Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Taking a break from meditations and the group
hailazazel1 min to read
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
If you want to take a break from the group it doesn't mean you have to stop meditating and researching in other ways.
If you stop completely it will be so much harder to get on track.
Don't give up. Take what time you need but at least do a meditation of some description every day. By the sounds of it you would benefit from the article by HP Vovim Baghie
And perhaps daily fortification of your aura.
Satan has never given up on those who seriously want to become something more.
Walking away is not the answer, and those filthy beings who contributing to your feeling this way will have got what they wanted if you do.
Hail Satan!
88!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
If you want to take a break from the group it doesn't mean you have to stop meditating and researching in other ways.
If you stop completely it will be so much harder to get on track.
Don't give up. Take what time you need but at least do a meditation of some description every day. By the sounds of it you would benefit from the article by HP Vovim Baghie
And perhaps daily fortification of your aura.
Satan has never given up on those who seriously want to become something more.
Walking away is not the answer, and those filthy beings who contributing to your feeling this way will have got what they wanted if you do.
Hail Satan!
88!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
I can give you some advice I've experience some problems I'm also new just 3 months old!! and at times I've experience some down times and struggles and mentally felt over loaded with all this information. I've had days where everything is working and I'm on top of the world and meditation comes with ease, and days when I felt bleak and mentally tired.I do believe they's are all test like everything in life nothing comes easy or without work brother.
What I did was the following I got up charged my chakra's cleaned them and protected myself,And I went out and had a 2 hour walk in the country side I just cleared my mind from all the stresses and thought's In my mind. I took in the views and smells and absorbed nature and then thanked father Satan for his blessings.
I also felt It's one step forward 3 steps back but I have to say I'm evolving and already making great progress don't give up your meditations what ever you do just try and relax and take a little pressure of takes walks and see family but keep you self protected and in a couple of days your feel fine trust me, I felt fine after my second day of walking a bird feather dropped in front of me a gift I believed from Satan.
You are apart of this family and family lean on each other brother!!
Father Satan Loves you and believes in you this dark period will pass.
I will send you love and positive energy today and for the next few days.
Shaun
HAIL SATAN!!
HAIL Baal Zebul!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
I can give you some advice I've experience some problems I'm also new just 3 months old!! and at times I've experience some down times and struggles and mentally felt over loaded with all this information. I've had days where everything is working and I'm on top of the world and meditation comes with ease, and days when I felt bleak and mentally tired.I do believe they's are all test like everything in life nothing comes easy or without work brother.
What I did was the following I got up charged my chakra's cleaned them and protected myself,And I went out and had a 2 hour walk in the country side I just cleared my mind from all the stresses and thought's In my mind. I took in the views and smells and absorbed nature and then thanked father Satan for his blessings.
I also felt It's one step forward 3 steps back but I have to say I'm evolving and already making great progress don't give up your meditations what ever you do just try and relax and take a little pressure of takes walks and see family but keep you self protected and in a couple of days your feel fine trust me, I felt fine after my second day of walking a bird feather dropped in front of me a gift I believed from Satan.
You are apart of this family and family lean on each other brother!!
Father Satan Loves you and believes in you this dark period will pass.
I will send you love and positive energy today and for the next few days.
Shaun
HAIL SATAN!!
HAIL Baal Zebul!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
I second radioz_ss on this.
On Sun, Mar 10, 2013 at 3:22 PM, Zevios Metathronos <[ email redacted ] wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
I second radioz_ss on this.
On Sun, Mar 10, 2013 at 3:22 PM, Zevios Metathronos <[ email redacted ] wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@...
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@... wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@... wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Well, maybe i was a little too harsh but my point still stands. You can't put your choice in front of everyone and expect that everyone will just accept it. Especially if choice if self-destructive to a degree, such as quitting meditation, which is bad for you.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Well, maybe i was a little too harsh but my point still stands. You can't put your choice in front of everyone and expect that everyone will just accept it. Especially if choice if self-destructive to a degree, such as quitting meditation, which is bad for you.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
If you can, and the consequences will be of little importance, if at all, reduce the time spent on partying.
As for the girl's mobile - why would you want to be in touch with a junkie? Personal experience - I was BLIND ON PURPOSE to the fact that a girl I met years ago was a junkie. After we were close to be come an item, she cheated on me. This was the final straw for me - a junkie and a whore. I could not ignore it any more. I haven't heard from her for ages, and I have cut all the ties.
Siguard Draconis.
Satanas Via, Vera et Vita est.
Ave Satanas! Rege Satanas!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
If you can, and the consequences will be of little importance, if at all, reduce the time spent on partying.
As for the girl's mobile - why would you want to be in touch with a junkie? Personal experience - I was BLIND ON PURPOSE to the fact that a girl I met years ago was a junkie. After we were close to be come an item, she cheated on me. This was the final straw for me - a junkie and a whore. I could not ignore it any more. I haven't heard from her for ages, and I have cut all the ties.
Siguard Draconis.
Satanas Via, Vera et Vita est.
Ave Satanas! Rege Satanas!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Being drama queen is not who i'm. I'm just going through hard times.
I had to vent. I'm sorry if it sounded like drama queen that's how I vent. I didn't even make a choice yet. I just wanted some motivational posts. But it doesn't seem to help me. Not this time it wont.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Well, maybe i was a little too harsh but my point still stands. You can't put your choice in front of everyone and expect that everyone will just accept it. Especially if choice if self-destructive to a degree, such as quitting meditation, which is bad for you.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Being drama queen is not who i'm. I'm just going through hard times.
I had to vent. I'm sorry if it sounded like drama queen that's how I vent. I didn't even make a choice yet. I just wanted some motivational posts. But it doesn't seem to help me. Not this time it wont.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Well, maybe i was a little too harsh but my point still stands. You can't put your choice in front of everyone and expect that everyone will just accept it. Especially if choice if self-destructive to a degree, such as quitting meditation, which is bad for you.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
What I'm looking for is some help. Some motivating posts to help me get up and stay strong. I thought this is what the groups for.
Well done on venting all your anger on me. Thanks
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Are you looking for some nod of approval or what? If you want to do it, then do it. Responsibility to the responsible.
Quit acting like some drama queen by posting your choices in front of everyone's faces and then telling no one has the right judge you, cuz guess what- if you do that then people WILL judge you one way or the other, even if they won't tell you that directly as to not to hurt your feelings. If you want to avoid being judged, then keep those things to yourself.
Oh and before anyone gets too uppity and upset about my straightforward words- no i'm not some angry infiltrator.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Because she's hot. Seriously no better reason. And I've turned out after that, she was a junkie.
--- In , "siguarddraconis" <siguarddraconis@... wrote:
If you can, and the consequences will be of little importance, if at all, reduce the time spent on partying.
As for the girl's mobile - why would you want to be in touch with a junkie? Personal experience - I was BLIND ON PURPOSE to the fact that a girl I met years ago was a junkie. After we were close to be come an item, she cheated on me. This was the final straw for me - a junkie and a whore. I could not ignore it any more. I haven't heard from her for ages, and I have cut all the ties.
Siguard Draconis.
Satanas Via, Vera et Vita est.
Ave Satanas! Rege Satanas!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Because she's hot. Seriously no better reason. And I've turned out after that, she was a junkie.
--- In , "siguarddraconis" <siguarddraconis@... wrote:
If you can, and the consequences will be of little importance, if at all, reduce the time spent on partying.
As for the girl's mobile - why would you want to be in touch with a junkie? Personal experience - I was BLIND ON PURPOSE to the fact that a girl I met years ago was a junkie. After we were close to be come an item, she cheated on me. This was the final straw for me - a junkie and a whore. I could not ignore it any more. I haven't heard from her for ages, and I have cut all the ties.
Siguard Draconis.
Satanas Via, Vera et Vita est.
Ave Satanas! Rege Satanas!
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@... wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
Element. What is the first one that comes to your mind? What element do you feel the strongest?
Yes there is a reason I am asking.
Hail Satan
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
0
Element. What is the first one that comes to your mind? What element do you feel the strongest?
Yes there is a reason I am asking.
Hail Satan
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
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Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
You might want to try some water invocation then. Restlessness and such are a sign of fire imbalance in your soul. You need to make it even with water meditation. See if it works.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back
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You might want to try some water invocation then. Restlessness and such are a sign of fire imbalance in your soul. You need to make it even with water meditation. See if it works.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@... wrote:
I'm normally very stressed person. The most little thing can drive me crazy. And I don't meditate much. I have serious ADD problem. I do my yoga routine and than 5 minutes breathing exercises, than 10 minutes void meditation. This is all I do really.
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
You may have too much energy. I don't know how much you are meditating normally, but i know from experience that if i will overdo it i get over-energized and such. Maybe do less meditation based on energy (breathing exercises, chakra breaths etc.) and do more void and trance meditation. This should calm you down. This may also be some sort of symptom of being attacked by the enemy.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
You're right on that one. I don't know what made me lose all that energies. It definitely started after the party but I don't know.. In a moment, everything is hard.
Basically what i'm doing now to get back on track? I have stress problems and everytime I just think about meditating I get stressed and anxious. I think I will put aside sport for awhile. One less thing to do maybe will make me less stressed?
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Everyone has social needs and that is natural. However make sure that seeing such ''friends'' doesn't come at a cost of hindering your spiritual development. These ''friends'' will be only there are long as things are cool and sound, thats it. Immortality on the other hand will serve you forever.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
If that's the case, I don't have even one friend. But i'm friendly person by nature, so seeing them is a must for me. From time to time
--- In , "radzio_ss" <truth.seeker1@ wrote:
Do what you think is right, but you should cut loose ties with people that have destructive influence on you. Such people are not your friends- just occasional pals that will leave you stranded once they get tired of you or something will start going wrong. Are they even ready to accept you as a Satanist? I doubt that. If someone is not willing to accept you for who you are, then such person is not your friend. Simple. Elevating yourself to the Godhood is more important then such leeches.
--- In , "hailazazel" <hailazazel@ wrote:
Dude is this some kind of test? It's like nature examines me to see if i'm strong. The girl i've met, turns out she's a junkie. All my friends have called me lately going out to drink. My work got so much hard I don't know wtf is going. It all started at the party. Why the hell I went to that party.
I want to continue meditating. I want to keep meditating I want to elevate my soul. How do I get on track? It seems impossible from here trust me. Should I just delete the number of the girl i've met? Just don't go out with my friends anymore? How do I get it all back. Oh my god I'm so fucked up. Will Satan give me a push on this?
--- In , "Zevios Metathronos" <Zevios Metathronos@ wrote:
In other words, its only a phase that you will transform if you keep going. Most of the time, when you're about to hit a checkpoint, things will really hit the fan like this. Don't stop.
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , Forums Contributor < wrote:
Quit the meddditations now and your life will get harder.
________________________________
From: hailazazel <hailazazel@
To:
Sent: Sunday, March 10, 2013 6:38:20 AM
Subject: Taking a break from meditations and the group
Â
Hey you guys. I wanted to say you're all awesome and I enjoy here very much but lately my life went really hard. My fucking depression won't leave me alone. My mind is wandering all the time on this girl i've met. Something good happens to me, my fucking mind can't stop daydreaming about it. I'm so fucked up with all these obsessive thoughts I can't take it anymore. Meditations get me into so much stress. If I don't read every comment on the group I don't feel well. I have to read it all. FUCK. I'm so angry so much time i'm trying to heal myself but it's too hard. I will not commit suicide. Never. But trust me when I say life is so hard right now. I have to take this break guys. I think even Satan looks at me and guides me to take this break. It sounds silly I know.
I wanted to say you're all awesome, and don't you judge me, you have no idea what I'm going through, what my damned fucking soul going through.
I will be back