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Cro666 wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:

FancyMancy wrote: Again, why do you want others to do your work for you? Don't say that you don't.

You want everyone to do your work for you. The Gods and Goddesses are not going to feed you grapes and pamper you, they have their own lives and also a war to fight, and you have the ability to do things yourself. They might have given you a boost and help, but then you allowed it to drain away? Excellent work.

Could you please change the title of this thread to "Why I no take advice but ignore everyone"?


Without revealing anything, but instead keeping yourself safe and anonymous, it might be beneficial to make a thread about such a programme. Undoubtedly, there are/will be many who have mental health problems, and a start of some proper, actual help for it, which actually works, would be extremely good (if you haven't made a thread for it already).


Muscle twitches are very common, and are so in the calves especially. Your diet might need to be improved, and they can also be induced because of stress, not to mention it is frequent during/after exercise, as well.


Keep saying "I have problems" and you will have more problems. If you had taken advice, you would be speaking positively in the present tense, not negatively.


Of course it's everyone else's fault.


Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

I understand what you said first. No more help.

I got 100 things to solve in my life and if i don't solve all of them at the same time i got that I'm lazy, bulshit or that "I'm not doing anything" I'm doing 100 things and guess what everything falls down on me why ? Because i did to much at the same time but no keep geting stuff like "you dont do anything" bs "you're lazy" but if i go at normal speed again same thing.

I don't ignore everyone and i took advices. Don't try to make me believe something that is not true. Same thing as in new age.

And if i have such a bad mental problem why do you even talk to me? talking with a "retard" because that's a person with mental illness, it uselles to talk to them. Everyone knows that. Everyone want's to get rid of them.

Of course it's everyone else's fault.

But why would it be always my fault?
Why sould i always put the blame on me and get distructive towards me and maybe doing something stupid and fatal because i didn't do it right.
If i only analyze my own mistakes i wouldn't learn so much but if i analize other mistakes too i got more to learn. So this way i can see my mistakes and others mistakes.

Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

Did i said that i meditated so much? And did i say that everything got well with meditation? No. You leave testimony if you got something pozitive about meditation as you said and that's happening after a longer time so where would be my testimony if i didn't meditated so much time? when i was on medication i coudnt do it because i was blocked and because i believed it's limiting me and not letting me advance, and if somethings continuously fucks your brain then you can meditate for the rest of your life you wouldn't go far or maybe nothing at all. So i got rid of medication = i got rid of blockage. And i'm proud for that

So it's not easy for me to stay pozitive with negative and pesimistic people around me.
And i know what i can do for that but right now i have other things to do and will do it later because i cant do too many things at the same time.

Stop beating yourself up like that...

It is clear that you are overburdened and its clear that you are not able to handle it at the moment. You say: I have a hundred problems to solve and if i dont fix everything i am lazy. Or why is it always my fault why do i get the blame for everything why is it always my fault.

Now let me ask you a question: Why do you need to solve eveything at the same time or solve anything at all, Why do you care if people think you are lazy, Why do you have to blame yourself or blame others? The answer is simple you dont have to solve anything, you dont have to care for what another person thinks, you dont have to blame/beat up yourself or anyone else. It is all between your ears, There is nothing that you need to solve or do.

You are overworked / overburdened / stressed out, Learn that you dont have to do everything or anything in that regard. The only thing that you should do now (in my opinion) is let everything go and take a break from it all, Your health is the most important thing here and right now what you need most is some fresh air.

I do not know what hickups there are in your real life but regarding spritualism take it easy for a while, go back to the basics and stop with all other meditations untill you are doing better again. Maybe do some fun things to get your mind off of your worries and troubles, Listen to your body and do what feels best. when you know that things are going better slowly pick up the meditations again.

Just because you are with satan now doesnt mean that you have become a super human, You still need to know how to handle stress and other difficult situations because if you dont bother paying attention to it things like whats happing now can and will happen. And dont think that just because you are a SS now that you have to do the RTR's and all the other things. Do you seriously think that Satan or the gods want you to suffer like this, You know that they care about you and want you to be happy and strong. Yes the RTR's are important but that does not mean that your life is not important, You are not some lowly slave remember that well.

FancyMancy wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:

FancyMancy wrote: Again, why do you want others to do your work for you? Don't say that you don't.

You want everyone to do your work for you. The Gods and Goddesses are not going to feed you grapes and pamper you, they have their own lives and also a war to fight, and you have the ability to do things yourself. They might have given you a boost and help, but then you allowed it to drain away? Excellent work.

Could you please change the title of this thread to "Why I no take advice but ignore everyone"?


Without revealing anything, but instead keeping yourself safe and anonymous, it might be beneficial to make a thread about such a programme. Undoubtedly, there are/will be many who have mental health problems, and a start of some proper, actual help for it, which actually works, would be extremely good (if you haven't made a thread for it already).


Muscle twitches are very common, and are so in the calves especially. Your diet might need to be improved, and they can also be induced because of stress, not to mention it is frequent during/after exercise, as well.


Keep saying "I have problems" and you will have more problems. If you had taken advice, you would be speaking positively in the present tense, not negatively.


Of course it's everyone else's fault.


Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

I understand what you said first. No more help.

I got 100 things to solve in my life and if i don't solve all of them at the same time i got that I'm lazy, bulshit or that "I'm not doing anything" I'm doing 100 things and guess what everything falls down on me why ? Because i did to much at the same time but no keep geting stuff like "you dont do anything" bs "you're lazy" but if i go at normal speed again same thing.

I don't ignore everyone and i took advices. Don't try to make me believe something that is not true. Same thing as in new age.

And if i have such a bad mental problem why do you even talk to me? talking with a "retard" because that's a person with mental illness, it uselles to talk to them. Everyone knows that. Everyone want's to get rid of them.

Of course it's everyone else's fault.

But why would it be always my fault?
Why sould i always put the blame on me and get distructive towards me and maybe doing something stupid and fatal because i didn't do it right.
If i only analyze my own mistakes i wouldn't learn so much but if i analize other mistakes too i got more to learn. So this way i can see my mistakes and others mistakes.

Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

Did i said that i meditated so much? And did i say that everything got well with meditation? No. You leave testimony if you got something pozitive about meditation as you said and that's happening after a longer time so where would be my testimony if i didn't meditated so much time? when i was on medication i coudnt do it because i was blocked and because i believed it's limiting me and not letting me advance, and if somethings continuously fucks your brain then you can meditate for the rest of your life you wouldn't go far or maybe nothing at all. So i got rid of medication = i got rid of blockage. And i'm proud for that

So it's not easy for me to stay pozitive with negative and pesimistic people around me.
And i know what i can do for that but right now i have other things to do and will do it later because i cant do too many things at the same time.

You can't spread yourself too thinly. You have to do one or a couple of things at a time. There might be 100 things which need doing, but if you work a tiny bit on each muscle, instead of working a decent amount on a couple of muscles at a time, then you're hardly going to be a bodybuilding hunk in the running for the World Strongman!

You have to work decently on a few things at once, then rest them after a proper period of work done and go onto something else, doing a full working on one or two things, then after that going onto something else to keep the balance. Meanwhile, keep notes and references of things (i.e. in a black book which you keep private and clean and safe) so you know what's what with your progress, while also doing the basic protections and cleanings. Trying to do all 100 things at once is not working on anything properly nor enough because it is not enough for each thing and it all just dies out.

The point is if you keep saying you have problems, etc., then you will have, and maybe more. You have to decide to think positively and speak positively in yourself. This is one of the first things which must be done, because if you don't believe it, then the chances of it working are lower.

When I say it's everyone else's fault, which you realised what I meant, it was that you have a lot of reasons and excuses. It is using/wasting a lot of energy saying all of these things, which could be used for improving yourself instead. I think you might need a confidant, someone to go to and complain to who will listen to you, but how well can they help you? It's difficult escaping that crutch and learning to stand on your own two feet, but we're always still here to offer help and advice - you have to then apply that to yourself and throw that crutch away.

It's OK if you didn't do something correctly, if you realise that and learn a better way to do it successfully. You have realised that, as you just said it to me, so now you can find ways to make sure that you can continue to do it correctly and successfully now, and not continue to worry about things. As I say, just start lowly and slowly and work your way up carefully, but don't go too crazily with it. Just focus on a couple of things and increase carefully from there.

Basically, you have to start somewhere and keep going relentlessly and not stopping. I hope that you are much better without those jew poisons called "medicines". I don't know the effects of just stopping them immediately and all of a sudden, but the advice which doctors give is to ween oneself off them over a period of time. Regardless, though, meditations should be done, as well, the very least of which and safest of which are AoP and Aura and Chakra Cleanings, with SURYA/SURYAE and AUM and SaTaNaMa and SATANAS.

Carefully later, other vibrations should also be used, rather than merely visualising alone. You might prefer to use a Rune which can help with cleaning mental problems and you should choose a very good positive/present-tense affirmation for it. Since ice slows things down, maybe fire to increase things a bit - but very, very carefully. Maybe do a practice run of it for a short amount of time to gauge it, to notice your Physical, Emotional and Psychological responses so you can notice things and see where you need to go from there. Yoga is also important, which is a Spiritual exercise and adds to the benefits. Remember and follow the 8-fold path. Try a few of them, then add more over time carefully and sensibly.

I bet you know these things already, but sometimes we need to be told them again. Rook said that they advised you to do something, then you asked why no-one is helping you. It's as if whatever is said to you here is deflected and a reason and excuse is given to replace any advice and help shared with you. You seem to be stuck in that for the moment, like a Mental block. It's like a knee-jerk reaction which you have become very used to and so comfortable in doing that you do it nearly without realising, and then wonder why no-one is helping you, not realising that you are, in fact, being helped. What do you want us to say? I would ask what you'd want us to do, but we cannot, nor would we ever, do your workings and meditations for you.

You know you can't do too many things at the same time, so then don't. Do a bit and work up from there. If you need to, make a priority list of things. Start lowly and slowly, then work up from there. A lot of us wish that we could have a Physical someone, either a Lover or a Friend, to do the workings and meditations with, but it's pointless wishing for something that is not quite possible Physically yet. I saw a post or a signature recently, and it said that one has been chosen for the very reason that things are difficult. It is our own/one's own individual decision ultimately, though, but we are capable. Start lowly and slowly somewhere, and build up from there carefully and sensibly and keep going relentlessly.

FancyMancy wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:

FancyMancy wrote: Again, why do you want others to do your work for you? Don't say that you don't.

You want everyone to do your work for you. The Gods and Goddesses are not going to feed you grapes and pamper you, they have their own lives and also a war to fight, and you have the ability to do things yourself. They might have given you a boost and help, but then you allowed it to drain away? Excellent work.

Could you please change the title of this thread to "Why I no take advice but ignore everyone"?


Without revealing anything, but instead keeping yourself safe and anonymous, it might be beneficial to make a thread about such a programme. Undoubtedly, there are/will be many who have mental health problems, and a start of some proper, actual help for it, which actually works, would be extremely good (if you haven't made a thread for it already).


Muscle twitches are very common, and are so in the calves especially. Your diet might need to be improved, and they can also be induced because of stress, not to mention it is frequent during/after exercise, as well.


Keep saying "I have problems" and you will have more problems. If you had taken advice, you would be speaking positively in the present tense, not negatively.


Of course it's everyone else's fault.


Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

I understand what you said first. No more help.

I got 100 things to solve in my life and if i don't solve all of them at the same time i got that I'm lazy, bulshit or that "I'm not doing anything" I'm doing 100 things and guess what everything falls down on me why ? Because i did to much at the same time but no keep geting stuff like "you dont do anything" bs "you're lazy" but if i go at normal speed again same thing.

I don't ignore everyone and i took advices. Don't try to make me believe something that is not true. Same thing as in new age.

And if i have such a bad mental problem why do you even talk to me? talking with a "retard" because that's a person with mental illness, it uselles to talk to them. Everyone knows that. Everyone want's to get rid of them.

Of course it's everyone else's fault.

But why would it be always my fault?
Why sould i always put the blame on me and get distructive towards me and maybe doing something stupid and fatal because i didn't do it right.
If i only analyze my own mistakes i wouldn't learn so much but if i analize other mistakes too i got more to learn. So this way i can see my mistakes and others mistakes.

Testimony, testimony, testimony. Where is your testimony after having done power meditations and coming out the other side a much better person?

Did i said that i meditated so much? And did i say that everything got well with meditation? No. You leave testimony if you got something pozitive about meditation as you said and that's happening after a longer time so where would be my testimony if i didn't meditated so much time? when i was on medication i coudnt do it because i was blocked and because i believed it's limiting me and not letting me advance, and if somethings continuously fucks your brain then you can meditate for the rest of your life you wouldn't go far or maybe nothing at all. So i got rid of medication = i got rid of blockage. And i'm proud for that

So it's not easy for me to stay pozitive with negative and pesimistic people around me.
And i know what i can do for that but right now i have other things to do and will do it later because i cant do too many things at the same time.

You can't spread yourself too thinly. You have to do one or a couple of things at a time. There might be 100 things which need doing, but if you work a tiny bit on each muscle, instead of working a decent amount on a couple of muscles at a time, then you're hardly going to be a bodybuilding hunk in the running for the World Strongman!

You have to work decently on a few things at once, then rest them after a proper period of work done and go onto something else, doing a full working on one or two things, then after that going onto something else to keep the balance. Meanwhile, keep notes and references of things (i.e. in a black book which you keep private and clean and safe) so you know what's what with your progress, while also doing the basic protections and cleanings. Trying to do all 100 things at once is not working on anything properly nor enough because it is not enough for each thing and it all just dies out.

The point is if you keep saying you have problems, etc., then you will have, and maybe more. You have to decide to think positively and speak positively in yourself. This is one of the first things which must be done, because if you don't believe it, then the chances of it working are lower.

When I say it's everyone else's fault, which you realised what I meant, it was that you have a lot of reasons and excuses. It is using/wasting a lot of energy saying all of these things, which could be used for improving yourself instead. I think you might need a confidant, someone to go to and complain to who will listen to you, but how well can they help you? It's difficult escaping that crutch and learning to stand on your own two feet, but we're always still here to offer help and advice - you have to then apply that to yourself and throw that crutch away.

It's OK if you didn't do something correctly, if you realise that and learn a better way to do it successfully. You have realised that, as you just said it to me, so now you can find ways to make sure that you can continue to do it correctly and successfully now, and not continue to worry about things. As I say, just start lowly and slowly and work your way up carefully, but don't go too crazily with it. Just focus on a couple of things and increase carefully from there.

Basically, you have to start somewhere and keep going relentlessly and not stopping. I hope that you are much better without those jew poisons called "medicines". I don't know the effects of just stopping them immediately and all of a sudden, but the advice which doctors give is to ween oneself off them over a period of time. Regardless, though, meditations should be done, as well, the very least of which and safest of which are AoP and Aura and Chakra Cleanings, with SURYA/SURYAE and AUM and SaTaNaMa and SATANAS.

Carefully later, other vibrations should also be used, rather than merely visualising alone. You might prefer to use a Rune which can help with cleaning mental problems and you should choose a very good positive/present-tense affirmation for it. Since ice slows things down, maybe fire to increase things a bit - but very, very carefully. Maybe do a practice run of it for a short amount of time to gauge it, to notice your Physical, Emotional and Psychological responses so you can notice things and see where you need to go from there. Yoga is also important, which is a Spiritual exercise and adds to the benefits. Remember and follow the 8-fold path. Try a few of them, then add more over time carefully and sensibly.

I bet you know these things already, but sometimes we need to be told them again. Rook said that they advised you to do something, then you asked why no-one is helping you. It's as if whatever is said to you here is deflected and a reason and excuse is given to replace any advice and help shared with you. You seem to be stuck in that for the moment, like a Mental block. It's like a knee-jerk reaction which you have become very used to and so comfortable in doing that you do it nearly without realising, and then wonder why no-one is helping you, not realising that you are, in fact, being helped. What do you want us to say? I would ask what you'd want us to do, but we cannot, nor would we ever, do your workings and meditations for you.

You know you can't do too many things at the same time, so then don't. Do a bit and work up from there. If you need to, make a priority list of things. Start lowly and slowly, then work up from there. A lot of us wish that we could have a Physical someone, either a Lover or a Friend, to do the workings and meditations with, but it's pointless wishing for something that is not quite possible Physically yet. I saw a post or a signature recently, and it said that one has been chosen for the very reason that things are difficult. It is our own/one's own individual decision ultimately, though, but we are capable. Start lowly and slowly somewhere, and build up from there carefully and sensibly and keep going relentlessly.

Catalincata94 wrote: Yeah it's true, you made me cry...

Catalincata94 wrote:

FancyMancy wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote: I understand what you said first. No more help.

I got 100 things to solve in my life and if i don't solve all of them at the same time i got that I'm lazy, bulshit or that "I'm not doing anything" I'm doing 100 things and guess what everything falls down on me why ? Because i did to much at the same time but no keep geting stuff like "you dont do anything" bs "you're lazy" but if i go at normal speed again same thing.

I don't ignore everyone and i took advices. Don't try to make me believe something that is not true. Same thing as in new age.

And if i have such a bad mental problem why do you even talk to me? talking with a "retard" because that's a person with mental illness, it uselles to talk to them. Everyone knows that. Everyone want's to get rid of them.


But why would it be always my fault?
Why sould i always put the blame on me and get distructive towards me and maybe doing something stupid and fatal because i didn't do it right.
If i only analyze my own mistakes i wouldn't learn so much but if i analize other mistakes too i got more to learn. So this way i can see my mistakes and others mistakes.

Did i said that i meditated so much? And did i say that everything got well with meditation? No. You leave testimony if you got something pozitive about meditation as you said and that's happening after a longer time so where would be my testimony if i didn't meditated so much time? when i was on medication i coudnt do it because i was blocked and because i believed it's limiting me and not letting me advance, and if somethings continuously fucks your brain then you can meditate for the rest of your life you wouldn't go far or maybe nothing at all. So i got rid of medication = i got rid of blockage. And i'm proud for that

So it's not easy for me to stay pozitive with negative and pesimistic people around me.
And i know what i can do for that but right now i have other things to do and will do it later because i cant do too many things at the same time.

You can't spread yourself too thinly. You have to do one or a couple of things at a time. There might be 100 things which need doing, but if you work a tiny bit on each muscle, instead of working a decent amount on a couple of muscles at a time, then you're hardly going to be a bodybuilding hunk in the running for the World Strongman!

You have to work decently on a few things at once, then rest them after a proper period of work done and go onto something else, doing a full working on one or two things, then after that going onto something else to keep the balance. Meanwhile, keep notes and references of things (i.e. in a black book which you keep private and clean and safe) so you know what's what with your progress, while also doing the basic protections and cleanings. Trying to do all 100 things at once is not working on anything properly nor enough because it is not enough for each thing and it all just dies out.

The point is if you keep saying you have problems, etc., then you will have, and maybe more. You have to decide to think positively and speak positively in yourself. This is one of the first things which must be done, because if you don't believe it, then the chances of it working are lower.

When I say it's everyone else's fault, which you realised what I meant, it was that you have a lot of reasons and excuses. It is using/wasting a lot of energy saying all of these things, which could be used for improving yourself instead. I think you might need a confidant, someone to go to and complain to who will listen to you, but how well can they help you? It's difficult escaping that crutch and learning to stand on your own two feet, but we're always still here to offer help and advice - you have to then apply that to yourself and throw that crutch away.

It's OK if you didn't do something correctly, if you realise that and learn a better way to do it successfully. You have realised that, as you just said it to me, so now you can find ways to make sure that you can continue to do it correctly and successfully now, and not continue to worry about things. As I say, just start lowly and slowly and work your way up carefully, but don't go too crazily with it. Just focus on a couple of things and increase carefully from there.

Basically, you have to start somewhere and keep going relentlessly and not stopping. I hope that you are much better without those jew poisons called "medicines". I don't know the effects of just stopping them immediately and all of a sudden, but the advice which doctors give is to ween oneself off them over a period of time. Regardless, though, meditations should be done, as well, the very least of which and safest of which are AoP and Aura and Chakra Cleanings, with SURYA/SURYAE and AUM and SaTaNaMa and SATANAS.

Carefully later, other vibrations should also be used, rather than merely visualising alone. You might prefer to use a Rune which can help with cleaning mental problems and you should choose a very good positive/present-tense affirmation for it. Since ice slows things down, maybe fire to increase things a bit - but very, very carefully. Maybe do a practice run of it for a short amount of time to gauge it, to notice your Physical, Emotional and Psychological responses so you can notice things and see where you need to go from there. Yoga is also important, which is a Spiritual exercise and adds to the benefits. Remember and follow the 8-fold path. Try a few of them, then add more over time carefully and sensibly.

I bet you know these things already, but sometimes we need to be told them again. Rook said that they advised you to do something, then you asked why no-one is helping you. It's as if whatever is said to you here is deflected and a reason and excuse is given to replace any advice and help shared with you. You seem to be stuck in that for the moment, like a Mental block. It's like a knee-jerk reaction which you have become very used to and so comfortable in doing that you do it nearly without realising, and then wonder why no-one is helping you, not realising that you are, in fact, being helped. What do you want us to say? I would ask what you'd want us to do, but we cannot, nor would we ever, do your workings and meditations for you.

You know you can't do too many things at the same time, so then don't. Do a bit and work up from there. If you need to, make a priority list of things. Start lowly and slowly, then work up from there. A lot of us wish that we could have a Physical someone, either a Lover or a Friend, to do the workings and meditations with, but it's pointless wishing for something that is not quite possible Physically yet. I saw a post or a signature recently, and it said that one has been chosen for the very reason that things are difficult. It is our own/one's own individual decision ultimately, though, but we are capable. Start lowly and slowly somewhere, and build up from there carefully and sensibly and keep going relentlessly.

What about the budism beeing judeo christinized? How do i know if there are or aren't coruptions in 8-fold path like the compassion?

shinninglight wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:

Ol argedco luciftias wrote:I would have tried to help you if I had any idea how to, and I think that's how most of us here are. But we can't tell you what you should do if we don't know.

HoddedCobra did hit the nail it's me giving in to paranoic thoughts and not ignoring the enemies.

But there is a thing that i think it makes things worse it's that my aunt is praying for me but i didn't do a biding on her yet so i'm going to do it when there will be a full moon but widouth element infusion in the herbs just isa in the pupit. And i know for sure that she is praying for me, she told me that.

This is my last answer i will give you.
Is not any enermy attacking you,is your own mental problem disturbing you,do you not know what a mental problem is or a mental illness,schizophrenia is one,schizophrenic people do here voices in their head and it tells them to do things,so it is better you be looking for something to heal it or it will just be going on unless maybe your brain heals by itself through meditation.
You keep thinking this is an enermy attack and thats what they keep telling you that is why your not getting any help,the reality is it is not and i have given solutions on how to do this which is to do a healing working for it or you can browse natural cures for schizophrenia online and see what you find.ask Satan for help to find a cure.
my advice is offer him something in return,maybe it can be doing more rtrs,helping more in the community,ask any of the gods,they are here for you.
But the most important thing is do not stop meditating or doing yoga

Catalincata94 wrote:

shinninglight wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote: HoddedCobra did hit the nail it's me giving in to paranoic thoughts and not ignoring the enemies.

But there is a thing that i think it makes things worse it's that my aunt is praying for me but i didn't do a biding on her yet so i'm going to do it when there will be a full moon but widouth element infusion in the herbs just isa in the pupit. And i know for sure that she is praying for me, she told me that.

This is my last answer i will give you.
Is not any enermy attacking you,is your own mental problem disturbing you,do you not know what a mental problem is or a mental illness,schizophrenia is one,schizophrenic people do here voices in their head and it tells them to do things,so it is better you be looking for something to heal it or it will just be going on unless maybe your brain heals by itself through meditation.
You keep thinking this is an enermy attack and thats what they keep telling you that is why your not getting any help,the reality is it is not and i have given solutions on how to do this which is to do a healing working for it or you can browse natural cures for schizophrenia online and see what you find.ask Satan for help to find a cure.
my advice is offer him something in return,maybe it can be doing more rtrs,helping more in the community,ask any of the gods,they are here for you.
But the most important thing is do not stop meditating or doing yoga

I have thoughts of acting crazy in front of people or not sure but also paranoid thoughts, I keep my best to keep control but i'm afraid if i have these thoughts is like these thoughts are programing me which can lead me in to being like that and somethimes I don't even know if it's something wrong with me (like schizophrenia) or just talking to someone from our side or the enemies and sometimes all separately at diferent times. I failed again in doing the aura of protection with algiz and aum suryae many times I tried finishing the 40 days but failed sometimes I was angry when I had to do the working sometimes I forgot, and sometimes just didn't wanted to do it at that time... and didn't do it.
Sometimes i feel a deep and good feeling which makes me laugh (which i think is because i meditate, because of the Gods but i can be wrong) and sometimes i feel anxiety and sadness and many times i cried for being like this and that i can't work and neither doing things right in ss but i want... i exagerated with meditation some time ago and thought now to stop for a while or just do the minimum like aura cleaning and void.
And i hate when people are mean to me especialy here that like they are talking to me like i did something un forgivable and very bad and that also makes me sad, maybe this is just in my mind that they are talking mean to me.

And also sometimes and once i feelt i can get over this and getting exagerated confident thoughts, arogance i think, that i'm very strong person or that i can become a genius and i also get a real reason for becoming a genius, an astrological reason for that when i think about it. But now this sounds arogant.

shinninglight wrote:...

Starcopper wrote:And Rook, bro, chill out. It's not cool to attack people who are already down when they haven't done anything to merit open hostility.

Aquarius wrote: “anxiety is a sign of acting in ways not real to your true self”

Aquarius wrote:Also, what helped me like 99% to remove anxiety was a comment from HP HoodedCobra that was along the lines of “ anxiety is a sign of acting in ways not real to your true self”
Not exactly what he said but you get it, i guess?

TopoftheAbyss wrote:

Aquarius wrote: “anxiety is a sign of acting in ways not real to your true self”

This is so much me. How did it help you?

Rook wrote:

Starcopper wrote:And Rook, bro, chill out. It's not cool to attack people who are already down when they haven't done anything to merit open hostility.

oh? and who exactly was it that i 'attacked' without 'merit'?

Starcopper wrote:The OP. Your tone is very hostile.

Starcopper wrote:

Rook wrote:

Starcopper wrote:And Rook, bro, chill out. It's not cool to attack people who are already down when they haven't done anything to merit open hostility.

oh? and who exactly was it that i 'attacked' without 'merit'?

The OP. Your tone is very hostile.

Catalincata94 wrote:This voice makes me crazy. Always telling me stuff to leave ss and manipulating. And having muscular contractions when it talks and it's terrifing. Sometimes i barely hold control not to break something. I get extremely angry. Sometimes I just feel i can't hold it any more with this voice.

Catalincata94 wrote:This voice makes me crazy. Always telling me stuff to leave ss and manipulating. And having muscular contractions when it talks and it's terrifing. Sometimes i barely hold control not to break something. I get extremely angry. Sometimes I just feel i can't hold it any more with this voice.

my tone was hostile? lol
what, did i threaten this guy or something? did i call him a bad name?
i have re-read my initial to here directed at OP, and i have yet to see the actual hostility, in fact i think i was to sympathetic.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Shael wrote:

Starcopper wrote:The OP. Your tone is very hostile.

He's always been like that, sadly.

Starcopper wrote:

my tone was hostile? lol
what, did i threaten this guy or something? did i call him a bad name?
i have re-read my initial to here directed at OP, and i have yet to see the actual hostility, in fact i think i was to sympathetic.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

You can be as dismissive and flippant as you want. I don't care. I've said my piece.

Shael wrote:

Starcopper wrote:The OP. Your tone is very hostile.

He's always been like that, sadly.

He sticks out like a sore thumb. I think he's here to troll.

Starcopper wrote:

my tone was hostile? lol
what, did i threaten this guy or something? did i call him a bad name?
i have re-read my initial to here directed at OP, and i have yet to see the actual hostility, in fact i think i was to sympathetic.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

You can be as dismissive and flippant as you want. I don't care. I've said my piece.

Shael wrote:

Starcopper wrote:The OP. Your tone is very hostile.

He's always been like that, sadly.

He sticks out like a sore thumb. I think he's here to troll.

Catalincata94 wrote:

Starcopper wrote:

my tone was hostile? lol
what, did i threaten this guy or something? did i call him a bad name?
i have re-read my initial to here directed at OP, and i have yet to see the actual hostility, in fact i think i was to sympathetic.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

You can be as dismissive and flippant as you want. I don't care. I've said my piece.

Shael wrote:He's always been like that, sadly.

He sticks out like a sore thumb. I think he's here to troll.

I think that too.

Aquarius wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:

Starcopper wrote:
You can be as dismissive and flippant as you want. I don't care. I've said my piece.



He sticks out like a sore thumb. I think he's here to troll.

I think that too.

And you're pathetic, know why? because you kept making threads asking help on the same matters you already received help and when someone actually is annoyed by this and calls you out you just play victim. Not cool. Even an HP told you.

Catalincata94 wrote:

Aquarius wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote: I think that too.

And you're pathetic, know why? because you kept making threads asking help on the same matters you already received help and when someone actually is annoyed by this and calls you out you just play victim. Not cool. Even an HP told you.

and confusion doesn't matter? i had many times confusion and didn't know what to do so i asked questions and if i forget something then i'm "pathethic" right? I don't play victim. Don't know what you mean by that HP told me, don't remember.

HP. Hoodedcobra666 wrote:Because you are not helping yourself and giving in to thoughts of paranoia, only you can help yourself.

There is no such "voice" and if there is you can simply tune it out. How? By ignoring it. It is that easy.

HP. Hoodedcobra666 wrote:Because you are not helping yourself and giving in to thoughts of paranoia, only you can help yourself.

There is no such "voice" and if there is you can simply tune it out. How? By ignoring it. It is that easy.

Catalincata94 wrote:This voice makes me crazy. Always telling me stuff to leave ss and manipulating. And having muscular contractions when it talks and it's terrifing. Sometimes i barely hold control not to break something. I get extremely angry. Sometimes I just feel i can't hold it any more with this voice.

Aldrick Strickland wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:This voice makes me crazy. Always telling me stuff to leave ss and manipulating. And having muscular contractions when it talks and it's terrifing. Sometimes i barely hold control not to break something. I get extremely angry. Sometimes I just feel i can't hold it any more with this voice.

Enemy was doing that to me lately. Feeling like they were not even in my life. Then Satan visited me last night. It was so clear. He put all the fears aside so easily. I was so Happy tears streamed down both sides of my cheeks.

I released all this worry and frustration. God it felt Good. Hail Satan!

Aldrick Strickland wrote:

Catalincata94 wrote:This voice makes me crazy. Always telling me stuff to leave ss and manipulating. And having muscular contractions when it talks and it's terrifing. Sometimes i barely hold control not to break something. I get extremely angry. Sometimes I just feel i can't hold it any more with this voice.

Enemy was doing that to me lately. Feeling like they were not even in my life. Then Satan visited me last night. It was so clear. He put all the fears aside so easily. I was so Happy tears streamed down both sides of my cheeks.

I released all this worry and frustration. God it felt Good. Hail Satan!