Also, I have trouble reading women too, whether they like me or not, (despite my desperation that's being addressed). But can I please get your opinion on this person. I am not going to do any spells or anything at the moment and I am not "desperate" about it either. but I do want an honest opinion, so just in case I do decide to I want to do a spell after venus goes direct. sorry for the long post, the reason why I am wondering about it, is because everyone I ever told this to, seems to think she really likes me , a LOT. I prefer to ask perceptives from other SS and do you think, when venus goes direct, I could do a love spell on someone like her since we act like a married couple anyway even though we haven't dated or anything LOL. I am considering her as a potential partner.
This woman I work with. The woman is older than me, and well use to be a police officer now she works as security where I am at. Well since I am trans. man, she was at first not sure what to think of me, but as security a lot of people gave me hell, harassed me, at first she had to take me in the office to question me about the things people gossiped about. Well when I told her what I said, and I think she is a kind hearted person and is smart too, when it comes to someone telling the truth. So yeah, from there on out, she has been really protective of me ever since. She is sensitive to my feelings and I am sensitive to hers. A lot of people do not like her because she is "security." which of course I know that, but I also see her as a person with thoughts and feelings.
Anyway, I been a victim to gossip before, especially about her which made me mistrust her, well the truth of the matter is ,when I was in the office with her, I was really shocked she was THAT upset, I was even listening to any of it, well I am new to the place and not familiar with a lot of stuff. Well , since I had a total freak out, well lol I got called into the office by the head manager because of my reaction, and misunderstanding. Anyway, I didnt speak to this person for two weeks...(the woman who is security), I didn't know that bothered her at all... I thought she was upset with me, she was upset with them she explained, as she was shaking my hand, well I was expecting a"weak" hand shake because it was that way before, well I was surprised, when she didn't want to let go of my hand, I felt a charge of energy into my heart and sacral chakras. That created a really strong link with that handshake and looking me into the eye. As I think about it, because energy is powerful, I began to understand she is attached. I wasn't drained or anything but yeah.
At first I didn't think anything of her at all. Until lately I started to notice more. And I have a strong feeling she likes me. Its little things I've noticed. She would be serious all day, and I was just getting over being sick, well I didn't speak to her, so I went to talk to her, so she didn't feel I was ignoring her, well...lol her mood changed and a friend of mine saw it too. She always seems to be lurking nearby or watching me on the security cameras (for protection). And I always feel when she is watching me because I would feel her presence, even when she is not looking, I would still feel her. LIke another time , I was really feeling like crap/depressed... I recall when we were talking I felt a "caress" on my cheek ,not literally either but I felt like that is what she wanted to do. I kept my mouth shut. We were on the job. Lol. I also noticed when I compliment her, she seems to "glow" and a certain color shirt that I like on her, she has been wearing it more often lately. When I talk to her, I do not know why but she seems to start to get nervous by playing with her ear, or something on her shirt, fidgeting. I also noticed a few times she would "step back" when talking to me, and well at first I was like "wth?" confused until I realize that I seem to trigger overwhelming emotions in her, like one time she did that but I felt her wanting "sex" and then well insecurity levels went off the roof, after that, I knew it wasn't me either.
There are other times when we seem to connect and have a friendly conversation, and the very next day she acts aloof and distant, being weird. She does this a lot. So on her birthday I did up an art picture of herself for her. (I am an artist). Well she knew I did a picture because a friend of mine told her, well when she heard , my friend said her reaction was surprised and she was smiling ear to ear. But when I actually gave it to her as a gift for her birthday, on that day she seemed like she was kinda moody but when I gave her the picture, or was trying to give it to her "you can keep it if you want..." I was like "no it is a gift for your bday" and I been wondering why she even told me that, her mood completely changed and I saw her "glow". This glow I didn't really think anything of it. Especially if it is a picture of her.Well... of course I didnt expect her to show everyone, i didnt care if she did or not... but she did show the head manager (a woman) , I had no idea about it, it was the head manager who told me that she showed the picture. One day we cleaned up this battery acid spill (I am maintenance) , as security/assitatnt manager over safety, well we both did look ridiculous in what we were wearing, shes worn it before, and never laughed but maybe it was my reaction and i felt ridiculous witha face mask , she couldnt stop laughing... well ever since we cleaned that spill up she has been around me more often probably because I make her laugh... a week after her being around me a lot. I asked her if she liked working with me or something... she stopped , laughed and said "what makes you ask that question?"..... "well you are around more often and you cant seem to stop laughing" , well she was being a smart ass "oh I like working with everyone" ... then I replied "well I ask, because you have a nice smile" .. of course, as I was walking away , she "glowed" again. I thought "she is full of shit...saying that ha ha"
I am almost done here. Two other incidents that make me wonder. Well when my supervisior was on vacation, she took over. A guy i work with in maintenance use to be an assistant manager, she called him into the office, about scheduling, she didnt come to me about my schedule, i was upset wondering why she would discuss my schedule with him or didnt come to me first, (apparently she didnt). Well ... again at this time I had insecurity really bad, i was upset for 3 days , apparently he made it into something it was not, so I ended up mistrusting her. Of course.... I decided to confront her about why she was "discussing" my schedule. She got upset and defensie and when we both calmed down she told me what was actually said, well thats when I realized he was being a lying manipulative bastard. And well she apparently didnt know about him, until we were in the office one day when my supervisior came back, he outright lied about something and when we left the office. She was pissed at him. I didnt think she was upset with the whole thing but she was, I found out through my supervisior. For some reason she gets concerned about me not trusting her and she has confirmed this in the office one day when I approached her and apologize for making her feel that way (that i dont trust her), I do trust her now so to speak. I KNEW this before i was told anythign because i went into the office asking about my schedule because the guy i worked with, said something to me and I thought it was true. I swear i heard her in her thoughts "do you not trust me?" it trust out , I did hear those words in her thoughts, because that one time I went to the office to apologize aobut that, she confirmed she did wonder about it.....
So as we interact, she sure does tease me a lot. ha ha.
Finally, one last incident... and it was recent. My costume for Halloween. LOL. I was dressed as a satyr. I did not identify as "the devil." When I walked into the office with her, my supervisior and personnell training....she was there, I felt a surge of nervousness, and energy from her but she kept her "cool" physically speaking but the first thing that came out of her mouth was "are you the devil?" I was like "what the hell made you say that?" LOL "well you have horns and hoofs!" I did a "happy dance" with hoofs on...well of course it was goofy. So when i was walking around the workplace later in my hoofs she came out of the office seeing me upfront walking in hoofs.... she laughed her ass off. She thought my costume was really cool, etc. and i asked her what made her think of the devil! She didnt really go into detail lol. But i mentioned "do you want to borrow my horns? they seem to suit your personality" well her response was "hey thats not nice, i will wear angel wings and a halo instead" and for some reason I had a feeling she was thinking of "the devil and an angel , talking" (me and her) as characters in the store.
What do you think?
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