Merkabaforce
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- Joined
- Mar 25, 2019
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hello
pls i want my account deleted
I feel am not ready to have an account yet,am going through something that is affecting my life seriously,and I feel my involvement in this forum is not needed right now,I know you guys think everyone is unique and i know but I can't shake I'd this feeling that I am not doing enough to be knowleged and not to talk I have gotten into some agurments that didn't end up well for me.
I just feel like myself is not here,it just like someone watching through his body,I can see through my eyes and move my body and things but I don't feel me,its just like myself is inside but is not coming out.
when I see something use to like the feeling of like just do not come out,I don't feel it in my heart of anything same happens when I feel something I hate.I can't feel this hatred.its like everything about myself is blocked out thoroughly and I can't bring them out.
even my user name I don't even know what I feel about it,if I like it or not.lol
I have been meditating anyway and I will not stop but I have fallen back on the rtr because of physical problems that are going on,but I wish to come back up.
thank you for reading
maybe I will create another account in future when it is the right time.
pls i want my account deleted
I feel am not ready to have an account yet,am going through something that is affecting my life seriously,and I feel my involvement in this forum is not needed right now,I know you guys think everyone is unique and i know but I can't shake I'd this feeling that I am not doing enough to be knowleged and not to talk I have gotten into some agurments that didn't end up well for me.
I just feel like myself is not here,it just like someone watching through his body,I can see through my eyes and move my body and things but I don't feel me,its just like myself is inside but is not coming out.
when I see something use to like the feeling of like just do not come out,I don't feel it in my heart of anything same happens when I feel something I hate.I can't feel this hatred.its like everything about myself is blocked out thoroughly and I can't bring them out.
even my user name I don't even know what I feel about it,if I like it or not.lol
I have been meditating anyway and I will not stop but I have fallen back on the rtr because of physical problems that are going on,but I wish to come back up.
thank you for reading
maybe I will create another account in future when it is the right time.