LightMangoMango
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- Sep 25, 2017
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Hello to all Satanic Warriors,
I want to step my life up.
I now meditated and did spiritual warfare for about an year and consider myself as a beginner.
My situation is I live in a very small apartment with a close relative who raised me.
I have basically no privacy 98% of the time and I feel like the others persons thoughts and mindset is constantly getting in my head. ( I just realized this because last week I was for my own)
Last week I had the place for myself all week and I was feeling so energized and was very productive doing multiple RTRs a day, when I woke up the first thing I did was 1-2 RTRs and then I was so happy which made my whole day workout much better. I also was proud always doing the meditation the right way, never too late in the night when I already almost fall asleep, and my ability to concentrate was much better.
Also saying all my affirmations aloud felt so good.
Now I'm not alone anymore and Im instantly constantly having this bad gut feeling, having a bad time focusing, and being much more lazy, like before.
I don't have so much experience in life yet and I'm in my own judgement am taking too long to get out of here. I'm scared that now after a few more days I again have this shit mindset that make me dream low and can't differentiate these from my own thoughts.
What is this situation? Are our souls merged to a certain level? It was just me and her for basically all my life and I when I was alone a week I realized that I want to achieve so much more than this shitty life ( and that I actually can ). Now all this sickness of low self worth and ' /I can't make this' are back after just two days.
The other person, she is also chronicly ill and X-ian and chronic low self esteem.
I find myself complaining about things on myself which I didn't care for when l was free on my own.
Do you have any tips for me? I need to get out of this spiritual hole ASAP.
I want to step my life up.
I now meditated and did spiritual warfare for about an year and consider myself as a beginner.
My situation is I live in a very small apartment with a close relative who raised me.
I have basically no privacy 98% of the time and I feel like the others persons thoughts and mindset is constantly getting in my head. ( I just realized this because last week I was for my own)
Last week I had the place for myself all week and I was feeling so energized and was very productive doing multiple RTRs a day, when I woke up the first thing I did was 1-2 RTRs and then I was so happy which made my whole day workout much better. I also was proud always doing the meditation the right way, never too late in the night when I already almost fall asleep, and my ability to concentrate was much better.
Also saying all my affirmations aloud felt so good.
Now I'm not alone anymore and Im instantly constantly having this bad gut feeling, having a bad time focusing, and being much more lazy, like before.
I don't have so much experience in life yet and I'm in my own judgement am taking too long to get out of here. I'm scared that now after a few more days I again have this shit mindset that make me dream low and can't differentiate these from my own thoughts.
What is this situation? Are our souls merged to a certain level? It was just me and her for basically all my life and I when I was alone a week I realized that I want to achieve so much more than this shitty life ( and that I actually can ). Now all this sickness of low self worth and ' /I can't make this' are back after just two days.
The other person, she is also chronicly ill and X-ian and chronic low self esteem.
I find myself complaining about things on myself which I didn't care for when l was free on my own.
Do you have any tips for me? I need to get out of this spiritual hole ASAP.