I want to be self-excluded from this forum, from this group, I simply don't want it anymore. I'm fed up. All I have to do is stop this once and for all. I've been struggling with these meditations for too long that bring me absolutely nothing. I don't want to be part of this community anymore.
too much
1 min to readthen let's not try anything anymore and stay in one place my whole life and lose all the good and bad experiences in this life, right?
You complain about being far away from home. You complain about having no money because you threw it away. And when I say you didn't have to do these things, you complain about me saying it as if these are good things and you are happy to do them. Well if that is what you want to do because you think these are fun experiences or something, then you have nothing to complain about. You're being a clown.
You complain about being far away from home. You complain about having no money because you threw it away. And when I say you didn't have to do these things, you complain about me saying it as if these are good things and you are happy to do them. Well if that is what you want to do because you think these are fun experiences or something, then you have nothing to complain about. You're being a clown.
Brother, I understand and I am disgusted that I behave like this, I can't even stand myself in such situations.
The only thing that saddens me is the loss in gambling and not the poverty.
But I see them as enemies and I have a devastating hatred for them.
The messages I received spiritually were: "Leave your enemies and work on your plans and your spiritual progress, I will take care of everything."
With this loss that I had, I also advanced spiritually.
I learned and accepted that Zeus had several names, such as "Mammon".
I learned that I need to work with Zeus, not with other gods.
And I don't know if this is concrete.
I learned the power of the runes, wrote them down and found out what each rune helps with.
but still I am not a god, maybe I can't even call myself a human
so I have to learn and lose and stop taking everything so seriously, these gambling games have destroyed me and I will not seek war with them anymore.
You complain about being far away from home. You complain about having no money because you threw it away. And when I say you didn't have to do these things, you complain about me saying it as if these are good things and you are happy to do them. Well if that is what you want to do because you think these are fun experiences or something, then you have nothing to complain about. You're being a clown.
thank you for being there and for answering, it was helpful, I'll get to work now, especially since I'm free for about 2 days
I've done absolutely everything, but no results. The best thing is to be excluded from this group because "I only know how to complain" and it's only my fault for what's happening to me" this makes me even more depressed
thanks for the help
What did you do and what sort of results did you expect? Provide some details to see if you did the right things or your expectations were realistic.
What did you do and what sort of results did you expect? Provide some details to see if you did the right things or your expectations were realistic.
Since I didn't succeed, it means I didn't stick to the schedule and didn't do what I did well.
Since I didn't succeed, it means I didn't stick to the schedule and didn't do what I did well.
It could be that you expected results which are not possible. I searched your posts and noticed you said that you did Rituals and meditations only because you thought Satan would give you money in exchange. I'm not sure what you are hoping to get out of these practices.
It could be that you expected results which are not possible. I searched your posts and noticed you said that you did Rituals and meditations only because you thought Satan would give you money in exchange. I'm not sure what you are hoping to get out of these practices.
That was before.
For almost two years I have been working on my luck and winnings from gambling, but it seems that it was not a good choice.
starting from yesterday my mind has changed I no longer feel the need to win and get my money back from gambling
That was before.
For almost two years I have been working on my luck and winnings from gambling, but it seems that it was not a good choice.
starting from yesterday my mind has changed I no longer feel the need to win and get my money back from gambling
I no longer feel the need for anything, neither money nor gain. I have to start accepting the situations I find myself in and live more humbly, to walk on this straight path, without deviations and without shortcuts that do not exist.
If I want money, I have to work for this money and create situations that will bring me money without great risks.
I have to accept that I am a nobody in the situation I am in and that I have to evolve both physically and spiritually.
I have to change and be someone else for the life I want.
This year, starting yesterday, I put an end to every addiction I had without the help of any specialist.
and I think this is the first step in the life I want
I no longer feel the need for anything, neither money nor gain. I have to start accepting the situations I find myself in and live more humbly, to walk on this straight path, without deviations and without shortcuts that do not exist.
If I want money, I have to work for this money and create situations that will bring me money without great risks.
I have to accept that I am a nobody in the situation I am in and that I have to evolve both physically and spiritually.
See? It's never too late :)
I've done absolutely everything, but no results. The best thing is to be excluded from this group because "I only know how to complain" and it's only my fault for what's happening to me" this makes me even more depressed
thanks for the help
Absolutely everything?
Okay, hear me out on this one.
Explain to us exactly what you did during this time, so we can see where you went wrong and analyze. Maybe you're right, and you did everything perfectly.
How much cleaning did you do? How long did you keep up a consistent AoP? How many/what workings did you do over the years? Did you do every God Ritual, and how many God Rituals have you done in total? How many meditations, what was your meditation program, etc.?
I'm sorry to be rude, but I'm a bit tired of people coming here after being inactive on the Forums and saying they "tried everything" to fix their many issues.
First of all, you didn't try actually being here, talking to people, checking in with others about advice, how your progress is going, getting to receive advice from Guardians or even Clergy because one is involved in the community. That's a big thing that you haven't "tried".
Second of all, what is "everything"?
Everything I've done in my practice so far has had results. Some less, some more, and I've certainly had ups and downs in life, but I've consistently grown with all I did.
And so I'm not just rude, here's my advice:
Clean daily with smaller practices, take Saturday for deeper cleaning (do Returning Curses 1 and 2 here, sincerely asking for Father Zeus to send a Daemon to help)
Search for @High Priestess Lydia 's AoP and include it twice a day.
I have no idea how your Chakras are, but you might benefit from doing the openings in the proper order for the proper amount of days.
Do a money working centered on fixing your situation:
Sunday, hour of the Sun
Raise SURYA x 25/50
Affirm:
"I am free of bad financial habits. I am able to build a secure financial foundation. Large sums of money are allowing me to permanently improve my life." x5/10
Repeat daily for 40 days.
Start doing the basic Hatha Yoga at the very least, if you aren't already.
Do the Grand Ritual of Zeus and empower yourself, it's going to be a journey.
I would also recommend doing the Ritual of Lord Amon Ra, and coming to Him directly with a commitment. After Ritual, state your situation financially, explain where you have gone wrong, make a promise and a commitment to make better decisions and to be determined to improve, and politely ask for help and guidance along this task.
Best of luck brother, there's always a way to improve.
Informative posts written:
- About the SaTaNaMa Meditation - Empowering Talismans and Whisper in Magick -
- Vijnana Bhairava Tantra -
- The Hebdomads of Pythagoras - About Yehuborim
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"That light, He said, am I, Nous, Thy God, who is before the hygra physis borne out of Darkness. The Logos, from Nous, is the Son of God."
- Θ Lord Thoth Θ
Absolutely everything?
Okay, hear me out on this one.
Explain to us exactly what you did during this time, so we can see where you went wrong and analyze. Maybe you're right, and you did everything perfectly.
I do ADP and cleanse my aura every day.
I've been doing this for three months.
I didn't do it every day before
I didn't have a concrete spiritual program. The longest spiritual program was 17 days, I just couldn't.
I was too tired and fell asleep during the meditations.
I'll try to explain in my own words what meditation I did
yoga plus affirmations.
The Kabbalistic Square of Jupiter
50 x Raum in the solar chakra plus affirmations.
once a day during Jupiter
I did some divine rituals
but I don't keep track of them anymore
lately I did
the divine ritual of Zeus
that's what I did in a few months
and I can't vibrate out loud I don't live alone in a house
probably the people around me if they heard they would think I've gone crazy so I vibrate in thought or whisper
I do ADP and cleanse my aura every day.
I've been doing this for three months.
I didn't do it every day beforeI didn't have a concrete spiritual program. The longest spiritual program was 17 days, I just couldn't.
I was too tired and fell asleep during the meditations.
In any case, thanks for the advice, I will try what you wrote above.
I currently have another rather major problem and I am trying to solve it.
I will try to be more active
and create a spiritual program for at least 40 days