Why do some time came in my mind very bad thoughts that i don't want to ever think or bad words about father, that i don't want to say, is this because i have enemy filth in me? What should i do, i will get punished for this things that i don't want to say? Hail Satan!

yumais said:

Why do some time came in my mind very bad thoughts that i don't want to ever think or bad words about father, that i don't want to say, is this because i have enemy filth in me? What should i do, i will get punished for this things that i don't want to say? Hail Satan!

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It is just an enemy attack. Make sure to do void, stay clean, keep up a strong AOP.

The thoughts are simply enemy attacks and of course do not reflect your true feelings. However, if it makes you feel better, just state afterwards something like "that is not true", then void it and refocus on whatever else.

yumais said:

Why do some time came in my mind very bad thoughts that i don't want to ever think or bad words about father, that i don't want to say, is this because i have enemy filth in me? What should i do, i will get punished for this things that i don't want to say? Hail Satan!

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Not at all. Satan wouldn't punish for you for that. Either you are still strongly connected to the enemy's programs or you are experiencing psychic attacks. As brother Blitzkreig has explained, keep up with void meditation and your thoughts will come under control. Years ago when I was new I would get random disturbing insulting thoughts about the Gods. I knew these were not from me as I had in fact already severed ties with Christianity (I was briefly an atheist before finding the JoS) and had little to none ties with it. I just ignored the thoughts and said positive things in my head about the Gods and the thoughts were gone for good after a few weeks.

yumais said:

Why do some time came in my mind very bad thoughts that i don't want to ever think or bad words about father, that i don't want to say, is this because i have enemy filth in me? What should i do, i will get punished for this things that i don't want to say? Hail Satan!

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When I first started meditating (three months ago), I had those thoughts in my mind even though I did not think it like that and it was truly disturbing for me. But of course, Father Satan understands the human mind far more than us and he knows how you actually feel. These thoughts may be an attack or it might be self-sabotage, but if you do Void Med daily you will realize that all those nonsense will wither away. Also, not caring those ideas can help you to handle. When I had those thoughts in my mind I was saying things like "Yeah right xdxd" to ridicule. Do not worry, you are not alone.

I have these thoughts sometimes. They are almost always sexual in nature and involve those close to me. Sometimes like this evening they are so bad I can hardly ignore it. I think some of it may be the enemy psychically attacking perceived weak spots within yourself. I also think the mental scarring from pornography has a hand in this.

yumais said:

Why do some time came in my mind very bad thoughts that i don't want to ever think or bad words about father, that i don't want to say, is this because i have enemy filth in me? What should i do, i will get punished for this things that i don't want to say? Hail Satan!

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Your minds previously programmed resistance and such. It’s okay just don’t get hung up on them or beat yourself up about them.