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of the true light

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Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.
 
of the true light said:
Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.
Seems like you really need to control your thoughts. Do some void it will help with those random thoughts. You'll love the cat bit by bit but just control your thoughts. The enemy can cause random thoughts and attacks like that.
 
I'm faced with a situation of having a choice to take one of my broters family cats for me due to two cats bullying one cat. Not the prettiest cat there is, but the cat deserves a good home... So now I'm pondering about this responsibility, and how it would affect things. I think first and foremost it is important to look past superficial things in such a situation.
 
Don't make of it an obsession and let nature work.
This may also be a confusion moment, or an enemy attempt.
We should not love animals for what they look like, as they're not humans and affection can really be given to any creature.
What matters is that she's not malformed, or sick, and neglected.
You should try to just begin taking her with you, give her food in your hands, and let her rest and sleep on the couch or the bed, they usually like to rest on pillows or at your feet: if you had a baby, the cat would want to sleep near him/her. It is a great way to build a bond, and then it becomes a daily routine because their warmth and presence is beyond special, and you'll start calling for her at every time.
(Of course you'll need to look at the hygiene, but if she's healthy, you won't have issues. Cats are very clean)
You should not refuse her when she seeks for a caress, or your attention, because she will feel that.

I also like details, or prefer black cats more than others, but this does not mean you only cuddle black cats. They are always cats. And I don't know you, but I bet you stopped in the streets to play with strays, which most of the times are sick and not at their best, everyone did, and you're not worse than anyone.
 
of the true light said:
Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.

You need to let go of this perfectionist ideal, your cat is just the way it is and unfortunately there isn't a way to change that. Perhaps in the future though, there will be an emphasis on maintaining the racial purity of animals, as many do suffer from the endless amount of mixing breeders put them through.

And you can always adopt another cat, of the same gender, to give it a companion. This could create some form of balance in the mind.
 
mercury_wisdom said:
Seems like you really need to control your thoughts. Do some void it will help with those random thoughts. You'll love the cat bit by bit but just control your thoughts. The enemy can cause random thoughts and attacks like that.
Totally, I had been forgetting to do void. I've been doing it for a couple days again now and it does make it a lot easier!

Thank you : )
 
Satanic Path said:
Don't make of it an obsession and let nature work.
This may also be a confusion moment, or an enemy attempt.
We should not love animals for what they look like, as they're not humans and affection can really be given to any creature.
What matters is that she's not malformed, or sick, and neglected.
You should try to just begin taking her with you, give her food in your hands, and let her rest and sleep on the couch or the bed, they usually like to rest on pillows or at your feet: if you had a baby, the cat would want to sleep near him/her. It is a great way to build a bond, and then it becomes a daily routine because their warmth and presence is beyond special, and you'll start calling for her at every time.
(Of course you'll need to look at the hygiene, but if she's healthy, you won't have issues. Cats are very clean)
You should not refuse her when she seeks for a caress, or your attention, because she will feel that.

I also like details, or prefer black cats more than others, but this does not mean you only cuddle black cats. They are always cats. And I don't know you, but I bet you stopped in the streets to play with strays, which most of the times are sick and not at their best, everyone did, and you're not worse than anyone.

I treat her very well, she's spoiled irregardless of her looks.

Yes, I take care of a stray outside currently too.

I'm a cat lover big time.

What matters is that she's not malformed, or sick, and neglected.

So true.
 
Specter said:
You need to let go of this perfectionist ideal, your cat is just the way it is and unfortunately there isn't a way to change that. Perhaps in the future though, there will be an emphasis on maintaining the racial purity of animals, as many do suffer from the endless amount of mixing breeders put them through.

And you can always adopt another cat, of the same gender, to give it a companion. This could create some form of balance in the mind.

I know; I'm a perfectionist.

I've considered another cat but costs currently do not allow that.

I take care of a local feral on top of her.

Perhaps one day I will get her a friend though.

Thank you Specter: )
 
of the true light said:
Satanic Path said:
Don't make of it an obsession and let nature work.
This may also be a confusion moment, or an enemy attempt.
We should not love animals for what they look like, as they're not humans and affection can really be given to any creature.
What matters is that she's not malformed, or sick, and neglected.
You should try to just begin taking her with you, give her food in your hands, and let her rest and sleep on the couch or the bed, they usually like to rest on pillows or at your feet: if you had a baby, the cat would want to sleep near him/her. It is a great way to build a bond, and then it becomes a daily routine because their warmth and presence is beyond special, and you'll start calling for her at every time.
(Of course you'll need to look at the hygiene, but if she's healthy, you won't have issues. Cats are very clean)
You should not refuse her when she seeks for a caress, or your attention, because she will feel that.

I also like details, or prefer black cats more than others, but this does not mean you only cuddle black cats. They are always cats. And I don't know you, but I bet you stopped in the streets to play with strays, which most of the times are sick and not at their best, everyone did, and you're not worse than anyone.

I treat her very well, she's spoiled irregardless of her looks.

Yes, I take care of a stray outside currently too.

I'm a cat lover big time.

What matters is that she's not malformed, or sick, and neglected.

So true.

So stop feeling bad and start really living life like every other human (possibly Satanist). You are Gentile, and these are just problems people have.
 
of the true light said:
Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.

i am curious now to see a picture. i bet she's an adorable little fluff ball.
 
Shadowcat said:
of the true light said:
Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.

i am curious now to see a picture. i bet she's an adorable little fluff ball.
Hi Shadowcat!

I would post a picture of her but I would not want her harmed by the enemy.

She's has a gorgeous calico coat with copper, black and white colors.

She has black on the upper part of her face with white on the bottom and a white L shape between her eyes.

It's an odd color formation but it doesn't bother me anymore because of some serious void meditations.

I'm up to almost 30 minutes a day now :cool:
 
Cats are soooooooo cute but kind of menacing when you pet it too much.
In any case, don't let the cat's color bother you.
There must be some features of the cat that warms you up too?
Follow your intuition instead.
 
of the true light said:
Shadowcat said:
of the true light said:
Some lady gave her to me as a kitten and I couldn't say no.

She just showed up at my house and was like here's a kitten for you!

It's not easy to say no to a kitten.

And I couldn't.

I wanted to find my own familiar but it didn't work out that way.

Because who can say no to a loud purring kitten?

Anyway,

I feel like an asshole saying this but the colors on her face bother me.

I know it's superficial but it's my job to love her and it makes it hard.

She not attractive in that area and it hurts me to even look at her sometimes.

Her coat is gorgeous it's just the way it played out on her face not so much.

I love her a lot but I have hangups from it and they battle in my mind.

A lot of friction.

Love and hate at the same time.

Thoughts telling me to get rid of her so I don't suffer.

But I'm attached.

Then I return to my room and see her and feel bad because other than that she's pretty awesome.

She's not as affectionate as my last cat and I crave that terribly.

But still I do love her and she listens so well.

She's freakin really smart and loyal too.

I don't know...but I needed to talk about this issue.

i am curious now to see a picture. i bet she's an adorable little fluff ball.
Hi Shadowcat!

I would post a picture of her but I would not want her harmed by the enemy.

She's has a gorgeous calico coat with copper, black and white colors.

She has black on the upper part of her face with white on the bottom and a white L shape between her eyes.

It's an odd color formation but it doesn't bother me anymore because of some serious void meditations.

I'm up to almost 30 minutes a day now :cool:

Sounds exactly like the markings of a cat i had that i was crazy about. she was always with me. the markings made her look like she had bangs that parted in the middle. my brother called her ugly! she was not :(. I'm still sad she is gone
 
Username said:
Cats are soooooooo cute but kind of menacing when you pet it too much.
In any case, don't let the cat's color bother you.
There must be some features of the cat that warms you up too?
Follow your intuition instead.
Actually, it's funny you mention that because she has a white shaped sowilo rune going down her back like a lightening bolt.

She's a Satanic kitty, lol.
 
of the true light said:
Username said:
Cats are soooooooo cute but kind of menacing when you pet it too much.
In any case, don't let the cat's color bother you.
There must be some features of the cat that warms you up too?
Follow your intuition instead.
Actually, it's funny you mention that because she has a white shaped sowilo rune going down her back like a lightening bolt.

She's a Satanic kitty, lol.
See, I told you that there must be some positive aspects of the cat.
 
Shadowcat said:
of the true light said:
Shadowcat said:
i am curious now to see a picture. i bet she's an adorable little fluff ball.
Hi Shadowcat!

I would post a picture of her but I would not want her harmed by the enemy.

She's has a gorgeous calico coat with copper, black and white colors.

She has black on the upper part of her face with white on the bottom and a white L shape between her eyes.

It's an odd color formation but it doesn't bother me anymore because of some serious void meditations.

I'm up to almost 30 minutes a day now :cool:

Sounds exactly like the markings of a cat i had that i was crazy about. she was always with me. the markings made her look like she had bangs that parted in the middle. my brother called her ugly! she was not :(. I'm still sad she is gone
Your beloved cat is probably still with you on the astral if she died unless she has re-incarnated. My previous cat died last year and she was everything to me. I know she's still there. But I'm alright with her moving on too if she has too. That's how much I love her.
 
of the true light said:
Shadowcat said:
of the true light said:
Hi Shadowcat!

I would post a picture of her but I would not want her harmed by the enemy.

She's has a gorgeous calico coat with copper, black and white colors.

She has black on the upper part of her face with white on the bottom and a white L shape between her eyes.

It's an odd color formation but it doesn't bother me anymore because of some serious void meditations.

I'm up to almost 30 minutes a day now :cool:

Sounds exactly like the markings of a cat i had that i was crazy about. she was always with me. the markings made her look like she had bangs that parted in the middle. my brother called her ugly! she was not :(. I'm still sad she is gone
Your beloved cat is probably still with you on the astral if she died unless she has re-incarnated. My previous cat died last year and she was everything to me. I know she's still there. But I'm alright with her moving on too if she has too. That's how much I love her.

I just dreamt of her yesterday. :(
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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