Braun666 wrote:What do you think about establishing relationships with those who are without? Am I the only one experiencing this extreme loneliness??
Oooh, this is a perfect topic for me to answer! lol
I will keep this as short as possible.
(which is not that much possible LOL)In general, I never had many friends in my life. I never fit into any of those "cliques" they have in school etc; I was rather bullied lol. So I always had 1 or 2 friends next to me; no more than that.
Anyway, after I finished school (hence the ability to "make friends" was greatly limited) I was hanging out with two girls; one of whom I knew since elementary school and was my "best friend" and the other was basically a friend of my "best friend's".
After I started meditating, one year in, I came to realize some very important things about myself. I ended up cutting contact with these two girls (that was mostly because of a misunderstanding on my part; but it worked out well in the end) but I had already met some Greek SS, with whom I was hanging out once in a while.
Eventually, I also lost contact with these folks and I was left alone.
Either way, I continued with my journey.
I was also doing the munka meditation and the one thing I felt most intensely was that: loneliness.
I would feel it very intensely, regardless of the affirmation.
In the meantime, I managed to find a job (which was only two days a week, and it lasted for 2 years) where I met other people. This job (and the people in that job) had to do with alternative medicine, so they would also talk about energies, chakras and whatnot.
Dark Void said:
Dark_Void wrote:Do you work? Another option would be to just view your coworkers as friends.
but the truth is that, the people in my work ALTHOUGH they were supposed to be more spiritually "enlightened" (or, more open minded at least) they were all materialistic retards. And I mean that, 100%. Many used spirituality as a way to show off. Others were truly interested in it but were xtians. There was even a retarded feminist there... Then there were people who didn't really care about spirituality but just wanted to help people (with the alternative medicine). My boss was a hardcore xtian and the manager was a hardcore atheist who didn't believe in spirituality and only cared about the money.
I wanted to murder these people LOL not to become friends with them!
I did try to talk to some of the colleagues that were interested in spirituality, but as I mentioned above, they were infested with other jewish influences (xtianity, feminism, whatever).What I realized is that, the more we know, the more we need to educate others. It's like our path automatically makes us teachers; even if we don't have a good speech or if we have difficulty with words.
We really need to educate people, and through my job, I realized that this is what I was subconsciously doing with these folks.... until I realized that "it wasn't time yet" for them to realize the wisdom I had to offer to them; they weren't yet ready to accept it.
I find this kind of associations useless; unless they can offer you something (eg, contacts for a new job or something) - otherwise they're useless. They can't give you anything meaningful (true friendship) or even accept what YOU have to give them (knowledge and so forth).
So, after I was fired from that job, I didn't keep in contact with anyone... because they were useless associations to me.Later on, I started going to painting lessons. I met a few people there.... Meek fucking pathetic people. (they were much older than I was) They had so many problems.... they were xtians........ The teacher was also a haaaardcore xtian.....
I love drawing but I couldn't do it with his poison there.
I ended up meeting two girls there that were my age. One seemed spiritual to me (although I knew nothing about her), the other seemed to have very low self-confidence.
As I got to know them more (we would go out together once in a while), the spiritual girl is a hardcore xtian and the one with the low self-confidence is also a hardcore atheist... doesn't believe in energy etc....
Whenever we went out, the hardcore xtian would constantly talk to us about her problems, how her life sucked (and it really did lol) and things like that. Then, me and the atheist girl would try to advise her the best way we could...
Yet, I thought to myself, it's alright. I should give it a try... try to educate them.. try to bring them to Satan's Path.I actually realized (I had this realization while I was still in that job) that when I meet new people my initial thought is "Are they SS material?"... in other words, can I bring them to Satan's Path? This is my criteria when I meet new people. I only want to spread Satan's word.
Anyway, I told the girls their astrological maps (I copy-pasted from joS lol). I never told them about Satanism. I had gone out with these girls for 4 times, but we would chat a lot via emails. At some point religion was mentioned and I went ahead with my huge-ass messages to explain why xtianity is a sham and a deadly religion. The atheist girl agreed with me and added more on the topic. The xtian girl "didn't want to talk about it"....Last time I went out with these girls, I met them at the bus station... as I met them, and then stayed there waiting for the bus (they had already started talking, so they continued the conversation) the hardcore xtian girl was, again, talking about her problems.... and suddenly a thought came to my mind. I have no doubt that this was my Guardian Demoness. The thought was "What are you doing here, with these two (girls)?"
It was like saying, why are you wasting your time like that? And she was right... After the bus came and went to our destination... again, the girl was talking about her problems... there was never anything new to the conversation. I couldn't give them anything spiritual or even any of the wisdom I've gotten through my path... And whenever I did (eg about the astrological maps) they were just so... indifferent. They didn't really care.
Now, last time I made a new friend, it was through a relative of mine (who knows the Truth about Satan - but hasn't done dedication ritual and doesn't intend to...). Anyway, this new friend I made, did the dedication ritual and is meditating...
However, I recently found out something about him that hurt me deeply and made me change my perception about him.
I found out that because he lacks time, he does only 1 or 2 RTRs a day... And I was greaaatly disappointed, as this guy started so strong, doing all the rituals, doing meditations etc... He seemed so strong in his Satanic Path and I was really looking up to him! Now I'm just... disappointed, really. Sad about it. Like he betrayed me, or something.
The reason he doesn't have time is because he is playing in a musical band, and he also has many friends....
What bullshit! Man, it pisses me off!!!
I remember one time I had work, and then I would go out with this friend to a comic event. I ended up waking up at 6 am and sleeping late, just so that I could do all the rituals (and my meditations of course).
So, I become so angry when people say they don't have time!! You can do the rituals while shitting for fuck's sake!!! You don't have time for that???!Anyway, the thing is... after I found that out about this guy, I suddenly felt alone again.
I felt alone in this world and in the astral world too.
Although I logically thought to myself that "I have the Gods by my side, I have Satan, I have my Guardian. I am NOT alone", yet, I felt very sad and cried. I thought that, I can't feel the Gods anymore, I am very lonely. That happened at night.
Then, the next morning I woke up... I couldn't remember what I dreamed about, but I felt at peace. I felt that my Guardian or the Gods comforted me in my sleep.
Anyway, that was a long ass message.
My conclusions is that...(and I repeat MY conclusion; through my own few experiences. I'm not saying that this is the way it is, but this is my own conclusion)
1. Friends who are NOT Spiritual Satanists, MOST of them (I will not say "all") are not worthy to be called our friends. The reason is because many of them have strong influences of the enemy
(either they are xtians OR atheists!! They still have jewish ideals in their minds! Even subconsciously! And they can also be USED by the enemy to piss us off, or to badly influence our lives).
I never had the pleasure of meeting scientists or people who are very intellectual in order to judge them. My opinion is about most common folks out there (but again, I said MOST, not all... I am sure there must be exceptions - which are basically people who ARE "SS material" and would probably be open to Satan and the Gods, if they knew the truth).
2. We, as SS, are never alone. We have the Gods on our side
We may be physically alone, but not spiritually. Never. Remember that. There were times that I would have to face the worst, THE ABSOLUTE WORST things about my past lives (really bad experiences) and I also couldn't share this with anyone.... Yet, my Guardian was always there for me. He/She comforted me both times. When I thought that my uncle would die because of a disease, I talked to Satan and he responded to me immediately, and I felt his energy calming me down. Other times, I wouldn't get immediate responses... but the Gods are always next to us. This brings me great comfort.
3. I end up meeting many people in my life, sporadically... giving them some wisdom, and then they move ahead in their own lives/road... but my influence remains with them (the Satanic seed has started growing into their minds
). I know that these people are not "friends" of mine in any way, but the thought of bringing people to Satan's Path, makes me so so so happy. Although I do end up alone in the end, I realize that it's worth it. If I were to keep hanging out with these people, then my own spiritual progress would slow down. So, there are many times that we need to let people go from our lives. We need to let them go, so that we can spread our wings and they can follow their own path, whatever that is.
However, if you really want SS friends, as you also mentioned, you can always do workings for that, using runes, or empowering the planet/s or the zodiac sign (do a square of the planet that rules the zodiac sign) that is in your 11th House (the house of friends).
Funny thing is that the other people in my life (from my parents to my relatives - and even that one SS friend I still keep in contact with) are all very social and have many friends. A relative of mine had told me that I cut off people too easily.
She may be right, but damn... What's the point of hanging out with an inferior species that doesn't even have a higher goal in their lives? (I am talking about the materialistic retards)
I know another SS who hangs out with many people and most of these people are just horrible (she has Saturn in the 11th House lol) and she doesn't want to "cut ties" with them; she prefers to hang out with others, even if they're stupid or somewhat crypto-xtians, than to be alone.
I'd rather be alone.
I'd rather be alone and advance in my path. And then be able to help others advance as well.
This is my own mentality and worldview. It annoys me when people try to change it because their own worldview is so different (like the SS who'd rather have retarded materialistic friends than be alone and advance).