SATchives said:

the Friends you should really be trying to make are the Demons, and Satan

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Making a new thread since this is very off topic from original.

This is said here a lot, and I feel like this is something that should be elaborated on for new members or members who can't communicate well astrally.

I really don't understand exactly what it means to make friends with someone I can't listen to even if I know they can listen to me. Lately it's kind of felt overwhelming the idea that I simply lack the ability to in this life, even with the astral communication working, I know it'll probably take more than the one 40 day working I did, and I'll keep repeating it cuz I'm stubborn, but it really feels lonely in a way.

When I first dedicated and I looked through the demons page after reading Asmodeus' description I felt/thought I subconsciously imitated him in a way, and to test if he was my Guardian I went to a casino and just put 100 dollars in the slot I thought would win, and I tripled my money like that. It was nice and I thought I connected in a way, but over time that skeptic side of me that led me to Satan in the first play gnawed at my mind that I was just lucky, and I forgot about it for a few years, and now lately remembering it I just feel awful that I even forgot it. That I even had to ask "who is my guardian" again, and it feels like part of it is that inability to just communicate with my GD.

I doubt I'm the only one who experienced something like this, and I just don't understand what you more advanced souls mean when you say to make friends with them. I do the workings and rituals and fight and am as stubborn as can be about doing multiple rounds when the schedule asks for it, and I just don't know what more to do. I feel just lost lately and part of that is not being able to communicate with them or get proper answers that my skeptic mind doesn't shut down. I've tried doing as people say here and try to listen to my intuition to try to communicate with them, but my imagination in the instant I try to find answers comes up with 3 different answers to any given issue I try to find to move forward in my life, and it just leaves me in a state of choice paralysis. Spiritually I feel I finally found a path while physically I feel almost as lost as when I started.

I know it'll probably take more than the one 40 day working

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Just so you know, this kind of mindset can possibly ruin the working. Whatever it is. You have to know, to believe with all of your being, that it is working right now.

I'm not expert, I'm just sharing my experience here, it looks like sometimes your own mind sabotages you, so I'd recommend more void meditation practice. In time you'll get used to having an empty mind. And these things get easier, you won't be so flooded and random discouraging thoughts. Also an agitated mind could be a sign of anxiety, so it would be helpful to try and pinpoint the exact cause of it.

Can't help much about your actual question, just thought I should mention what I just did. It took me a while to figure out exactly who my Guardian is, and I don't believe the Gods will find it annoying or even disrespectful, if you are honest to them and to yourself. It took me several attempts. Different Gods/Goddesses. Also I believe it's an individual experience it's something that may be entirely unique to your self. My confirmation came in blatant signs of her presence, her numbers were showing everywhere for days, stuff related to her, etc. You just have to be aware and open minded.

The method that worked best for me was the vibration method. You go into a trance, vibrate their name 40 times, while intensely focusing on the Sigil and ask your question in the most positive, honest and respectful way you can. You can also focus on Satan's sigil, contact him and ask him if he could send you your Guardian to you.
Bear in mind sometimes the Gods are busy and it may take a bit for you to get your answer. My advice is drop all the expectations and just open yourself to it as much as you can. The sign can come in many different ways and strange coincidences. The Demon summoning page on the JoS also provides useful tips on that regard. I used a combination of both methods last time. Because I personally thought was nice. It's up to you to figure out which method suits you better. As long as you keep it positive, respectful and honest.
Good luck and don't be so hard on yourself.