Some help would be aperceated.

[skippy15skip]

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[blackmoon0343]

You're not doing anything wrong. If you feel ready, do the dedication on the JoS website, then start opening your chakras and astral senses. If you'e still not sure about the dedication, try a couple of the beginners meditations on there (not the opening of the chakras and astral senses). Also, clean and protect your aura a couple times a day.

---In [email protected], <skippy15skip@... wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[light_algur]

http://see_the_truth.webs.com/

---In [email protected], <skippy15skip@... wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[shantikami]

I'm sure it would be hard to open up, after having been told to close your mind for so many years. Believe in yourself, even when it's hard. I second Blackmoon's advice.

---In [email protected], <bloodyblackrose343@... wrote:

You're not doing anything wrong. If you feel ready, do the dedication on the JoS website, then start opening your chakras and astral senses. If you'e still not sure about the dedication, try a couple of the beginners meditations on there (not the opening of the chakras and astral senses). Also, clean and protect your aura a couple times a day.

---In [email protected], <skippy15skip@... wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[bri_pro]

Unl[/IMG]</var>im.

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[light_algur]

Jesus is a stolen character. A distraction to enslave. Stolen from eastern spiritual concepts. 
http://see_the_truth.webs.com/Jesus_Christ.htm
http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... arene.html


 

---In [email protected], <bri_pro@... wrote:

Unl[/IMG]</var>im.

---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.

 

[equinonez19]

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---In [email protected], <[email protected] wrote:

I have been lost my whole life without beliefs. I have been forced to go to a church school through childhood and I was named the evil child because I always questioned what they were talking about and was paddled numerous times for just asking questions. I am 22 now and I came across this groups web site and I have grown interested but there is a problem. I have tried to open up and see. Not because I want to dabble but actually see for myself I want to believe I tried to let Satan In but I still can't see any of it I want to I really do but I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I have done things I shouldn't have but it's hard to know what I have to do. My heart is set on believing but I don't know what I am doing wrong I'm tired of not having anything to look to I found this site and it feels like I was drawn to each word I couldn't stop reading I want to see but my eyes are dark like I am blind if anyone has advice please help I really want to see this the right way.