Goddess Aw wrote:i'm a mtf person, how i stated, i feel completely a girl... i need to be seen as a girl..
sometimes i want to kill myself because of gender dysphoria... i feel completely as a girl.. my first name that is also biblical how i stated. i feel so lost sometimes.. i don't hate my biological sex, i just want to be seen as the gender I am.. i don't hate my body. i like it but sometimes i want to have breast..
but Satan helps me... it's like Satan is with me in every moment..
i want to take hormones. it kills me inside. i've tried to work with meditation, Munka, Ansuz and Mannaz but it's the same result. it's myself..
i'm so tired. but i will stay alive... I do RTRs, Yoga, Meditation everyday..
i want to cry right now ... because i feel lost sometimes...
I feel misunderstood
thank you for the message ... i appreciate it
Most of the things people on this forum say about taking hormones or having surgery seem like opinions anyway. It doesn't seem like they know many people who have done both of those things, and I'm also doubtful that they actually communicated with the Gods on the matter.
It's common for people to be against this kind of thing. A lot of people are quick to generalise and jump to conclusions. Not even being a Satanist makes any difference in that, just consider what OP said: "Father Satan doesn't make mistakes, you were born exactly how and when he intended"; this is the same argument xians use on this topic as well, except with Satan added in.
I heard from another Satanist that most Souls aren't created with intent; they are created by chance, based on the energies around at the time of birth (related to astrology) and the energies of the parents. They are then shaped by experiences over the lifetimes.
The way you are is not a mistake, but it isn't intentional either. It's to some extent experiences and to some extent chance that made you this way. As such, I think it's very reasonable to say that it is indeed possible for inconvenient (or even outright flawed) combinations to exist, such as being like a woman mentally despite being male physically. It's obvious why that would make someone unhappy, especially if it's a severe case.
Rather than taking the words of others on this topic to heart and feeling misunderstood, I think it's better to think about it for yourself and make your own decision. What is it that you really want? What is your ideal self? And what can you realistically do to feel better about the way you are?
It's a good idea to let the Gods guide you in this as well, as Larissa pointed out. If you can find happiness without any medical assistance then that's great and all. But if you've already tried many things and it still seems like you'll be happier and more fulfilled as a person if you take hormone supplements, or even controversial surgeries, then maybe that really is the case.
When it comes to complex situations like this, you should do what seems right to
you. Besides the Gods, you know yourself best after all. It doesn't matter what others on this forum think about your decision; they don't know you or your situation, and you don't know them.
Now, I will point out some parts of people's arguments that come across to me as opinions based on feelings rather than actual knowledge, so that they have an opportunity to clarify themselves in case there actually is more to their points than just presuppositions based on their feelings about this topic.
GoldenxChild wrote:I also wouldn't recommend reassignment surgery as it can restrict your attainment of Godhood.
What is this based on? The importance of sex for spiritual advancement?
While it is true that orgasms are very important spiritually, from what I heard most people who undergo such surgery are still able to achieve orgasm anyway.
Also, there are various other erogenous zones besides the genitals that may be utilised to achieve orgasm as well if the technique and mindset are right, and with certain techniques it's even possible to have powerful orgasms with no physical stimulation at all. So that doesn't seem like it would be an issue.
Ghost in the Machine wrote:Hormones after a time can cause health issues, a female body is not built to run off of testosterone for extended periods of time and vice versa with a male body and female hormones.
Also yes, transitional surgery is incredibly detrimental to the chakras and is run and encouraged by the enemy, it is especially detrimental to the sacral chakra and is a drastic destructor of their functions and health, I do not condone it.
While medicine in general can cause health issues over time (especially liver strain in case of oral medicine, but there are other ways of delivery that have less side effects), sex hormones themselves have many positive effects.
(Post-)menopausal women who take estrogen supplements age slower than (post-)menopausal women who do not, and are also less likely to develop demantia. A downside is that they are more likely to get breast cancer than older women who don't undergo hormone replacement therapy, but I think it's obvious that that directly correlates to the fact that their breast tissue doesn't atrophy / sag.
I've also heard testosterone injections have great physical and mental health benefits for men who don't produce enough on their own.
So hormones themselves are not unhealthy. What makes you think that they would be unhealthy in a body of the opposite sex? Bodies of either sex have receptors for both types of sex hormones, and a mother having too much testosterone during pregnancy in the case of an XX fetus or an XY fetus not producing enough testosterone on its own can cause all sorts of intersex conditions in the offspring; which suggests a body's sex is actually very flexible until there is permanent differentation (whether prenatally or during puberty). So what is your reasoning to say that it is unhealthy?
As for surgery, what makes you think that it is so damaging for the Sacral Chakra?
Of course, all surgery is damaging. That's the point; to remove or rearrange things, and then let it heal while it retains a different state (usually with the intent of solving a health problem, but obviously these surgeries specifically have a different purpose and are more comparable to cosmetic surgery).
Wouldn't it be fine after the initial damage heals and the changes settle in? And if it causes a spiritual issue of sorts, then can't this simply be resolved using meditation?
Jack wrote:Gender as Sex is set it stone and unalterable.
If sex (=gender) is a part of the Soul, and the Soul consists of vibrations / energy, then can't a Soul's (spiritual) sex simply be altered by altering those vibrations, whether that is done intentionally or unintentionally? What makes you believe that it cannot be altered?
I doubt something like that would happen often since there's probably some sort of protections in place to prevent it from happening, but I can see how certain situations could damage or bypass those protections and cause changes to occur anyway, whether partial (more likely if it's unintentional) or complete (more likely if it's intentional). As far as I'm aware, there's no proof that it is unalterable, so isn't that just your opinion?