Life's GorgeousWith666 said:
Mornings when I feel tired after I wake up. And mornings I find it hard to actually meditate so I force myself to and actually getting 30mins to 40mins of meditation plus I smoke cigs so I'm wondering if cigs could cost me to feel tired like that in the morning. And old if I'm being attacked by greys but it seems like my thoughts are being repeated from a distance. Plus I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I don't think I need meds. One time I went off meds I felt fine, I could communicate and avoid hardship. So I'm wondering if there are any answers for these statements. And am I the only one here that feels like my thoughts are being repeated?
The subject of schizophrenia are waters I don't really enjoy treading because it's a very uncertain topic for me... but I've had many reasons to believe there's something to do with the 'dream' state of the brain with schizophrenia which in turn opens one to the astral or psychic aspects of sorts.
The repeating thoughts are likely your own thoughts out into the astral reverberating back to you because of the schizophrenia causing you to be open to astral audio and such. When I was practicing with psychic hearing I sometimes heard my own thoughts being said 'at' me and it is a very uncomfortable and weird feeling so I think I understand what you mean by repeating thoughts.
It's likely this is what's going on with you. You should try some grounding with the Earth element or with black energy, also practice with void meditation to silence, discipline and control your thoughts. As for the lack of energy you might be running on low vril, or general power in your soul. When doing workings or spending energy on meditations you must always, always,
always refuel yourself and keep your energies high with the foundation meditation. Until your chakras are open and strong you are not naturally drawing energy efficiently into yourself, so you need to do this manually with the foundation meditation.
Low spiritual energy means low physical energy.
