I sincerely thank you for your original post. "Parents" can easily be replaced with "family/friends" in this context.
I've been feeling a lot of selfish pain lately and avoiding these forums. "Ugly Duckling" vibes or whatever you call it. My sense of humor is a very sharp two edged sword and I've just about cut my legs out from under myself, but, whatever...
Regardless, I keep being really surprised/impressed/inspired by the degree of sincerity you folks show. You seem to really put forth the effort of understanding people, knowing the kinds of people who are drawn to your beliefs, the kind of families they come from, the kind of love they have for them, and how hard it is when communication doesn't cooperate with good intentions. If I can be "that guy", I'll say that if Xians behaved in this way and did so sincerely, I might never have left them.
I actually truly love the thought of being an "invisible protector" of sorts for my loved ones who are still Xian or atheist. If I could become something that good for them, I would have a tremendous amount of meaning and gratification. I'm not interested in "credit" or recognition; that's for charlatans on daytime TV show performers like James Hydrick and Uri Gellar.
I guess I'd rather become a guardian for mortals than a god among them. I didn't think I would ever hear that such a state of mind would be considered good or right, even by spiritual Satanists (sorry. I don't mean to be insulting; just trying to be honest)
These days any time you try to help other people for any reason besides some self-serving ulterior motive you're a "cuck" or "sap" or whatever. Then I read something like your post here and I remember that being good and doing right for the sake of loving what's good and right is moral beyond relative definitions or semantics. It's just the way we're supposed to be. Anyone who tries to shift those priorities is not trying to benefit you or those you care about in any way.
I really do love you folks. And I'm glad you're still here to help me through these confusing times. I'm sorry I can be such a shit to you now and then. It's just an anti-social streak I've always had. And I can't get rid of it.
I wish you all the best. Humble blessings from a mortal to all of you and your gods. And Hail Satan for raising such wonderful children.
Truth without Law is Anarchy. Law without Truth is Tyranny.