I made a post about a week ago about problems I was having and you guys really helped me out on that. I wanted to make another post because right now im going through a heavy wave of depression.
I said in my last post that I have problems with sexual deprivation, and its bothered me a lot. I have a massive blockage in my sacral chakra, and its because I have a bad mars in my birth chart. Every other planet is fine, and I even have my chart ruler and other planets in their exalted and home signs. Its just a bad mars that's causing a ton of problems, along with a badly placed Saturn. I have an 8th house Saturn that causes poverty and sexual deprivation.

I sit and think a lot about how my life would be if I found a partner and a good relationship, and it drives me crazy. I don't want to sound like some kind of freak, but I think about sex a lot, and I have planets in my birth chart that causes me to think like that, but the issue is because I have a bad mars and I never can find a partner and have a decent sexual outlet, it causes depression, and its a very heavy depression. It actually hurts on the inside, its a feeling of total loneliness and desolation that I cant explain, but I hope none of you guys ever have to feel that.

I'm in the middle of a munka working and trying to get rid of bad Saturn influences. I don't think its working. I cant enter a trance, I never could, and the home I live in also makes it impossible to.
I just lie down and pretend to feel the vibration through my body and I hope that's good enough.

Over the years of going through all the depression and the life I have, has really made me hate myself and feel like im not worth anything. I barely talk to Satan anymore because I feel too damn worthless and weak. I cant stand this feeling and I want to get out of this mindset as fast as I can. When I have a wave of depression hit me, it hits hard, and im literally walking around my bedroom crying and things when it does, its really bad.
I feel like I just cant escape this, and its getting the best of me.

The root of all this depression is the blockage on my sacral chakra. I have had the most miserable life, and as a kid, I was already bullied and all that shit. I grew up in a very violent home without my dad present at all, and my mom was a complete drug addict, abusive and a cruel bitch.

I don't know what to do to get rid of the problem in my sacral chakra. Im already using munka for Saturn. I could use runes, but I just suck at using magic, I think I just don't put enough effort into it, or take it serious enough for any kind of working I do to actually work. I starting vibrating Vaum into my sacral chakra the other day. Im doing it every day for 54 reps, but Vaum all by itself just opens and empowers the chakra, and doesn't really clean it, or get rid of any issues. Can anyone give me some ideas please. I really need them.

Maybe you should use the Mar's square. It will help with this.

Your ok I think everyone who has 8th house influence thinks about sex a lot. I have 4 planets there lol. Do the Mars Square when it is in Leo next I think July then again in Scorpio I think next nov. That energy combination is pure confidence. And not only do the Sun square this March 21st and beyond but also when the sun is exalted fill yourself with its energy vibrate surya into your solar plexus or a mantra to strengthen
that the whole time sun is exalted. If you use that and then again when sun is in Leo you will be doing really good. Really use it that will help you. For right now you probably need to do the raum meditation each day clean and you can clean your aura with the method from returning curses meditation send the black energy back to the Jews I always do this by visualizing the Israeli flag and saying return to Jews visualizing the dark energy go into the stolen blue star of vishnu. You can do that method way more than 3 times just keep doing the bright light down through you and send the dirt to the Jews.

Do the raum thing for now I am sorry the stuff with sun and mars isnt fully helpful know as on the Jo's it said pisces is the sun's weakest sign and mars is in detriment in Taurus but always do an affirmation with even the spiritual square like "my sun is permanently strengthened" or what you want otherwise it's a waste.

Right now freeing the soul you can get radical and add ansuz uruz to it too.

Good luck .

Vaum is a very watery mantra sibce the Sacral chakra is of the water element. Too much water can make an imbalance that leads to depression since water is very sensitive and emotional. Try using some fire to help balance, slowly and carefully so you don't have too much. Remember, if you work with elements it could all hit you all at once late that night or even a day or two later, so if it doesn't feel like it's doing anything in that moment don't do more. 54 is a very large number for something tied to an element, maybe all these days of 54 vaum filled your soul up with too much water and this depression now is the result.

Or you can invoke akasha. This can balance all your elements and fix it if there's any kind of problem like this. And I don't think you can really over do the akasha because it is the source of all other elements so it balances itself.

If you're doing 54 vaum, also do 54 raum in the solar chakra so it stays balanced.

You need to get rid of the blockage. And get rid of your negative mentality.

Yeah, it sucks to have an abusive family. I know how it feels. But you shouldn't let it bring you down. A lot of SS went through really fucked up stuff in their past, unfortunately. And unsurprisingly, if we take into consideration just how much the enemy enjoys making SS suffer.

You should start talking to Father Satan again. You need to get rid of the thought that you're worthless and weak, because you're not. But you need to fight. Depression, from what I've read here, can be dealt with by doing yoga and having a strong aura of protection. Power meditations also help a lot.

And you also need to stop saying that you're shit with magic. You need to believe in your own power - or it will not work. If you tell yourself that you are shit with magic and you're not able to do that or this... well, it won't help you. Instead, think about what could make you better at it. It's okay to not be stellar with magic. Some people have an easier time with it, while others need to work a bit harder. It depends on the individual. But if you keep that mentality, you won't get anything done.

I hope this helped you and that everything will get better.

Stop making a victim out of yourself. You are not a victim. Father Satan and the Gods love you.

Good luck.

You can start using anzus, and munka today. WOrk on freeing your soul. Wunjo rune is for banishing depression along with Suryae.

Apart from the spiritual fixes, there also needs to be a conscious attempt from you for talking to women. Complaining about it on internet forums won't help unless you go out and talk with them. Try to improve your conversational and flirting skills. Whenever you talk with the women, try to make her laugh. Talk about commonalities and talking about your life and her life. In between you need to inject sexuality or you'll get friendzoned. Statements like "Your hot"," You look sexy"brush her hair and say like "wow your eyes are beautiful". Shit like that you get the idea.

The point is make a conscious effort to socialize if you are not doing it. Remember your not going to sleep with every woman and certainly not the first woman. Don't get depressed when you get rejected. Think about those beta orbiters who get friendzoned and yet orbit around the girl trying to buy her all sorts of things hoping to get fucked somehow. However they never will. Be happy that you didn't end up in that beta male position and at least made a conscious effort, weren't dishonest about your intentions .Your criteria for success is doing the very best you can in an interaction.

And have strong boundaries. Don't let anyone insult you or walk over you. If they do sternly warn them if that you won't put up with that shit and if they continue doing that ,you'll break all contact with them. Enforce your boundaries. And remember the friendzone thing is very important. Don't scam or lie to a girl. You like her and you want her, make your intent clear. Being dishonest and agreeing that you're " just friends " is a very bad thing to do.

If your in school try to make cool friends and do cool stuff with them. Don't go hard on player mode while inside the school. Plant these ideas little by little. You can use the Venus mantra "Aum Shukraya Nama" for socializing and girl problems. And "Aum Klim Kamadevaya Nama" for only girl problems. Use proper affirmation. Remember, make a conscious effort towards achieving your goal.

When you feel depressed just try and think outside of yourself and look at the bigger picture.

The world will carry on. There will be more sunny days. And there is good and bad out there in the world.

You experience life and grow through your hardships.

Take it one day at a time and one step at a time.

You may feel depressed because you want change NOW, but it's okay to fail sometimes and to take a while to work towards something.

If you're feeling very sexual make sure to stay away from any depraved porn because that stuff is addictive and will screw you up. Focus on good healthy things.

When I was still very young I was also poor and the other kids tried bullying me. I fought back and found how much I hate them because they were cowards.

Busting my antagonisers up earned me a lot of respect and they stopped. But you've got to be aware that it's safe for you to attack back. Like make sure there is no teacher around type of thing. Be clever and calculated to not get yourself in trouble. However there was the odd one that was practicing karate or kickboxing and they would try me on in the streets because I was guaranteed to fight back. I hated them actually still do so much because they always run. Worthless scum no backbone bullies.

Amazingly those twits that just wouldn't let me be got sorted out for me by the Gods. If I felt hopeless about someone that wouldn't leave me alone. Miraculously they landed up in an accident or someone else busted them up so bad they couldn't walk anymore. One had a family disaster and they moved away. I delighted in their drama because they then had too big a problems to worry about bothering me. I'm grateful for their problems that got them off my back because it was most definitely the Gods helping me with something that was a torture. So delight if your enemies get screwed up.

I have a very strong inner power. I don't need people nor care of others thoughts of me because you know. If someone has a problem with me, that's their problem. And they're not worth it. They mean nothing to me. So don't burn your energy thinking about the haters. We are different and on a higher vibration to the others and they're jealous that's why they try come after us. You're of Satan and very special and valueable. Have self respect and love for yourself.

No one ever kicks a dead dog. And the more important and higher places that dog is going the harder the kicking usually is.

We are different from the rest and always have been.

To pick up girls they will look at what you have to offer them. So maybe you could get some part time job and earn some money to take a girl out and buy her treats. What can you do for them other than just fuck? So build yourself up.

But just don't pressure yourself because things take time. Feel good that you're on the right track, aware of your challenges and working out actions to solve them.

And it goes without saying stay clean and don't touch a girl that takes drugs because she might lead you astray.

Keep your head up and keep advancing my mein bro

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Vaum is a very watery mantra sibce the Sacral chakra is of the water element. Too much water can make an imbalance that leads to depression since water is very sensitive and emotional. Try using some fire to help balance, slowly and carefully so you don't have too much. Remember, if you work with elements it could all hit you all at once late that night or even a day or two later, so if it doesn't feel like it's doing anything in that moment don't do more. 54 is a very large number for something tied to an element, maybe all these days of 54 vaum filled your soul up with too much water and this depression now is the result.

Or you can invoke akasha. This can balance all your elements and fix it if there's any kind of problem like this. And I don't think you can really over do the akasha because it is the source of all other elements so it balances itself.

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No wonder ive been so emotional the past few days. Didn't know that the chakra vibrations also empowered elements in your soul. Ive been using Raum for a long time, and fire was already my dominant element to begin with. I stopped using raum and replaced it with Vaum to start working on my sacral chakra. I was always empowering my solar plexus chakra, because a strong solar plexus helps to attract money. I was always hotheaded because of all the fire. My natal sun is my chart ruler, and its in its exalted sign of Aries.
I only have 1 air sign, and from what ive heard, air helps nullify bad and out of control emotions. So I probably should try invoking air since its my weakest element. To be honest I think I really need a lot of water because its also the psychic element, and my overall psychic abilities aren't doing too well. Its just a bitch dealing with the emotions and depression it causes. Its most likely causing depression because im mostly fire, and all of a sudden I stopped using Raum, and replaced it with Vaum, and water is fires natural opposing element.

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Be careful with air too. I was in a huge wind storm one time, so I spent about 10 minutes invoking all the air I could. For a few days after I was so nervous anxious, I couldn't stop from worrying about all these imaginary problems. Air can be over stimulating to the nervous system like this. Just work with ether/akasha. Since ether is the base that all other elements come from, it will automatically fill in whatever elements might be deficient. But it won't over load any specific element because it balances them all.

The Sacral chakra is of the Earth element according to the JOS site. So unless it's been edited someplace else I would stick to that.

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Sacral_Chakra.html

Try to get rid of the feeling that you are not worthy, i did a 90 day munka once and it really helps also the rune Wunjo it helps a lot with this kind of problems you sould give it a try. Build a powerfull aura of protection and dont stop for whatever reason, also never forget Kundalini and Hatha Yoga. Best wishes i hope everything goes well !

I have almost the same problem. What i did and i'm still doing to fix it is first a working with Munka for 108 reps to free myself from any sexual hung-ups, this working helped me for like 80%, already with this i felt my sacral chakra more powerful and overall because now more energy could go through it all of my self felt more powerful. The working that i've started some days ago is with Satanas for 108 reps on my sacral chakra to free it from any negative karma and it's working! Everyday i feel more powerful and my chakra more and more unblocled.

Like HP Mageson said you could do a Mars square and this would already help a lot. The workings that i did works a lot for me.