StyleCoin said:
Azorm said:
How about you find something that motivates you. Like, meditate and think about yourself and your spirit. Who are you? Where your power lies? What motivates you in life and why are you here?
I also had one period when I was teen where I stopped my meditations. I tried them young but I was giving up a lot, couldn't really be consistent at all. Parents were also annoying, had barely any privacy at all and had to hide around to meditate. For few years I struggled with finding my will and motivation to do them every day and one day suddenly I found it somehow. I realized how much I missed to feel close to Satan and to our Gods, how I would like to be something more. I just felt sick from normies and that shitty life I had, started studying JoS more and made a promise to myself and to Satan I will do my meditations every day. It's no1. priority almost. Same as I need food and water every day, I also need my meditations. Once your mind realize that, it feels awkward skipping it. You just start feeling sad and depressed, your body and soul needs it.
I always loved to watch movies and anime and similar. Could see myself being one of those powerful char. I also wanted to fix my life and to heal. You gotta find what you want in life and become more motivated.
People with lot of air tend to be often in the clouds, daydreamers, hard to make proper habits sometimes. Water dominant people too can have similar problems. So it's about finding your daily grounding and a will to carry your stuff.
Try to work more with fire and earth.
Too many people here tend to give up too easily or they just are played with the enemy. Idk how they would react if their kundalini would awaken and start messing with them. Run and cry to your mommy, don't meditate for the next 3 years or ever again...
Some runes might help but it looks to me more like you need to realize what do you really want. You are young, it's harder for you to be consistent but you have to if you want to advance.
If you want to you can try to trick your brain to want meditations more by rewarding yourself with something nice after you finish them our listen to nice music while you are meditating but keep in mind it will be hard sometimes, so try to be more determined every day.
Satanama is good but try Surya or maybe even Sowilo too, it's giving a lot of nice energy and cleaning you.
thank you very much for answering, it helped me a lot i will start striving, and i will take an oath to satan. I will start day 09.
You are welcome. Do your best from now on and try to be more determined. Sometimes it's okay to slow down a bit but try to do your meditations still. Sometimes change them so you have better results from it.
Privacy problems are pain in the ass. Try more silent meditations with visualisation and with more feel. Practice drawing energy in chakras from the planets and to your aura. Add breathing exercises, hatha yoga, kundalini yoga if you didn't. Some vibrations can be whispered tho or even done silently in the head, just try to imagine really vibrating them still. It will work a bit too, it will count.
You can fake sleeping or watching a movie while doing some meditations or cleaning...
Try going outside a bit somewhere if you can to do some of those stuff alone. Try to find a place nobody will bother you for some time or fake doing something else. Sometimes I even would do some simple stuff while on some lessons on college, I faked that I'm following the lesson..
Most important oath is to yourself btw. Satan expects you to do those stuff anyways since you dedicated but I'm sure He will be happy if you became more determined than before.