DragonFire11
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- Nov 12, 2019
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Last night I woke up at 3:41 am, I went out from the bed to drink water.
But when I went back to sleep, it was just impossible. The negative thoughts were so impulsive, that they were turning my body from one side to another every 5minutes. First I did not pay attention because I wanted to sleep, but after 10-15min I knew something is going on. I was copletely helpless with those negative thoughts, then I start visualazing our father Satan sigil in blu flames.
Took a little time then it normalized but just a little bit and for a short period of time. When I vizualized the attacks or the thoughts were more and more inpulsive. It all took 2 full hours when I fell asleep again from fatigue. At the morning when I woke up,I felt compeletely exhausted, couldnt think normaly and still have a bad feeling about it.
At the working place was everything fine, just before the dinner my boss called me to her office and said that I have a very low output and something need to be done. At that moment I knew this is not a coincident, these were the negative thoughts I felt at the night.
I DO NOT want to loose my job, I am the one who work, my wife at home with my kids, and finding a job in this damaged situation is absolutely impossible here in my country. You know, when the boss say - you have a low output - it means, soon or later you are fired. It happened twice in a last 5 months with my two colleagues. They were fired.
Any of you my fellow warriors, can provide, give me help, what is the best ritual to do to avoid being fired??
But when I went back to sleep, it was just impossible. The negative thoughts were so impulsive, that they were turning my body from one side to another every 5minutes. First I did not pay attention because I wanted to sleep, but after 10-15min I knew something is going on. I was copletely helpless with those negative thoughts, then I start visualazing our father Satan sigil in blu flames.
Took a little time then it normalized but just a little bit and for a short period of time. When I vizualized the attacks or the thoughts were more and more inpulsive. It all took 2 full hours when I fell asleep again from fatigue. At the morning when I woke up,I felt compeletely exhausted, couldnt think normaly and still have a bad feeling about it.
At the working place was everything fine, just before the dinner my boss called me to her office and said that I have a very low output and something need to be done. At that moment I knew this is not a coincident, these were the negative thoughts I felt at the night.
I DO NOT want to loose my job, I am the one who work, my wife at home with my kids, and finding a job in this damaged situation is absolutely impossible here in my country. You know, when the boss say - you have a low output - it means, soon or later you are fired. It happened twice in a last 5 months with my two colleagues. They were fired.
Any of you my fellow warriors, can provide, give me help, what is the best ritual to do to avoid being fired??