Okay, maybe I am wrong here, and hopefully I am. I would like to note something I have observed here. From my personal experience, and skimming through messages in here, it appears to me allot of my brother/sisters had fucked up childhoods? I have read allot of child abuse in here, in form or another. I am wondering how accurate that is? I, myself had a profoundly fucked up childhood. My biological father was a pedophile, along with other things, like an alcoholic stepdad... I am sure not all of us had fucked up childhoods, but it appears to me like allot of us have. Am I wrong? Possibly the enemy does their best to harass from a young age through such means to try and hold us back? Appreciate feedback - HAIL SATAN, FUCK GOD
Something I noticed about my fellow Satanists and myself?
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"Yoyo" your story is similar to mine except my family are Agnostic/Atheist.
My story is complicated.
At primary my school I was being bought up to be Christian because the teachers told me that if I wasn't I'd burn in Hell etc. It was a public school but at the time I didn't know about my rights etc and I didn't know it was illegal and I desperately didn't wanna be Christian because God scared me and Jesus scared me and priests scared me and Churches scared me but noone listened to me on this, they just thought I was being an over reactive kind and when Is aid I was scared they just said "Shush! You are not!," and I was completely convinced at the time that what ever adults said was correct, even about how I WAS FEELING!!!!
So I spent 10 years in denial that I wanted to be Christian. My parents played along thinking I genuinely wanted to be Christian and if I said anything about how I didn't want to be, my Dad who (Agnostic) who encouraged open mindedness would tell me to consider that the Christians may well be correct. So basically no matter what way I turned I was being shunted back in to Christianities vice like grip.
When I turned 11 and started intermediated my mind had developed a bit more by then so I didn't simply accept everything I heared as fact. The intermediate teachers were interested in doing their job not making sure we were all Christian so that gave me time to think about my beliefs. I started leaning more towards Agnosticism. Ever since I learned about the idea of "God(s)" from my Christian years I knew there was a divine intervention in my life, I was soon to learn that these presences were Satan and his Demons but for 13 years I'd have never even considered them.
Late into year eight at intermediate I was getting picked on alot by and so I took up Karate. I learned about a thing called Chi and how to use it in minor ways. This was my first experience with bio electricity. I wasn't looking for a divine meaning to it, just how to deal with those arse holes who gave me shit at the time so I still didn't start making any connections to Gods and this new thing I had discovered called chi. I had alot of fun with it though.
I turned 13, year nine, still doing Martial arts still having fun with Chi but now I was also into anime which got my mind to create all sorts of fancy ideas and I was doing Tai Chi too so Chi control was excellent. With anime I became very creative and invented two characters who's names I had forgotten but this was what they were like:
-- One was very friendly and had alot of power and good in him. He was a protector. His elements were water and light.
-- One was evil and gracefully deadly. He was bent on the destruction of mankind. His elements were air and darkness.
Enki and Enlil anyone?
Soon I started to communicate to these beings. I started to think I had schizophrenia but realized they were just my sub conscious. I enjoyed the company of both. Even the evil one was friendly but stern.
They dissipated after a while but I could still feel divine presence in my life. Two years on I came across the "Joy of Satan" website expecting tall tales of crazy nut jobs who sacrifice kitten and things like that. All those things my bullying teachers had warned me about. I was completely wrong. It changed my view of everything. I started realizing the awesome power of "chi" and quickly realized just what that divine presence in my life was. Satan!
HAIL SATAN!!!
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"Yoyo" your story is similar to mine except my family are Agnostic/Atheist.
My story is complicated.
At primary my school I was being bought up to be Christian because the teachers told me that if I wasn't I'd burn in Hell etc. It was a public school but at the time I didn't know about my rights etc and I didn't know it was illegal and I desperately didn't wanna be Christian because God scared me and Jesus scared me and priests scared me and Churches scared me but noone listened to me on this, they just thought I was being an over reactive kind and when Is aid I was scared they just said "Shush! You are not!," and I was completely convinced at the time that what ever adults said was correct, even about how I WAS FEELING!!!!
So I spent 10 years in denial that I wanted to be Christian. My parents played along thinking I genuinely wanted to be Christian and if I said anything about how I didn't want to be, my Dad who (Agnostic) who encouraged open mindedness would tell me to consider that the Christians may well be correct. So basically no matter what way I turned I was being shunted back in to Christianities vice like grip.
When I turned 11 and started intermediated my mind had developed a bit more by then so I didn't simply accept everything I heared as fact. The intermediate teachers were interested in doing their job not making sure we were all Christian so that gave me time to think about my beliefs. I started leaning more towards Agnosticism. Ever since I learned about the idea of "God(s)" from my Christian years I knew there was a divine intervention in my life, I was soon to learn that these presences were Satan and his Demons but for 13 years I'd have never even considered them.
Late into year eight at intermediate I was getting picked on alot by and so I took up Karate. I learned about a thing called Chi and how to use it in minor ways. This was my first experience with bio electricity. I wasn't looking for a divine meaning to it, just how to deal with those arse holes who gave me shit at the time so I still didn't start making any connections to Gods and this new thing I had discovered called chi. I had alot of fun with it though.
I turned 13, year nine, still doing Martial arts still having fun with Chi but now I was also into anime which got my mind to create all sorts of fancy ideas and I was doing Tai Chi too so Chi control was excellent. With anime I became very creative and invented two characters who's names I had forgotten but this was what they were like:
-- One was very friendly and had alot of power and good in him. He was a protector. His elements were water and light.
-- One was evil and gracefully deadly. He was bent on the destruction of mankind. His elements were air and darkness.
Enki and Enlil anyone?
Soon I started to communicate to these beings. I started to think I had schizophrenia but realized they were just my sub conscious. I enjoyed the company of both. Even the evil one was friendly but stern.
They dissipated after a while but I could still feel divine presence in my life. Two years on I came across the "Joy of Satan" website expecting tall tales of crazy nut jobs who sacrifice kitten and things like that. All those things my bullying teachers had warned me about. I was completely wrong. It changed my view of everything. I started realizing the awesome power of "chi" and quickly realized just what that divine presence in my life was. Satan!
HAIL SATAN!!!
"Yoyo" your story is similar to mine except my family are Agnostic/Atheist.
My story is complicated.
At primary my school I was being bought up to be Christian because the teachers told me that if I wasn't I'd burn in Hell etc. It was a public school but at the time I didn't know about my rights etc and I didn't know it was illegal and I desperately didn't wanna be Christian because God scared me and Jesus scared me and priests scared me and Churches scared me but noone listened to me on this, they just thought I was being an over reactive kind and when Is aid I was scared they just said "Shush! You are not!," and I was completely convinced at the time that what ever adults said was correct, even about how I WAS FEELING!!!!
So I spent 10 years in denial that I wanted to be Christian. My parents played along thinking I genuinely wanted to be Christian and if I said anything about how I didn't want to be, my Dad who (Agnostic) who encouraged open mindedness would tell me to consider that the Christians may well be correct. So basically no matter what way I turned I was being shunted back in to Christianities vice like grip.
When I turned 11 and started intermediated my mind had developed a bit more by then so I didn't simply accept everything I heared as fact. The intermediate teachers were interested in doing their job not making sure we were all Christian so that gave me time to think about my beliefs. I started leaning more towards Agnosticism. Ever since I learned about the idea of "God(s)" from my Christian years I knew there was a divine intervention in my life, I was soon to learn that these presences were Satan and his Demons but for 13 years I'd have never even considered them.
Late into year eight at intermediate I was getting picked on alot by and so I took up Karate. I learned about a thing called Chi and how to use it in minor ways. This was my first experience with bio electricity. I wasn't looking for a divine meaning to it, just how to deal with those arse holes who gave me shit at the time so I still didn't start making any connections to Gods and this new thing I had discovered called chi. I had alot of fun with it though.
I turned 13, year nine, still doing Martial arts still having fun with Chi but now I was also into anime which got my mind to create all sorts of fancy ideas and I was doing Tai Chi too so Chi control was excellent. With anime I became very creative and invented two characters who's names I had forgotten but this was what they were like:
-- One was very friendly and had alot of power and good in him. He was a protector. His elements were water and light.
-- One was evil and gracefully deadly. He was bent on the destruction of mankind. His elements were air and darkness.
Enki and Enlil anyone?
Soon I started to communicate to these beings. I started to think I had schizophrenia but realized they were just my sub conscious. I enjoyed the company of both. Even the evil one was friendly but stern.
They dissipated after a while but I could still feel divine presence in my life. Two years on I came across the "Joy of Satan" website expecting tall tales of crazy nut jobs who sacrifice kitten and things like that. All those things my bullying teachers had warned me about. I was completely wrong. It changed my view of everything. I started realizing the awesome power of "chi" and quickly realized just what that divine presence in my life was. Satan!
HAIL SATAN!!!
0
"Yoyo" your story is similar to mine except my family are Agnostic/Atheist.
My story is complicated.
At primary my school I was being bought up to be Christian because the teachers told me that if I wasn't I'd burn in Hell etc. It was a public school but at the time I didn't know about my rights etc and I didn't know it was illegal and I desperately didn't wanna be Christian because God scared me and Jesus scared me and priests scared me and Churches scared me but noone listened to me on this, they just thought I was being an over reactive kind and when Is aid I was scared they just said "Shush! You are not!," and I was completely convinced at the time that what ever adults said was correct, even about how I WAS FEELING!!!!
So I spent 10 years in denial that I wanted to be Christian. My parents played along thinking I genuinely wanted to be Christian and if I said anything about how I didn't want to be, my Dad who (Agnostic) who encouraged open mindedness would tell me to consider that the Christians may well be correct. So basically no matter what way I turned I was being shunted back in to Christianities vice like grip.
When I turned 11 and started intermediated my mind had developed a bit more by then so I didn't simply accept everything I heared as fact. The intermediate teachers were interested in doing their job not making sure we were all Christian so that gave me time to think about my beliefs. I started leaning more towards Agnosticism. Ever since I learned about the idea of "God(s)" from my Christian years I knew there was a divine intervention in my life, I was soon to learn that these presences were Satan and his Demons but for 13 years I'd have never even considered them.
Late into year eight at intermediate I was getting picked on alot by and so I took up Karate. I learned about a thing called Chi and how to use it in minor ways. This was my first experience with bio electricity. I wasn't looking for a divine meaning to it, just how to deal with those arse holes who gave me shit at the time so I still didn't start making any connections to Gods and this new thing I had discovered called chi. I had alot of fun with it though.
I turned 13, year nine, still doing Martial arts still having fun with Chi but now I was also into anime which got my mind to create all sorts of fancy ideas and I was doing Tai Chi too so Chi control was excellent. With anime I became very creative and invented two characters who's names I had forgotten but this was what they were like:
-- One was very friendly and had alot of power and good in him. He was a protector. His elements were water and light.
-- One was evil and gracefully deadly. He was bent on the destruction of mankind. His elements were air and darkness.
Enki and Enlil anyone?
Soon I started to communicate to these beings. I started to think I had schizophrenia but realized they were just my sub conscious. I enjoyed the company of both. Even the evil one was friendly but stern.
They dissipated after a while but I could still feel divine presence in my life. Two years on I came across the "Joy of Satan" website expecting tall tales of crazy nut jobs who sacrifice kitten and things like that. All those things my bullying teachers had warned me about. I was completely wrong. It changed my view of everything. I started realizing the awesome power of "chi" and quickly realized just what that divine presence in my life was. Satan!
HAIL SATAN!!!