Purified666
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- Sep 21, 2017
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Hello.
As the title says I really have to remove the connection I have to this person. It's nothing but a weight that's holding me down and it already costed me a relationship with someone else because of me still being attached to her emotionally and I was unable to shake the feelings off. I thought that just by finding someone else the bond would go away in time. I was wrong.
For some reason, this is one of the hardest things I had to deal with in this life. And I had an extremely fucked up childhood, which I thought was hard to deal with.
Anyway, I've been slacking off for 6 months because of this, if it weren't for me doing yoga and aop daily for years, I would've probably fallen into a depression. Never have I had such serious thoughts about suicide. Not to mention the enemy having an easy way to attack me while I was down. They even laughed at my face a few days after the breakup to make me even more miserable. That was close to Samhain, so I decided to do the Samhain RTR schedule 4 times a day with each Rune being vibrated 100 times. Suddenly, it stopped being funny(for them). What an abhorrent alien space snot they are.
(Read the marked thing below if you lack time)
------------------------------------>I'm sick of it! Sick of this fucked up chain that does nothing but hold me back.
So please guys, if you have any advice, tips or experiences with this, do share. I just want this to be over as quickly as possible, I can't move forward while being chained to her. I was thinking of using a Rune for this. Either Uruz or Ansuz for 40 days. Affirmation would be like this "In a healthy, safe and beneficial way for me, all bonds and ties to [her name] are now totally removed." <------------------------------------
I truly tried everything, I exhausted every option I had, went against my better judgement... I cared and loved her way too much.
Guess that's what I get for being an idiot and not listening to what Father told me "Let her go, you'll only get hurt." He told me that 6 months ago. Did I listen? Nope. Mainly because I don't like abandoning people I love, but it's of no use if the other party doesn't care. And I'm also stubborn.
In closing, I want to thank Father and my GDs for their support in the hardest moment of my life.
I also want to thank my friend that was also there for me, listening to my rants, helping me vent and provide emotional support. She was of great help. May the Gods bless her kind soul!
They saw me at my lowest, now it's time to rise so they see me at my greatest.
As the title says I really have to remove the connection I have to this person. It's nothing but a weight that's holding me down and it already costed me a relationship with someone else because of me still being attached to her emotionally and I was unable to shake the feelings off. I thought that just by finding someone else the bond would go away in time. I was wrong.
For some reason, this is one of the hardest things I had to deal with in this life. And I had an extremely fucked up childhood, which I thought was hard to deal with.
Anyway, I've been slacking off for 6 months because of this, if it weren't for me doing yoga and aop daily for years, I would've probably fallen into a depression. Never have I had such serious thoughts about suicide. Not to mention the enemy having an easy way to attack me while I was down. They even laughed at my face a few days after the breakup to make me even more miserable. That was close to Samhain, so I decided to do the Samhain RTR schedule 4 times a day with each Rune being vibrated 100 times. Suddenly, it stopped being funny(for them). What an abhorrent alien space snot they are.
(Read the marked thing below if you lack time)
------------------------------------>I'm sick of it! Sick of this fucked up chain that does nothing but hold me back.
So please guys, if you have any advice, tips or experiences with this, do share. I just want this to be over as quickly as possible, I can't move forward while being chained to her. I was thinking of using a Rune for this. Either Uruz or Ansuz for 40 days. Affirmation would be like this "In a healthy, safe and beneficial way for me, all bonds and ties to [her name] are now totally removed." <------------------------------------
I truly tried everything, I exhausted every option I had, went against my better judgement... I cared and loved her way too much.
Guess that's what I get for being an idiot and not listening to what Father told me "Let her go, you'll only get hurt." He told me that 6 months ago. Did I listen? Nope. Mainly because I don't like abandoning people I love, but it's of no use if the other party doesn't care. And I'm also stubborn.
In closing, I want to thank Father and my GDs for their support in the hardest moment of my life.
I also want to thank my friend that was also there for me, listening to my rants, helping me vent and provide emotional support. She was of great help. May the Gods bless her kind soul!
They saw me at my lowest, now it's time to rise so they see me at my greatest.