MercuryWisdom
Well-known member
Hey, my satanic brothers and sisters,
So I've started a working to get rid of porn addiction on the eve of beltane. I just watched porn today and relapsed. Does this mean that the working is weakened or ruined?
What can a person do after relapsing?
When I relapse I feel guilty and think that I messed it all up and that I should give up or something. So I end up relapsing more until I give up.
This is the first time to relapse during this working after a long streak. Is it normal to relapse from time to time as long as you pick yourself back up? Or I should've maintained the streak during the whole working?
What can I do now?
I relapsed because I was so stressed about my mudslime father coming from his travels and couldn't think clearly. No matter what I did I couldn't get erect from normal masturbation with imagination and astral senses. But consistently got thoughts about porn which made me erect. When I thought of porn I had a very fast heart beat and wasn't able to relax or void.
So I've started a working to get rid of porn addiction on the eve of beltane. I just watched porn today and relapsed. Does this mean that the working is weakened or ruined?
What can a person do after relapsing?
When I relapse I feel guilty and think that I messed it all up and that I should give up or something. So I end up relapsing more until I give up.
This is the first time to relapse during this working after a long streak. Is it normal to relapse from time to time as long as you pick yourself back up? Or I should've maintained the streak during the whole working?
What can I do now?
I relapsed because I was so stressed about my mudslime father coming from his travels and couldn't think clearly. No matter what I did I couldn't get erect from normal masturbation with imagination and astral senses. But consistently got thoughts about porn which made me erect. When I thought of porn I had a very fast heart beat and wasn't able to relax or void.