Hi again JoS,
I've been enjoying my visits here as of late and absolutely adore paging through your forums. I typically search for topics on subjects that interest me just in case there are other like minded individuals or interesting opinions or experiences on topics that have already been discussed. However, I didn't see much in terms of "power animals", i know most of you will likely tell me that its probably a familiar. But I doubt it for one reason : Spider came to me before i dedicated.
We don't talk to each other and i think that's because I'm too "asleep" in my dreamscapes to even initiate a discussion between each other. Apart from the fact this man glows blue and turns into a spider and follows me in my unconscious dreams (zZzZzZzZzZz), i don't really know this person. Sometimes spiders will come to me in the physical world and do really uncharacteristic things around me, which at this point i don't mind anymore. I just don't know how to react anymore, lol. The only time I really knew for sure this animal was the one was when it answered a direct question "Who is my power animal?" by appearing on my shadow in a lucid dream. Which is something i rarely do enough. I felt the cobwebs around my form as i came to. I usually don't make connections until the evidence is substantial, Spider succeeded in filling that bill.
It may be a slight proponent of shamanism, something i turned to and barely gave it thought apart from desperately wanting to understand myself. I didn't try to imprint myself onto animals that I enjoy, i simply asked and waited to see who represents me the most, lo and behold.
Would i even need a familiar and if i do, another spider lol?
Apart from the discussion of familiars, is there a correlation between this experience and spiritual satanism? Perhaps its someone from a past life that's been assigned to me already >_>.
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Here's another related story that you guys might enjoy.
One afternoon in the middle of January of 2014 i was walking to my mailbox and as i walked back towards home i heard a pair of birds I've never heard before. This couple was not a native to our sector/region. Horned Larks:
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They we're audibly beckoning me, felt unusual for birds to be sitting at my eye level perched on spruce tree and huddled in the cold looking like they needed a place to stay. I could see the desperation. I didn't know how to communicate back except trying to visibly point to our house saying "there's flaxseeds over there", that's all i could do really. I offer seeds during winter times only and peanuts year round for the wild animals to feast on. Never heard or saw that type of bird until....
A year later during summer, a horned lark crashed into our living room window and snapped its neck instantly. By the time i woke up and went on my morning routine, it was being scavenged by ants, so this bird was very dead, dead. I buried it out of respect on the spot where he died.
About 2 weeks later, i was sitting outside on the grass like a hippy, hand-feeding peanuts to squirrels and tossing some to bluejays, enjoying what little nature we have in this shit shack town and closed my eyes. I asked "Are animals capable of expressing thanks?" and when i opened my eyes, a horned lark had responded to my question, because it somehow picked up on this and landed in front of me, barely a foot away, looking straight at me. When i noticed it and gave it attention, it flew away, that's the last time i saw a horned lark.
The reason i don't think these birds are from here is because they might of gotten very lost that wintry day and possibly decided what i offered helped them in some way? I have no way of confirming if its even the same couple. Makes me wonder if burying it out respect had something to do with this bird answering my question. The synchronicity is simply undeniable, some creatures do listen to my questions, of course not always.
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I have a third story but out of respect ill make it short and brief. In 2010 i was coming back from a late night college course, it was definitely during summer time, i met with my lift at a huge open-parking lot and while i waited for them to come pick me up. I saw this praying mantis under the spotlight on the sidewalk. I decided to sit down near it and looked at it purely out of interest. Well the praying mantis was interested in me as well, so much that it fluttered around me repeatedly for several minutes before leaving. I didn't think much of it at the time. But its true that it could have been unusual, i don't know i don't see praying mantis much lol.
Is this some kind of gift?
I've been enjoying my visits here as of late and absolutely adore paging through your forums. I typically search for topics on subjects that interest me just in case there are other like minded individuals or interesting opinions or experiences on topics that have already been discussed. However, I didn't see much in terms of "power animals", i know most of you will likely tell me that its probably a familiar. But I doubt it for one reason : Spider came to me before i dedicated.
We don't talk to each other and i think that's because I'm too "asleep" in my dreamscapes to even initiate a discussion between each other. Apart from the fact this man glows blue and turns into a spider and follows me in my unconscious dreams (zZzZzZzZzZz), i don't really know this person. Sometimes spiders will come to me in the physical world and do really uncharacteristic things around me, which at this point i don't mind anymore. I just don't know how to react anymore, lol. The only time I really knew for sure this animal was the one was when it answered a direct question "Who is my power animal?" by appearing on my shadow in a lucid dream. Which is something i rarely do enough. I felt the cobwebs around my form as i came to. I usually don't make connections until the evidence is substantial, Spider succeeded in filling that bill.
It may be a slight proponent of shamanism, something i turned to and barely gave it thought apart from desperately wanting to understand myself. I didn't try to imprint myself onto animals that I enjoy, i simply asked and waited to see who represents me the most, lo and behold.
Would i even need a familiar and if i do, another spider lol?
Apart from the discussion of familiars, is there a correlation between this experience and spiritual satanism? Perhaps its someone from a past life that's been assigned to me already >_>.
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Here's another related story that you guys might enjoy.
One afternoon in the middle of January of 2014 i was walking to my mailbox and as i walked back towards home i heard a pair of birds I've never heard before. This couple was not a native to our sector/region. Horned Larks:
https://external-content.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fs-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com%2F736x%2Fc9%2Fd5%2F34%2Fc9d534c557efa63c23cc3787078cb72e.jpg&f=1&nofb=1
They we're audibly beckoning me, felt unusual for birds to be sitting at my eye level perched on spruce tree and huddled in the cold looking like they needed a place to stay. I could see the desperation. I didn't know how to communicate back except trying to visibly point to our house saying "there's flaxseeds over there", that's all i could do really. I offer seeds during winter times only and peanuts year round for the wild animals to feast on. Never heard or saw that type of bird until....
A year later during summer, a horned lark crashed into our living room window and snapped its neck instantly. By the time i woke up and went on my morning routine, it was being scavenged by ants, so this bird was very dead, dead. I buried it out of respect on the spot where he died.
About 2 weeks later, i was sitting outside on the grass like a hippy, hand-feeding peanuts to squirrels and tossing some to bluejays, enjoying what little nature we have in this shit shack town and closed my eyes. I asked "Are animals capable of expressing thanks?" and when i opened my eyes, a horned lark had responded to my question, because it somehow picked up on this and landed in front of me, barely a foot away, looking straight at me. When i noticed it and gave it attention, it flew away, that's the last time i saw a horned lark.
The reason i don't think these birds are from here is because they might of gotten very lost that wintry day and possibly decided what i offered helped them in some way? I have no way of confirming if its even the same couple. Makes me wonder if burying it out respect had something to do with this bird answering my question. The synchronicity is simply undeniable, some creatures do listen to my questions, of course not always.
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I have a third story but out of respect ill make it short and brief. In 2010 i was coming back from a late night college course, it was definitely during summer time, i met with my lift at a huge open-parking lot and while i waited for them to come pick me up. I saw this praying mantis under the spotlight on the sidewalk. I decided to sit down near it and looked at it purely out of interest. Well the praying mantis was interested in me as well, so much that it fluttered around me repeatedly for several minutes before leaving. I didn't think much of it at the time. But its true that it could have been unusual, i don't know i don't see praying mantis much lol.
Is this some kind of gift?
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