as a child, and is ruining my life. I think spiritual awakening is evil and demonic and designed to make you kill yourself. I have thrown out all my crystals and my tarot deck and occult items and repented to the Lord

I have turned back to satanism and now worship Jesus Christ after deep thought. I was getting attacked in my sleep and the only think that helped was saying in the name of jesus. Doing daily aura cleaning and building, cleansing my soul, returning hexes and spells to senders, doing extreme cord cutting, and rituals for protection on a daily basis for a year now should of made my life better, but nope. im on the verge of suicidal.

Its crazy because when I was really fighting for satan, and I was homeless i would have ppl target me and talk about the devil, one time this guy locked me in a closet and told me the devil is lurking in the corner and terrorized me and wouldnt let me leave. why didnt i see this as a sign to find god?

The only thing that only makes me slightly still believe this website is that I get stalked and harassed by jews and they look very creepy and ugly, but nope. my life is worse than it was when i was a christian as a teenager. i had a horrible childhood and my adulthood is worse.

Please ban my account i want nothing to do with this and im very scared.

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Satan does not use any form of trauma against us. He also does not want nor need any "worship", either. You are highly mistaken.

I ask - turn to which god and which "the lord"? We are to become Gods or Goddesses, depending on if we are Male or Female, ourselves. We do not need any man-in-the-middle actors to rely on. We learn to rely on ourselves and 'save our own Souls'.

Spiritual awakening is evil? So you wish to be ignorant and controlled by others who decide things for you? It certainly is not designed to make you kill yourself. This is utter nonsense.

OK. You enjoy being a christian, pretending that you have Spiritual knowledge - but don't forget; "jesus" is a plagiarised character, stolen from multiple much-older Gods, all squashed into one faerie tale story book character. Also don't forget that "jesus" never prevents Children from being abused by "priests" - whether that's catholic christianity or protestant christianity, or islam, or other, "jesus" never prevented it; "jesus" refuses and refuses repeatedly to prevent it from happening.

No-one is forcing you, nor anyone else, to come here or remain here. If you want to leave, then leave; your account being here makes no difference. The fact that you posted this tirade sounds more like attention-seeking; if you simply left, then nothing would have been said and no mind would have been paid to you nor your account.

You are either highly mistaken, pissing about like a troll seeking attention, or you might just be a jew yourself. Whether you stay and participate, lurk, or leave; whether you go to "jesus" or whatever you do, this ministry, its sites and its members and its goal, the Cause, are not going to stop; in fact, it will continue on and it will increase, and ultimately it will eradicate christianity its sibling islam and their parent root judaism once and for all. Indeed - we all will see.

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FancyMancy said:

Satan does not use any form of trauma against us. He also does not want nor need any "worship", either. You are highly mistaken.

I ask - turn to which god and which "the lord"? We are to become Gods or Goddesses, depending on if we are Male or Female, ourselves. We do not need any man-in-the-middle actors to rely on. We learn to rely on ourselves and 'save our own Souls'.

Spiritual awakening is evil? So you wish to be ignorant and controlled by others who decide things for you? It certainly is not designed to make you kill yourself. This is utter nonsense.

OK. You enjoy being a christian, pretending that you have Spiritual knowledge - but don't forget; "jesus" is a plagiarised character, stolen from multiple much-older Gods, all squashed into one faerie tale story book character. Also don't forget that "jesus" never prevents Children from being abused by "priests" - whether that's catholic christianity or protestant christianity, or islam, or other, "jesus" never prevented it; "jesus" refuses and refuses repeatedly to prevent it from happening.

No-one is forcing you, nor anyone else, to come here or remain here. If you want to leave, then leave; your account being here makes no difference. The fact that you posted this tirade sounds more like attention-seeking; if you simply left, then nothing would have been said and no mind would have been paid to you nor your account.

You are either highly mistaken, pissing about like a troll seeking attention, or you might just be a jew yourself. Whether you stay and participate, lurk, or leave; whether you go to "jesus" or whatever you do, this ministry, its sites and its members and its goal, the Cause, are not going to stop; in fact, it will continue on and it will increase, and ultimately it will eradicate christianity its sibling islam and their parent root judaism once and for all. Indeed - we all will see.

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666fairy said:

I want nothing to do with Joy of Satan or Lucifer anymore. It was a mistake and realize Satan used my childhood trauma against me to decieve me to worship him.

I have been a devout Satanist since 2016 and it has landed me in scary, scary, scary places. It has led me to being human trafficked, homeless, raped multiple times, attacked and bullied everywhere I go, and to havesevere depression and spiritual attacks and be under severe spiritual warfare. Everywhere i go I see creepy ugly looking people who wear satanic symbols. I get bullied all the time despite being kind hearted, and polite unless I have to defend myself.

Last year I decided after only being on the main website to come on ancient forums and the fact people bullied and attacked me on here off the bat just for asking for help should of been my sign to turn to God, but instead I got deeper into Satanism and fought for Satan with all my heart.

Now I know that I have been deceived and lied to. Satanism has made me isolated, depressed, even more suicidal than I was as a child, and is ruining my life. I think spiritual awakening is evil and demonic and designed to make you kill yourself. I have thrown out all my crystals and my tarot deck and occult items and repented to the Lord

I have turned back to satanism and now worship Jesus Christ after deep thought. I was getting attacked in my sleep and the only think that helped was saying in the name of jesus. Doing daily aura cleaning and building, cleansing my soul, returning hexes and spells to senders, doing extreme cord cutting, and rituals for protection on a daily basis for a year now should of made my life better, but nope. im on the verge of suicidal.

Its crazy because when I was really fighting for satan, and I was homeless i would have ppl target me and talk about the devil, one time this guy locked me in a closet and told me the devil is lurking in the corner and terrorized me and wouldnt let me leave. why didnt i see this as a sign to find god?

The only thing that only makes me slightly still believe this website is that I get stalked and harassed by jews and they look very creepy and ugly, but nope. my life is worse than it was when i was a christian as a teenager. i had a horrible childhood and my adulthood is worse.

Please ban my account i want nothing to do with this and im very scared.

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If you want explain a little more. What kind of protection do you do try runes instead of cutting the cords in some cases if it's a deep attachment such as ansuz.

Were you being open about being Satanist if so that is the cause of some of this it's not recommended. If those people knew they are trying to scare you out of it. This stuff doesn't need to happen.

I don't have enough details to know what was going on fully.

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Well you are doing something very wrong. Itsstarfire, you are doing something HORRIBLY wrong.

Okay, you not so intelligent individual.... you fought for Satan, you destroyed the Hebrew letters, you attacked the Jews, Jewsus, YHWH, and the Angels...

DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT AFTER EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE TO THEM IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE SATAN AND THE DEMONS SO YOU CAN GO TO THE ENEMY, WHO HATES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING?

Well, tbh, after being a Satanist for so long, you have done something horribly wrong. Maybe stop blaming Satan and take responsibility for your own fucking live, situation and relationships. But no of course, you blame Satan. Little princess is still super upset after going against people.

Well, I can tell you something, from now on, everything will go down hill, if you think that live was bad before, you are in for a ride.

Satan was the only thing between you and them, have fun as once someone willingly leaves Satan, Satan also leaves them, you are without and you are alone now.

To anyone who is like this person, this is how NOT TO DO IT, there is NO GOING BACK!

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666fairy said:

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Well you are doing something very wrong. Itsstarfire, you are doing something HORRIBLY wrong.

Okay, you not so intelligent individual.... you fought for Satan, you destroyed the Hebrew letters, you attacked the Jews, Jewsus, YHWH, and the Angels...

DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT AFTER EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE TO THEM IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE SATAN AND THE DEMONS SO YOU CAN GO TO THE ENEMY, WHO HATES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING?

Well, tbh, after being a Satanist for so long, you have done something horribly wrong. Maybe stop blaming Satan and take responsibility for your own fucking live, situation and relationships. But no of course, you blame Satan. Little princess is still super upset after going against people.

Well, I can tell you something, from now on, everything will go down hill, if you think that live was bad before, you are in for a ride.

Satan was the only thing between you and them, have fun as once someone willingly leaves Satan, Satan also leaves them, you are without and you are alone now.

To anyone who is like this person, this is how NOT TO DO IT, there is NO GOING BACK!

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jrvan said:

The liars keep getting worse at lying lately even though they believe they are getting more clever. How ridiculous.

If you aren't a jew then do remember what the spiritual consequences are for lying about Satan and blaming him for your problems.

If you are a jew then I don't need to say anything else. You know what you are, and you know why you are doing this - to influence people to leave. No other reason for this post.

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NinRick said:

666fairy said:

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Well you are doing something very wrong. Itsstarfire, you are doing something HORRIBLY wrong.

Okay, you not so intelligent individual.... you fought for Satan, you destroyed the Hebrew letters, you attacked the Jews, Jewsus, YHWH, and the Angels...

DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT AFTER EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE TO THEM IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE SATAN AND THE DEMONS SO YOU CAN GO TO THE ENEMY, WHO HATES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING?

Well, tbh, after being a Satanist for so long, you have done something horribly wrong. Maybe stop blaming Satan and take responsibility for your own fucking live, situation and relationships. But no of course, you blame Satan. Little princess is still super upset after going against people.

Well, I can tell you something, from now on, everything will go down hill, if you think that live was bad before, you are in for a ride.

Satan was the only thing between you and them, have fun as once someone willingly leaves Satan, Satan also leaves them, you are without and you are alone now.

To anyone who is like this person, this is how NOT TO DO IT, there is NO GOING BACK!

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MY LIFE IS ALREADY A FUCKING LIVING NIGHTMARE LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST FUCKING BAN MY ACCOUNT. I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THS LIVING NIGHTMARE. 26 YEARS OF EXTREME ABUSE AND BULLYING AND TORTURE I HATE HUMANS AND I HATE THIS WORLD.


people never help and just kick me when im already down.i just need campssion and empathy and never given that, just treated like shit when im hurting badly

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slyscorpion said:

666fairy said:

NinRick said:

Well you are doing something very wrong. Itsstarfire, you are doing something HORRIBLY wrong.

Okay, you not so intelligent individual.... you fought for Satan, you destroyed the Hebrew letters, you attacked the Jews, Jewsus, YHWH, and the Angels...

DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT AFTER EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE TO THEM IT IS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE SATAN AND THE DEMONS SO YOU CAN GO TO THE ENEMY, WHO HATES YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING?

Well, tbh, after being a Satanist for so long, you have done something horribly wrong. Maybe stop blaming Satan and take responsibility for your own fucking live, situation and relationships. But no of course, you blame Satan. Little princess is still super upset after going against people.

Well, I can tell you something, from now on, everything will go down hill, if you think that live was bad before, you are in for a ride.

Satan was the only thing between you and them, have fun as once someone willingly leaves Satan, Satan also leaves them, you are without and you are alone now.

To anyone who is like this person, this is how NOT TO DO IT, there is NO GOING BACK!

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MY LIFE IS ALREADY A FUCKING LIVING NIGHTMARE LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST FUCKING BAN MY ACCOUNT. I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THS LIVING NIGHTMARE. 26 YEARS OF EXTREME ABUSE AND BULLYING AND TORTURE I HATE HUMANS AND I HATE THIS WORLD.


people never help and just kick me when im already down.i just need campssion and empathy and never given that, just treated like shit when im hurting badly

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We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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666fairy said:

slyscorpion said:

666fairy said:

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If you want explain a little more. What kind of protection do you do try runes instead of cutting the cords in some cases if it's a deep attachment such as ansuz.

Were you being open about being Satanist if so that is the cause of some of this it's not recommended. If those people knew they are trying to scare you out of it. This stuff doesn't need to happen.

I don't have enough details to know what was going on fully.

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i dont even want to go into full details cause i already know im gunna be accused as usual of being crazy a jew, a drug addict. i cant take the accusations and mental abuse anymore. im not fucking a drug addict i hate drugs, i eat very healthy. im tired of people bearing false witness and speaking on my life when theyre not arround to wittness or expeirece the living hell i am going through my whole life. this life is cruel sick joke i want to commit suicide i cant take it anymore

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666fairy said:

slyscorpion said:

666fairy said:

MY LIFE IS ALREADY A FUCKING LIVING NIGHTMARE LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST FUCKING BAN MY ACCOUNT. I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THS LIVING NIGHTMARE. 26 YEARS OF EXTREME ABUSE AND BULLYING AND TORTURE I HATE HUMANS AND I HATE THIS WORLD.


people never help and just kick me when im already down.i just need campssion and empathy and never given that, just treated like shit when im hurting badly

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We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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I dont have. victim mentality, i am repeatedly being victimized. the fact im too scared to leave my home should be evidence enough of that, you people arent here with me to see how people treat me on a regular basis, and they know ts wrong because just the other day the hair salon kept apologizing for the stylists bullying me and gave me a refund. i couldnt believe it even happened, everytime i leave my home im at risk of cruel treatment for no reason this is extreme spiritual warefare im scared for my life and im scared God si punishing me for a being a satanist i will do anything to make this stop

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666fairy said:

slyscorpion said:

666fairy said:

MY LIFE IS ALREADY A FUCKING LIVING NIGHTMARE LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST FUCKING BAN MY ACCOUNT. I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THS LIVING NIGHTMARE. 26 YEARS OF EXTREME ABUSE AND BULLYING AND TORTURE I HATE HUMANS AND I HATE THIS WORLD.


people never help and just kick me when im already down.i just need campssion and empathy and never given that, just treated like shit when im hurting badly

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We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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I dont have. victim mentality, i am repeatedly being victimized. the fact im too scared to leave my home should be evidence enough of that, you people arent here with me to see how people treat me on a regular basis, and they know ts wrong because just the other day the hair salon kept apologizing for the stylists bullying me and gave me a refund. i couldnt believe it even happened, everytime i leave my home im at risk of cruel treatment for no reason this is extreme spiritual warefare im scared for my life and im scared God si punishing me for a being a satanist i will do anything to make this stop

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666fairy said:

slyscorpion said:

666fairy said:

MY LIFE IS ALREADY A FUCKING LIVING NIGHTMARE LEAVE ME ALONE AND JUST FUCKING BAN MY ACCOUNT. I WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY OF THS LIVING NIGHTMARE. 26 YEARS OF EXTREME ABUSE AND BULLYING AND TORTURE I HATE HUMANS AND I HATE THIS WORLD.


people never help and just kick me when im already down.i just need campssion and empathy and never given that, just treated like shit when im hurting badly

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We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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I dont have. victim mentality, i am repeatedly being victimized. the fact im too scared to leave my home should be evidence enough of that, you people arent here with me to see how people treat me on a regular basis, and they know ts wrong because just the other day the hair salon kept apologizing for the stylists bullying me and gave me a refund. i couldnt believe it even happened, everytime i leave my home im at risk of cruel treatment for no reason this is extreme spiritual warefare im scared for my life and im scared God si punishing me for a being a satanist i will do anything to make this stop

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FancyMancy said:

The World currently is shit. That's a fact. Getting all bent out of shape about that hurts yourself firstly and mostly. Instead of trying to change the World, change yourself; instead of trying to improve the World, improve yourself. You can't be the World's strongest man after going to the gym once, nor for one year, nor for 6 years. You have to train correctly and train in things which are relevant to that goal, in the gym. You have to just ignore the shit which is happening. Alright, you care, you care too much - in an unorthodox way I say to you - stop caring. Not literally, but just go on strike for a while. Obviously you won't stop caring, but swing the pendulum to the opposite for a while. You should also be doing non-Spiritual things in everyday life, as well. This is as important as doing Spiritual things. There has to be balance.

Life and the World currently are shit. My words on here are shit in comparison with speaking in tones and inflections in-person, with body language and facial expressions - but that is not going to happen, so just accept it. Accept the status quo - you don't have to agree with it, you don't have to like it, you don't have to hear it, but just accept that's how things have been made to be. Stop for a while, sit back and observe other things, but don't take your eye off the ball completely. Do some things that you actually enjoy doing. You have access to an Internet-enabled device, go play some shit or good games (but don't waste money on them), listen to some music, watch some TV or films - I dare you to watch some things you wouldn't be interested in, say any genre which you find distasteful or cringey or stupid, watch some crappy Jerry Springer or Orange County (presuming you're not into these things), etc... Why? Because - that's why.

I don't know you. I'm not accusing you, I'm speculating, listing different possibilities. There is no jewish "god" to punish you because it doesn't exist. I think you need to do some serious, committed and consistent Void Meditation once after waking up and once before going to sleep, every single day, until... the cows come home. Also do the Muñka (Freeing the Soul) working 3, 6 or 9 times, for 40 days each (i.e. 3, 6 or 9 times 40 days), without skipping nor missing any days - but start slowly, though; it can dig-up things which have been buried down deeply, and that can be painful or worse. You also need to do the non-Spiritual things which you enjoy. Believe it or don't, you can have and do too much of a good thing, so go and do other good things for a while. Obviously, doing bad things won't counter these too-many good things, so don't do any bad things.

You may very well need to pretend that you are a good little christian sheep and pretend that you don't believe in the things that others oppose. There is nothing wrong with keeping your true Satanic self a secret. We live Physical lives in a Physical World, and in that Physical World exists christianity and other shit. You choose to be a christian or not, but there is way too much evidence and proof that it is pure evil, and will not help you. We also live Spiritual lives in a Spiritual World, and just like that that is "hidden" or "secret", so can it also be kept a secret and be kept hidden from others.

As you say, we're not there and we're not witnessing things, so we can only reply a certain limit. You have abilities - use them. Improve. The point of Spiritual Satanism is to better Yourself and the Universe, not to better the Universe and Yourself. 1 is super important, take care of 1 first.

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My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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jrvan said:

666fairy said:

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We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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I dont have. victim mentality, i am repeatedly being victimized. the fact im too scared to leave my home should be evidence enough of that, you people arent here with me to see how people treat me on a regular basis, and they know ts wrong because just the other day the hair salon kept apologizing for the stylists bullying me and gave me a refund. i couldnt believe it even happened, everytime i leave my home im at risk of cruel treatment for no reason this is extreme spiritual warefare im scared for my life and im scared God si punishing me for a being a satanist i will do anything to make this stop

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Then for once in your life stand up to your bullies. You somehow feel comfortable enough coming here to run your mouth and yell in all-caps at Satanists while threatening to take your life, but you can't stand up for yourself against a bunch of weak xians? Do we just not look intimidating or scary enough to you for you to take us seriously? Do we look like teddy bears to you? We could do far worse to you spiritually than any of the people you've met offline, but you feel comfortable yelling at us when you can't do the same to people out there. If we thought you were worth the trouble then there's nothing your "lord" would be able to do to protect you even if that thing wanted to.

Grow a spine and deal with your problems, idiot. You're not going to make me feel guilty over your choice to commit suicide. None of us are responsible for your own individual actions.

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FancyMancy said:

The World currently is shit. That's a fact. Getting all bent out of shape about that hurts yourself firstly and mostly. Instead of trying to change the World, change yourself; instead of trying to improve the World, improve yourself. You can't be the World's strongest man after going to the gym once, nor for one year, nor for 6 years. You have to train correctly and train in things which are relevant to that goal, in the gym. You have to just ignore the shit which is happening. Alright, you care, you care too much - in an unorthodox way I say to you - stop caring. Not literally, but just go on strike for a while. Obviously you won't stop caring, but swing the pendulum to the opposite for a while. You should also be doing non-Spiritual things in everyday life, as well. This is as important as doing Spiritual things. There has to be balance.

Life and the World currently are shit. My words on here are shit in comparison with speaking in tones and inflections in-person, with body language and facial expressions - but that is not going to happen, so just accept it. Accept the status quo - you don't have to agree with it, you don't have to like it, you don't have to hear it, but just accept that's how things have been made to be. Stop for a while, sit back and observe other things, but don't take your eye off the ball completely. Do some things that you actually enjoy doing. You have access to an Internet-enabled device, go play some shit or good games (but don't waste money on them), listen to some music, watch some TV or films - I dare you to watch some things you wouldn't be interested in, say any genre which you find distasteful or cringey or stupid, watch some crappy Jerry Springer or Orange County (presuming you're not into these things), etc... Why? Because - that's why.

I don't know you. I'm not accusing you, I'm speculating, listing different possibilities. There is no jewish "god" to punish you because it doesn't exist. I think you need to do some serious, committed and consistent Void Meditation once after waking up and once before going to sleep, every single day, until... the cows come home. Also do the Muñka (Freeing the Soul) working 3, 6 or 9 times, for 40 days each (i.e. 3, 6 or 9 times 40 days), without skipping nor missing any days - but start slowly, though; it can dig-up things which have been buried down deeply, and that can be painful or worse. You also need to do the non-Spiritual things which you enjoy. Believe it or don't, you can have and do too much of a good thing, so go and do other good things for a while. Obviously, doing bad things won't counter these too-many good things, so don't do any bad things.

You may very well need to pretend that you are a good little christian sheep and pretend that you don't believe in the things that others oppose. There is nothing wrong with keeping your true Satanic self a secret. We live Physical lives in a Physical World, and in that Physical World exists christianity and other shit. You choose to be a christian or not, but there is way too much evidence and proof that it is pure evil, and will not help you. We also live Spiritual lives in a Spiritual World, and just like that that is "hidden" or "secret", so can it also be kept a secret and be kept hidden from others.

As you say, we're not there and we're not witnessing things, so we can only reply a certain limit. You have abilities - use them. Improve. The point of Spiritual Satanism is to better Yourself and the Universe, not to better the Universe and Yourself. 1 is super important, take care of 1 first.

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VoiceofEnki said:

What you have gone through is truly awful, not many people could relate to what you have gone through.

However, blaming anyone, or even yourself, is not going to help you in this situation.

The enemy loves weakness, and xianity, by design is created to cause as much suffering and pain as it can to people.

You blame Satan for all the pain and suffering you've been through, while in actuality the entities that have psychically attacked you, and caused all this pain and suffering, deceived you into thinking it was caused by Satan, this is very common enemy behavior, first entities will attack you and push you to the depths of despair, then they will pretend to come and save you, telling you worship xianity diligently and you will be saved from the "evil Satan" that has caused you so much suffering.

The person, broken and weak under the constant barrage of attacks, desperate for any way out, blames everything they have experienced on Satan and turns to xianity to seek salvation. Xianity gladly accepts the weak and broken person, and for a short time the person will live without these attacks and sufferings.

However after a while it continues, the same entities who brought you to the depths of despair and who presented themselves as your saviors, will continue to torment you until you fall deeper into the pit of torment and suffering, deceiving you into thinking you are being attacked by Satan and his Demons and telling you so long as you remain a devout xian and follow all the demands from "god" you will be saved from these evil entities.

The weak person continues to blame all this on Satan, and devotes their entire existence to xianity while they continue getting sucked dry of everything they have, living on the edge of despair their entire life, until the day they die and their soul continues to be exploited till it's destruction.

In reality Satan has nothing to do with this, and doesn't cause even the smallest ounce of suffering onto any gentile souls, instead he offers a way out of this for anyone who wishes to escape this cycle.

All you have gone through, the pain, suffering and misfortune, you can turn everything around using the methods that Satan has given us, here on the Joy of Satan.

Joining the enemy won't give you any of this, they keep you weak and unable to stand up on your own two feet, just begging to be saved by some "god" who toys with their existence in order to harvest their despairing souls and take from them everything they ever had while laughing at you for being such a fool for willingly submitting to it.


First you need to clean your aura and build your AoP. Everyday, build your AoP and protect yourself from this psychic abuse as well as any physical misfortune.

If you say you have been doing this, but it has done nothing, then you have been doing it wrong, because this always works.

Do it and make it work, continue building your AoP without fail and build an impenetrable fortress around your soul so none of this shit can ever reach you again.

Your will is important here. Clearly, because of everything you have gone through, your will is weakened greatly right now.

Turn this around by using the trauma you have as fuel to never want experience such sufferings again. Think back how painful and terrible all that has been, and feel strongly how you never want to experience such suffering ever again, how you want to escape this forever.

Build your AoP with that in mind. To escape forever this suffering and always be save and sound.

Clean your house with the Vinasa mantra daily.

Vibrate Vinasa 8 times, and affirm: "Any and all hostile and negative entities, energies, influence and thoughtforms are permanently banished from my home and environment now and forever in positive ways for me!"

This too always works when you do it right. No negative entity can stick around under the influence of Vinasa, it banishes everything spiritual you direct it towards.

Then, use positive visualization and thoughts to change your state of mind.

Visualize/imagine yourself flying through a golden sky, your being radiant like the sun, while all those who harmed and wronged you burn to ashes far below you on the ground under the invincible radiance of your soul.

Visualize/imagine yourself trampling all those who had harmed you underfoot, trample them to dust as you stand triumphantly like a mighty goddess.

The next time any entity comes around to cause you harm, do not point your knife at your own throat in fear, point it towards them with intent to return to them 10 fold the pain and suffering they had caused to you.

Instead of cowering and hiding somewhere, use the pain you have experienced as fuel to rise yourself up and escape this suffering so you never have to experience this again.

Remind yourself how much you hate all the awful things that happened to you and how much better life would be if you never suffered these again, create for yourself the path towards a life of freedom and pleasure that is worth living, imagine for yourself the life that you love and tell yourself everyday to seek that life.

Seek the positive, even if there is none around you, even if you do not believe in it. Quell your negative thoughts with avoid meditation and pick yourself up, then climb out of this pit of despair you've been stuck in.

Affirm to yourself daily that you want to live a life free of suffering, that you want to live a life worth living, that you escape the pain and suffering of the past to experience a good, positive and pleasant future.

Even if you are skeptical of this, or do not believe in it, keep telling yourself this.

Whenever suffering comes your way, do not sigh in acceptance or lower your head in fear, instead, reject it strongly and tell yourself "No! Not again! Enough is Enough! I do not suffer anymore!"

Fight it off. Reject it. Even if life is terrible where you live, it is possible to live a better life than you do now, you can shape your own life to be worth living by empowering your soul, protecting yourself spiritually and never capitulating under pressure or pain.

Rather than let the pain crush you, let it fuel you to seek a life without pain. Then too, let Satan guide you there as he is the one who can and will help you, rather than the enemy, xianity or anything else.

Blaming anyone leads you nowhere, neither does begging something to save you, especially not begging the enemy as they laugh at you while they continue to kick you down if you come crawling towards them like you are.

Instead you act to save yourself, you take matters into your own hands and overpower those that harm you through applying the knowledge Satan has granted to us, you rise above the suffering and have the last laugh.

Stand up and stop begging, take the reins and break out of this cycle forever.

Hail Satan!

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slyscorpion said:

My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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666fairy said:

slyscorpion said:

We are not responsible for this though. Your response shows what I call the victim mentality. Look this up if you like on any search engine. Why would people accuse you of something if it's not true I didn't say you were an addict (just that many people in situations you describe are i am well aware of that as you are) if you say your not I would believe you I am generally a nice person. I do not spread a bunch of false stuff about people everywhere.

You have the power to stop what is going on. You didn't need to let it go on that long. Any thinking person could find someone to help them out or some agency or something if it's this bad you can too. There are ways out after reading this think hard about it. Suicide is never an answer that's helpful to anyone.

You can move somewhere else or go somewhere else if it's that terrible.

If you take power back into your own hands you will be OK. Your life isn't over to be honest even with all this.

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I dont have. victim mentality, i am repeatedly being victimized. the fact im too scared to leave my home should be evidence enough of that, you people arent here with me to see how people treat me on a regular basis, and they know ts wrong because just the other day the hair salon kept apologizing for the stylists bullying me and gave me a refund. i couldnt believe it even happened, everytime i leave my home im at risk of cruel treatment for no reason this is extreme spiritual warefare im scared for my life and im scared God si punishing me for a being a satanist i will do anything to make this stop

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Also if your in some shitty place with a high Jewish population or something you reduce your chances greatly of having stuff like this happen if you get at least away from that and somewhere more positive or neutral.

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slyscorpion said:

My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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666fairy said:

I want nothing to do with Joy of Satan or Lucifer anymore. It was a mistake and realize Satan used my childhood trauma against me to decieve me to worship him.

I have been a devout Satanist since 2016 and it has landed me in scary, scary, scary places. It has led me to being human trafficked, homeless, raped multiple times, attacked and bullied everywhere I go, and to havesevere depression and spiritual attacks and be under severe spiritual warfare. Everywhere i go I see creepy ugly looking people who wear satanic symbols. I get bullied all the time despite being kind hearted, and polite unless I have to defend myself.

Last year I decided after only being on the main website to come on ancient forums and the fact people bullied and attacked me on here off the bat just for asking for help should of been my sign to turn to God, but instead I got deeper into Satanism and fought for Satan with all my heart.

Now I know that I have been deceived and lied to. Satanism has made me isolated, depressed, even more suicidal than I was as a child, and is ruining my life. I think spiritual awakening is evil and demonic and designed to make you kill yourself. I have thrown out all my crystals and my tarot deck and occult items and repented to the Lord

I have turned back to satanism and now worship Jesus Christ after deep thought. I was getting attacked in my sleep and the only think that helped was saying in the name of jesus. Doing daily aura cleaning and building, cleansing my soul, returning hexes and spells to senders, doing extreme cord cutting, and rituals for protection on a daily basis for a year now should of made my life better, but nope. im on the verge of suicidal.

Its crazy because when I was really fighting for satan, and I was homeless i would have ppl target me and talk about the devil, one time this guy locked me in a closet and told me the devil is lurking in the corner and terrorized me and wouldnt let me leave. why didnt i see this as a sign to find god?

The only thing that only makes me slightly still believe this website is that I get stalked and harassed by jews and they look very creepy and ugly, but nope. my life is worse than it was when i was a christian as a teenager. i had a horrible childhood and my adulthood is worse.

Please ban my account i want nothing to do with this and im very scared.

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I will try all the advice everyone gave me tonight, im giving this one last chance but if nothing improves im begging to please ban my account because im very very scared, and the way some people treat me on here when im in emotional distress, have no family that loves me, no support system, makes me very scared of satanism. im scared of everything at this point, if that mkes me weak so be it but you people have no idea the hell i been through and wouldnt last a day in my shoes.

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Shadowcat said:

IF this was a real person with a real issue i would sympathize. but with the intel i havee gathered as of late i am certain it's a rat shill. Just a heads up. They might even send in more.

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Shadowcat said:

IF this was a real person with a real issue i would sympathize. but with the intel i havee gathered as of late i am certain it's a rat shill. Just a heads up. They might even send in more.

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While what you say is a real possibility, if it is not the case and this is a real person with real issues, which also is a possibility, then I do not want our Joy of Satan to further push such a person away and into despair.

This person, in the case it is very real what they are experiencing, may really just take their own life if they receive only harsh words or attacks.

The Joy of Satan should enlighten people, give those who were wronged by the enemy the knowledge and advices to pick themselves back up and heal their damaged souls.

We are to being positive improvement to people that join us, for this sometimes soft methods are needed to give people a chance to come around.

If instead of pushing a soul to xianity or suicide because they were slammed by a dozen people here because they said a few negative things about Satan due to ignorance or being misguided/deceived by negative influence or entities, we can help them understand the mistakes they have made which lead them to where they are now and give them advice to help them break out of this, show them the benefit and beauty that Spiritual Satanism can bring to a person in need and steer them away from the path of ruination, this is a wonderful thing and great gain for Satan and the Joy of Satan.

Therefore, I do believe softness is needed in some cases, as well as a benefit of the doubt to people like this.

It also puts us in a much better light towards outsiders if they see us uphold positive morality first while correcting their erroneous judgements rather than cast them out down the cliff right away on unconfirmed suspicion the said person may be an infiltrator.

In case they are, it doesn't hurt us to have given them the benefit of doubt first, because either way we are in the right and we can always cast them out down the cliff if the person has not improved with time and continues slandering our Gods or methods while ignoring advices, as most infiltrators tend to do.

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I want nothing to do with Joy of Satan or Lucifer anymore. It was a mistake and realize Satan used my childhood trauma against me to decieve me to worship him.

I have been a devout Satanist since 2016 and it has landed me in scary, scary, scary places. It has led me to being human trafficked, homeless, raped multiple times, attacked and bullied everywhere I go, and to havesevere depression and spiritual attacks and be under severe spiritual warfare. Everywhere i go I see creepy ugly looking people who wear satanic symbols. I get bullied all the time despite being kind hearted, and polite unless I have to defend myself.

Last year I decided after only being on the main website to come on ancient forums and the fact people bullied and attacked me on here off the bat just for asking for help should of been my sign to turn to God, but instead I got deeper into Satanism and fought for Satan with all my heart.

Now I know that I have been deceived and lied to. Satanism has made me isolated, depressed, even more suicidal than I was as a child, and is ruining my life. I think spiritual awakening is evil and demonic and designed to make you kill yourself. I have thrown out all my crystals and my tarot deck and occult items and repented to the Lord

I have turned back to satanism and now worship Jesus Christ after deep thought. I was getting attacked in my sleep and the only think that helped was saying in the name of jesus. Doing daily aura cleaning and building, cleansing my soul, returning hexes and spells to senders, doing extreme cord cutting, and rituals for protection on a daily basis for a year now should of made my life better, but nope. im on the verge of suicidal.

Its crazy because when I was really fighting for satan, and I was homeless i would have ppl target me and talk about the devil, one time this guy locked me in a closet and told me the devil is lurking in the corner and terrorized me and wouldnt let me leave. why didnt i see this as a sign to find god?

The only thing that only makes me slightly still believe this website is that I get stalked and harassed by jews and they look very creepy and ugly, but nope. my life is worse than it was when i was a christian as a teenager. i had a horrible childhood and my adulthood is worse.

Please ban my account i want nothing to do with this and im very scared.

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VoiceofEnki said:

What you have gone through is truly awful, not many people could relate to what you have gone through.

However, blaming anyone, or even yourself, is not going to help you in this situation.

The enemy loves weakness, and xianity, by design is created to cause as much suffering and pain as it can to people.

You blame Satan for all the pain and suffering you've been through, while in actuality the entities that have psychically attacked you, and caused all this pain and suffering, deceived you into thinking it was caused by Satan, this is very common enemy behavior, first entities will attack you and push you to the depths of despair, then they will pretend to come and save you, telling you worship xianity diligently and you will be saved from the "evil Satan" that has caused you so much suffering.

The person, broken and weak under the constant barrage of attacks, desperate for any way out, blames everything they have experienced on Satan and turns to xianity to seek salvation. Xianity gladly accepts the weak and broken person, and for a short time the person will live without these attacks and sufferings.

However after a while it continues, the same entities who brought you to the depths of despair and who presented themselves as your saviors, will continue to torment you until you fall deeper into the pit of torment and suffering, deceiving you into thinking you are being attacked by Satan and his Demons and telling you so long as you remain a devout xian and follow all the demands from "god" you will be saved from these evil entities.

The weak person continues to blame all this on Satan, and devotes their entire existence to xianity while they continue getting sucked dry of everything they have, living on the edge of despair their entire life, until the day they die and their soul continues to be exploited till it's destruction.

In reality Satan has nothing to do with this, and doesn't cause even the smallest ounce of suffering onto any gentile souls, instead he offers a way out of this for anyone who wishes to escape this cycle.

All you have gone through, the pain, suffering and misfortune, you can turn everything around using the methods that Satan has given us, here on the Joy of Satan.

Joining the enemy won't give you any of this, they keep you weak and unable to stand up on your own two feet, just begging to be saved by some "god" who toys with their existence in order to harvest their despairing souls and take from them everything they ever had while laughing at you for being such a fool for willingly submitting to it.


First you need to clean your aura and build your AoP. Everyday, build your AoP and protect yourself from this psychic abuse as well as any physical misfortune.

If you say you have been doing this, but it has done nothing, then you have been doing it wrong, because this always works.

Do it and make it work, continue building your AoP without fail and build an impenetrable fortress around your soul so none of this shit can ever reach you again.

Your will is important here. Clearly, because of everything you have gone through, your will is weakened greatly right now.

Turn this around by using the trauma you have as fuel to never want experience such sufferings again. Think back how painful and terrible all that has been, and feel strongly how you never want to experience such suffering ever again, how you want to escape this forever.

Build your AoP with that in mind. To escape forever this suffering and always be save and sound.

Clean your house with the Vinasa mantra daily.

Vibrate Vinasa 8 times, and affirm: "Any and all hostile and negative entities, energies, influence and thoughtforms are permanently banished from my home and environment now and forever in positive ways for me!"

This too always works when you do it right. No negative entity can stick around under the influence of Vinasa, it banishes everything spiritual you direct it towards.

Then, use positive visualization and thoughts to change your state of mind.

Visualize/imagine yourself flying through a golden sky, your being radiant like the sun, while all those who harmed and wronged you burn to ashes far below you on the ground under the invincible radiance of your soul.

Visualize/imagine yourself trampling all those who had harmed you underfoot, trample them to dust as you stand triumphantly like a mighty goddess.

The next time any entity comes around to cause you harm, do not point your knife at your own throat in fear, point it towards them with intent to return to them 10 fold the pain and suffering they had caused to you.

Instead of cowering and hiding somewhere, use the pain you have experienced as fuel to rise yourself up and escape this suffering so you never have to experience this again.

Remind yourself how much you hate all the awful things that happened to you and how much better life would be if you never suffered these again, create for yourself the path towards a life of freedom and pleasure that is worth living, imagine for yourself the life that you love and tell yourself everyday to seek that life.

Seek the positive, even if there is none around you, even if you do not believe in it. Quell your negative thoughts with avoid meditation and pick yourself up, then climb out of this pit of despair you've been stuck in.

Affirm to yourself daily that you want to live a life free of suffering, that you want to live a life worth living, that you escape the pain and suffering of the past to experience a good, positive and pleasant future.

Even if you are skeptical of this, or do not believe in it, keep telling yourself this.

Whenever suffering comes your way, do not sigh in acceptance or lower your head in fear, instead, reject it strongly and tell yourself "No! Not again! Enough is Enough! I do not suffer anymore!"

Fight it off. Reject it. Even if life is terrible where you live, it is possible to live a better life than you do now, you can shape your own life to be worth living by empowering your soul, protecting yourself spiritually and never capitulating under pressure or pain.

Rather than let the pain crush you, let it fuel you to seek a life without pain. Then too, let Satan guide you there as he is the one who can and will help you, rather than the enemy, xianity or anything else.

Blaming anyone leads you nowhere, neither does begging something to save you, especially not begging the enemy as they laugh at you while they continue to kick you down if you come crawling towards them like you are.

Instead you act to save yourself, you take matters into your own hands and overpower those that harm you through applying the knowledge Satan has granted to us, you rise above the suffering and have the last laugh.

Stand up and stop begging, take the reins and break out of this cycle forever.

Hail Satan!

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I will try all the advice everyone gave me tonight, im giving this one last chance but if nothing improves im begging to please ban my account because im very very scared, and the way some people treat me on here when im in emotional distress, have no family that loves me, no support system, makes me very scared of satanism. im scared of everything at this point, if that mkes me weak so be it but you people have no idea the hell i been through and wouldnt last a day in my shoes.

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slyscorpion said:

My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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i had a very weird experience recently, i met this guy who was obseesed with the emerald tablets of thoth, kept goig on about them. I had to stop hanging out with him thought because I read his mind and he said "i cant believe I have to pretend to be her friend, she talks so much it seems like she likes hearing herself speak" so i confronted him about it and he denied it, but when we went to the pharmacy so i could pick something up i read his mind again and heard him say to himself hes super hungry and wants to buy snacks, and after i picked up my prescription i saw him buying snacks which pissed me off because he said hes healthy and eats non gmo but buys chips and candy? this proved to me i did read his mind before, and he was lying so i had to cut him off. but this is where it gets creepy ok, when hes getting snacks i go pick up my prescription and the man behind the counter was jewish AND LOOKED LIKE A DEMON I WAS SO SCARED TO EVEN GET THE PRESCRIPTION, ever since this happen i feel worse than ever, and ever before this i was under severe attack i got a new puppy to help with me feeling lonely and someone stopped to talk to me and was creepy and knew information about me that they wouldnt know unlesss they know me, but it was a stranger? how would he know? next thing you know it feels like someone is doing black magic on me and im suicidal, and my dog has been acting up ever since and i haven't been doing well AT ALL. the night i saw the jewish man I kept seeing 666. this is wat the jewish pharmacist looked like. im not lying or making this up

https://www.google.com/url?sa=i&url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.adl.org%2Feducation%2Freferences%2Fhate-symbols%2Fthe-happy-merchant&psig=AOvVaw06If-Sfr-wyBKotGQ7jJsZ&ust=1636264581727000&source=images&cd=vfe&ved=0CAsQjRxqFwoTCJjU4NuGg_QCFQAAAAAdAAAAABAD

also this famous rapper that paid ppl to human traffick me, drug me and rape me, i wikipedia him a couple months ago and found out hes half jewish.

at the point no one can gaslight me and say i cant mind read, ive been able to read minds since 2016 and keep having situations where it gets proven, just like the guy with the snacks, and he had a jew looking nose. you saying that made me think about what has happened since mercury retrograde started, it was so creepy. and i went to the hair salon and same shit the woman was bullying me, but i was also reading her mind and she kept calling me awful names, and im like k maybe im tripping but then she said something out loud that made me realize, no im definitely reading her mind. i dont like this. i keep seeing jews at starbucks too. also when i was in miami in 2018 being attacked badly when i was homeless i woke up one day outside this jewish temple on south beach wondering how the fuck i ended up there, and that man who locked me in the closet saying the devil is lurking in the corner told me he is a skin walker, and the closet he locked me in was right next door to this creepy jewish holost memorial statue here is the link

https://goo.gl/maps/XjzhT31fVoWKUyCRA

idk wats going on anymore

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slyscorpion said:

My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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i dont think people understand what its like to walk through life feeling and believing youre not worthy of love or respect because everywhere you becuase, people treat you like you arent worthy of those things. im very trauamtized, scared, and hurt and wish people would show me love and compassion instead of call me names, belittle me, threaten me, etc when i actually need to be shown love and people be gentle to me. i dont want to be alive im scared of humans and this world. i feel like im already in hell and cant comprehend how im here to be tortured like this.

you know last year my neighbour was harassing me badly, she was some scary butch lesbian trying to dominate me and fiancially dominate me too, demanding i buy her studio equipment and move in with me, and when i wouldnt let her i recieved threats to be shot and killed on a regular basis and i recorded it. one day she actually did try to kill me, and i had witnesses and neighbours had to keep her off of me. the police showed up, ddint helped me, despite there being witnesses they said they are gunna get her side of the story, and when i saw them leavign they were smiling and laughing with her so i started crying asking why they never help me, because when my dad gave me a concussion the police wrote me up and called ME flloyd mayweather, and you know what the police did? they got violently angry and tried to arrest ME when my NEIGHBOUR TRIED TO KILLL ME AND THERE WERE WITNESSES.

but this is my fault? i get what i put out? do you even know what i put out? my whole life ive tried to stand for truth justce and love and been crucified for it, IRONICALLY just like jesus. if you gusys saw my old social media when i had a big following, all i did was uplft and try to empower people, teach them about the deception in this world, expose the evil in hollywood and the government, one of my statuses: "Society lied to you. Know your worth.
It aint got nothing to do with your race, appearance, weight, gender, class, what kind of car you drive, the clothes you wear, how big your house is, or financial status.", and funny enough after this status people bullied me AGAIN. but i deserve it, so aparrently being nice to people means im putting out negative energy and deserved to be treated like shit? I used to stand up for other kids at school and get in trouble for it and no one would do the same for me and my parents told me t stop and said no one would ever stand up for me, so stop standing up for others. but thats why i do it, because i would want people to sand up for me. i pray and dream of the day someone actually stands up for me and protects me like i do for others.

ive been to protests for indigneous rights. ive followed anonymous content and been a fan of tupac since i was 14 and thought i was on this planet to change the world and make it a better place., i used my social media to spread love and empower people and tell them that they are not what society lies to them about and to stop listening to the media and tabloids and magazines, you are beautiful as you are... yeah thats so toxic and means i deserve to be treated like shit. you guys say i keep blaming others, but actually you guys are blaming me for things that are not my fault or doing and scapegoating me for other peoples cruelty treating me like i desevere it, just like my parents made it seem like i deserved to be beaten up and given a concusson and emotionally abused. you are scaring me away from satanism and not making it seem appealing at all, just like my parents didnt make christianity appealing. whole reason i turned to satanism in the first place, but nothing has gotten better. things just get worse every fucking year .

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slyscorpion said:

My Jewdar is going off on this one sounds super familiar. This person should think about what kind of interactions they have had with them. I am almost sure that is the cause of the problem somehow. I talked a lot to at least 3 people who had major problems dealing with this. The line is very similar here.

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i dont think people understand what its like to walk through life feeling and believing youre not worthy of love or respect because everywhere you becuase, people treat you like you arent worthy of those things. im very trauamtized, scared, and hurt and wish people would show me love and compassion instead of call me names, belittle me, threaten me, etc when i actually need to be shown love and people be gentle to me. i dont want to be alive im scared of humans and this world. i feel like im already in hell and cant comprehend how im here to be tortured like this.

you know last year my neighbour was harassing me badly, she was some scary butch lesbian trying to dominate me and fiancially dominate me too, demanding i buy her studio equipment and move in with me, and when i wouldnt let her i recieved threats to be shot and killed on a regular basis and i recorded it. one day she actually did try to kill me, and i had witnesses and neighbours had to keep her off of me. the police showed up, ddint helped me, despite there being witnesses they said they are gunna get her side of the story, and when i saw them leavign they were smiling and laughing with her so i started crying asking why they never help me, because when my dad gave me a concussion the police wrote me up and called ME flloyd mayweather, and you know what the police did? they got violently angry and tried to arrest ME when my NEIGHBOUR TRIED TO KILLL ME AND THERE WERE WITNESSES.

but this is my fault? i get what i put out? do you even know what i put out? my whole life ive tried to stand for truth justce and love and been crucified for it, IRONICALLY just like jesus. if you gusys saw my old social media when i had a big following, all i did was uplft and try to empower people, teach them about the deception in this world, expose the evil in hollywood and the government, one of my statuses: "Society lied to you. Know your worth.
It aint got nothing to do with your race, appearance, weight, gender, class, what kind of car you drive, the clothes you wear, how big your house is, or financial status.", and funny enough after this status people bullied me AGAIN. but i deserve it, so aparrently being nice to people means im putting out negative energy and deserved to be treated like shit? I used to stand up for other kids at school and get in trouble for it and no one would do the same for me and my parents told me t stop and said no one would ever stand up for me, so stop standing up for others. but thats why i do it, because i would want people to sand up for me. i pray and dream of the day someone actually stands up for me and protects me like i do for others.

ive been to protests for indigneous rights. ive followed anonymous content and been a fan of tupac since i was 14 and thought i was on this planet to change the world and make it a better place., i used my social media to spread love and empower people and tell them that they are not what society lies to them about and to stop listening to the media and tabloids and magazines, you are beautiful as you are... yeah thats so toxic and means i deserve to be treated like shit. you guys say i keep blaming others, but actually you guys are blaming me for things that are not my fault or doing and scapegoating me for other peoples cruelty treating me like i desevere it, just like my parents made it seem like i deserved to be beaten up and given a concusson and emotionally abused. you are scaring me away from satanism and not making it seem appealing at all, just like my parents didnt make christianity appealing. whole reason i turned to satanism in the first place, but nothing has gotten better. things just get worse every fucking year .

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