Ghost in the Machine said:
I guess you were simply too used to see weaker people wavering away and losing touch (pun) with themselves. I won't deny the fact that emotions are and have always been a very difficult factor to control and that they've put me in dangers I could have easily stepped out of, but I've been in the shit before and I promised myself I'd never let someone like that maneuver me like that. If I call myself a Satanic warrior the first one I have to prove it to is myself.
I wasn't too convinced when I was trying to
force myself away from her at first, but after I clearly saw her doing everything she did just to avoid the RTR I had no doubts anymore. I just knew she was beyond saving and ended it right there and then, knowing she was gone for good. Sad, yes.. but in hindsight I also think it's about bad decisions and lack of common sense. You don't just trust anything that comes your way, do you.. never questioning the veracity of things, always accepting and letting anything astral close. I call that plain irresponsible. Maybe because I've been in danger so much that I was having the mother of all panic attacks (which I just recently found has VERY similar symptoms as the heart attack) but it takes a lot of sensing and knowing before I trust something I don't know, if ever, again.
Interesting that about the definition of Greys. I did wonder about it some and thought this reasoning was quite accurate, dealing with grey energy and lack of spiritual advancement, making them react to Satanic power like an anaerobic bacteria in boiling water.
I read that post to Blitzkreig. Found a lot of truth in it, that's actually part of what made me want to give her the RTR and see what she would do with it. The reaction was, sadly, expected. I'm glad you explained it the way you did, it makes a lot of sense.
And to be honest, it also helped me ...much like I helped you on the Earth/astral touch matter, I guess.
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I've been occasionally reading posts in here where some of our people would question themselves and their ancestry, wondering if they were fucking jews without knowing it. I never, ever considered myself as having the slightest thing in common with a jew: I came to Satan on my own, I actually despise money, I am super empathetic with animals and plants, love the green and forests (would definitely go live in a tree house if I could) and a number of other things that I can't think of that suggest I couldn't be anymore different than a jew, despising them for everything they represent.
Lately, I have found again a file from the JoS Library (while making sure I had multiple copies of everything saved in case anything happened to the internet) that was titled something like "How to recognize a jew". There were two parts of it. They provide a number of physical features, like the ugly nose, big forehead, 'ball' shaped eyes, horse like face shape, and so on...
I also read about all those VIPs and actors who are jews and that at some point I might have considered attractive, namely ..what's her name.. Gwyneth Paltrow? I always felt there was something 'odd' about her, that made her look.... I don't know, 'abnormal' if you know what I mean. Like there was something seriously wrong with her face. The body was the only part I felt attractive from a movie cover (obviously they had enhanced her posture to make her more sexually attractive), but it got me thinking.
I read of some features that I can see in a lot of people, even myself. It said jews are short, I'm short. Does that make one a fucking jew? Quite possibly not. It also said 'jews talk with their hands/gesticulate'. I'm Italian and I know Italian people do that a lot, does that make them jews? Quite sure it doesn't.
Yet, I got myself thinking.
I read how jews have infected other races (Whites, Blacks and Asians) by mating with us. They literally had thousands of years to mate with different races and infect us as much as they could. Thousands of years of them ruling us, imposing their laws, using us like slaves to live in luxury.
Does that mean that there's a damn jew something in probably all of us?? That they mated with us to taint our DNA and weaken us?
I know that our Gods have changed their DNA so that they don't age, becoming immortal and (I assume) having perfect control of their DNA so that any possible weakness got eradicated. Is this something that we can do too when we're so advanced we can use the Magnum Opus like pros, feeling the strong energy and changing ourselves, eliminating all that is weak and imperfect in our DNA so it can resemble the DNA of a god?
Sorry if this topic made you raise an eyebrow or something. After reading those posts from people who thought they were descendants of jews I begun thinking of what I would do if I ever found out I was one. The answer is: I'd probably kill myself, mate. I couldn't bear the thought of not being of Satan.,
One thing that really helped me calm down after having those thoughts was the fact that I've clearly been visited by Father and I also been visited by Lilith (twice, I think), which would suggest they both don't think I am 'not of their people'. Remembering the visions of Haures, Leraje, Raum, Furfur and (possibly) Astaroth has calmed me down a great deal.
I still believe that jews have managed to infect as many Gentiles as possible by mixing race, mixing us with their filth, but (this is what made me want to take a little time with this topic) knowing how the RTR damages jewish filth, if I was one I'd probably be dust by now, doing at least 2 RTRs a day and lately also feeling so much pride from being of Satan that (whenever possible) I literally shout "Hail Satan!" and speak very loud the affirmations.
Actually, I added a little something of mine to the Final RTR:
after the third "The Hebrew alphabet is now dead in every way", I also state "The Hebrew alphabet is NO MORE!" and "HAIL SATAN!", this repeated other 3 times for good measure. Lastly, I add a HAIL to Lilith and all the gods I've listed above, and vibrate SATANAS.
Overkill, perhaps? I'd rather it being overkill than slightly weaker.
Anyway, sorry, back on topic. (I'm really taking my time with this post.)
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"I can't imagine how despairing this is to Father Satan, to have ultimately no choice in this time but to watch his own children be corrupted and ultimately slip from his grasp to perish."
That's exactly what I thought too. I remember someone mentioning, a long while ago, how Satan seems to have a kind of 'disappointed/gloomy' face and how this related to the fact that we're stuck having to fend for ourselves in this otherwise splendid planet, temporarily riddled with fucking enemy filth. Today, knowing how some Gentiles simply fall during this war, I find even more sadness in realizing how Father must feel. A being of pure love such as Him, having to see His children falling behind. It brings me to tears, Brother.
And yes, "They are not my people" is referred to the jews. I'm saddened that now I realize this is probably fitting also for all those Gentiles that let themselves become enslaved.
"This is why I always say if you need help with something that you simply can't seem to grasp and are struggling and finding it hard to figure out or do on your own, turn to our gods for guidance."
Right after I read that, I paused from reading and closed my eyes, focusing on Father and calling Him. I don't have the greatest ability to distinguish between my own thoughts and the thoughts that the gods imprint in my head for me to listen to, but I distinctly 'felt' two thoughts coming from Him. He said "Keep your spine straight" and "Focus on yourself". I do tend to hunch forward when I read on the computer and definitely need to do more Yoga. The Focus part is trickier to me. When I Void meditate I close my eyes and most of the time I feel kinda 'lost', like I'm about to say "..ok, and now what?", forgetting my purpose, being bathed in pointless thoughts and memories, really struggling to focus. I think He told me exactly what I needed to hear, as I know the times I have been most successful in meditation I have been focusing on myself and my inner self specifically.
I will definitely try this again by calling Haures. Had the hint I had to get to know Her much more lately. To be perfectly honest with you, I have kind of avoided Her over the last 8 months since I was told by someone here that I was being 'deluded' in thinking a Demoness like Her would have anything to do with me in something like a sexual relationship.. maybe they thought I was convinced She could be my Succubus or something.. thing is, I huh.. DO feel very attracted by Haures. Very. Her name alone (Flauros) was the one I've been encountering time and time again before getting to the JoS, and when I read that Flauros was a female Demon.. well, I was surprised but also kind of.. enamoured, if that's the word I'm looking for. So because I didn't want to offend Her I have avoided Her for a while, focusing on RTRs and Elements and anything else. I do feel Her as someone extremely important to me, but I don't want this to degenerate in an impossible 'crush' lol. ...Why did I start talking about Haures now, again? XD Never mind, ignore me.
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Yes! The different topic about Earth and physicality. Let me read that again (hopefully I can submit this post before I have to go to work and finish it tonight. Don't want to rush through it though).
I'm glad you perceived my words as a message from the gods. I know this can happen sometimes, as I'm sure they want us to help each other advance.
So, astral touch. I'll avoid stating the obvious you already know about the Earth element, and I don't think you're off course in your deduction of 'you giving astral things a certain physicality through the Earth element'. It strongly feels right.
Returning briefly to my dream, I did mention the 'situation' that made me realize this enhanced physicality was sex.
Normally, in my dreams, even the sex related ones, I don't feel that much. In the material world, I can share that much, sex strongly disappointed me, suggesting me it's very little more than JUST the physicality of it making it seem like it's much more and so overrated by, normally, everyone around me. This is one of the many reasons I decided I won't go for a next relationship other than with a Succubus.
In this dream I had, I felt what 'physical' sex strongly lacks. The energy from my partner was so tactile I felt myself shake in pleasure, the temperature difference was also something noticeable. I'm assuming this was still a very 'beginner level' astral sex, if that's what it was, but it was eons more advanced than any physical/material sex I had, expecting it to be oh so great.
Regarding the Earth element, I know it makes one more 'material' and this concerns sexuality as well, so I assume my increased chance of intimacy encounters in dreams skyrocketed because of that Earth absorption/choice to dwell in it.
Elements have a tendency to fill all the gaps they can so, often, even if you don't know/notice that happening, they'll still do it and you'll eventually find results you haven't observed before are 'naturally' occurring. In my case, sexy dreams and increased sense of physicality in them (dreams being, as someone wrote in some post I believe, astral places).
I think you're right too when you say that if you haven't had a spiritual lover reach you it's probably because you're not yet open enough and temporarily incapable of feeling/noticing them, this at least is what someone told me before. I don't know if that is always the case, or if you get a glimpse of your Succubus/Incubus and then don't see them again until you're ready for that.
I don't think you should necessarily focus on mentally trying to solidify the astral. Focus on what your purpose is should, to me at least, be enough. Do absorb Earth element if you feel you're lacking in it and need some more, or if you find it would be something that would positively help you advance. Right now, I feel Earth is the element to go with and I'm not feeling any bad counter effects or discomforts as I did in the past, but I also know I'm going to have to try again Fire element when working on my chakras again. I feel it's good to always switch elements when your Soul calls for the next gap to be filled, so you'll probably notice an improvement, slight as it is, every time you switch to the next Element. I'm thinking of this in terms of rock climbing: four limbs help you climb up, each of them being a different element and your whole body being the Akasha. Every time a limb reaches higher your Akasha raises a little and you better understand things through it. That's, at least, just a way of looking at it from my point of view, hope it helps you too somehow. Needless to say, I always found Elements super interesting.
"In regards to this blatant answer to my questions on astral touch, I feel like the answer is that I directly apply the earth element to the astral perception outside of myself, which was what you did, applying it's physical properties to the astral sensations. Just how I could do that, well I'll have to figure that out on my own, I don't yet know what specifically I'm applying it to or visualizing/intending. Perhaps you can tell me what you did in your dream? What did you focus or intend the element on? Was it the individual themselves? The general sensations you were interpreting or the dream environment as a whole?"
One of the things about the Elements, being so diverse in nature, is that they can awaken different parts of yourself, including difference 'ways in which you perceive reality/realities'. This is to say that, if you think Earth is the element that will make you aware of the physicality of the astral (the intimacy of a Succubus/Incubus for instance), you probably need to focus on what you lack, meaning the ability to physically perceive. I feel this would require another post entirely, but I'll try being concise. Or better yet, an example:
Have you ever used/created thoughtforms? I feel a thoughtform is not just a bunch of energy with a purpose but more like a 'clone' of myself that retains some physical properties even while being completely energetic. I never even tried to make up a thoughtform giving it Earth element (I think I'm going to in the near future though) and I can speculate that it would have more physical chances of 'touching' someone, but I know for a fact that people have been 'physically' touched by my clones before in a way so very similar to what I've read about astral lovers and Demons touching us.
In the last post I made about Thoughtforms in here I stated that at some point I felt the thoughtform almost physically touching my pineal gland, stimulating it a little while I was impressing its name on it upon creation.
This leads to a next thought: I know we don't make our identities known here, but if you wanted to, I could try and use a picture of you to make you feel what others felt with a brand new clone. You, being much more spiritually open than others, certainly have a much better chance to feel. I'm just saying this as a possible option as I trust you, and you have more than enough firepower to fuck me up if I were any hostile anyway lol.
Obviously, I don't have to do this as you can easily do this to yourself too. Just make a thoughtform with the purpose of helping you develop physical sensitivity/astral touch and make it touch you. This can be sexual/intimate as well, and as long as you keep things under control, not feeding it any bad energy and ideally making a new one after destroying the first one shortly after, you should be fine.
"I'm going to tell you right now, the more you discover the more you can cross apply it to other factors which opens up doors to more truths, understandings and clarity, essentially like piecing together one giant puzzle and each puzzle you put in shows the bigger picture over time. At least this is how it has been and is for me with intuition on how spiritual matters work, my own knowledge is constantly evolving and expanding and being updated."
I've been starting to observe this a couple of years ago while I was being targeted but still managed to make progress and document it on a journal. Every piece of the puzzle leads to more and more. One thought that it raised was its similarity to the Golden Ratio spiral example. You start with one little piece, which leads to another. After that you sum them up and get to more. You sum the last one with the second last one and go on and on and on like this, enlarging your knowledge endlessly. The puzzle doesn't have corners or limits, you just keep on learning and learning.
"And thank you."
Thank YOU for allowing me as well to discover things about myself though self exploration while I speak with you.
Hope I answered all your questions, really gotta rush now lol, I've been typing for like two hours I think. Later, Brother!
Hail Satan!
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