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Question #4308: -Skepticism and Perfectionism-

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Hi everyone!!!

I am a perfectionist. I always criticize everything even if I can empathize. I am very materialistic and can't use my emotions. I am very emotionless even though my birth chart is water-dominated. I try to control everything, even people. That's why I've been dealing with manipulation since I was little and I can't trust anyone anymore, including you. I'm always suspicious of people who talk the talk, even if they are religious leaders. I doubt everything, even my Father Satan, whom I love so much and for whom I would do anything. This feeling is killing me inside. I'm afraid my head will explode from thinking about it. How can I let myself go with the flow and the gods?

My north node is in Pisces, what I need to learn in this life is spirituality. I have a mystic rectangle in my chart and my houses involving material matters are empty. 2,5,6,10,11. I have a lot of spiritual aspects in my natal chart but I don't want to use them. Something is blocking me.

What should I do to solve this problems...?

Thank you.
 
You have a blockage, possibly a spiritual/emotional injury in your karmic history. This is something that you will heal from with spiritual work and growth.

The gods' rituals can help you.

Www.josrituals.org
 
Hi everyone!!!

I am a perfectionist. I always criticize everything even if I can empathize. I am very materialistic and can't use my emotions. I am very emotionless even though my birth chart is water-dominated. I try to control everything, even people. That's why I've been dealing with manipulation since I was little and I can't trust anyone anymore, including you. I'm always suspicious of people who talk the talk, even if they are religious leaders. I doubt everything, even my Father Satan, whom I love so much and for whom I would do anything. This feeling is killing me inside. I'm afraid my head will explode from thinking about it. How can I let myself go with the flow and the gods?

My north node is in Pisces, what I need to learn in this life is spirituality. I have a mystic rectangle in my chart and my houses involving material matters are empty. 2,5,6,10,11. I have a lot of spiritual aspects in my natal chart but I don't want to use them. Something is blocking me.

What should I do to solve this problems...?

Thank you.
Water-dominated is not specific enough. As you cite controlling behavior and emotional blocking, this can point towards repressive behavior coming from Pluto, as one example. This can stem from past trauma which creates hypersensitivity and difficulty reforming emotional bonds. This is likely since you state a dual nature of some empathy and some lack of emotion, which to me just sounds like repression of one aspect, rather than a total lack of emotion itself.

Please first allow yourself mental space and understanding, as letting this ruin your mental state would not help anything. These situations can take time to heal and therefore taking a harsh mindset towards yourself is not realistic.

My recommendation would be to do a broad working, such as using Berkano or a Moon Square, and program this to improve your emotional health and expressions. An afflicted Mercury or Venus can also give problems with trust, like if you distrust acquaintances or partners.

Regarding criticism and suspicion, express this in positive ways like either testing things on your own, or asking people for more clarification. Spiritual ranking is not based on nothing and such authorities can handle your scrutiny. Furthermore, you can ask multiple people and try to gain a broader consensus, and so on.

Authority is based not just on skill or power, but also ethics, as this is necessary for building the trust that authorities can later draw upon when necessary. Here is where you can learn to relax some of your fears, by trusting the ethics of those around you, as well as holding them to that requirement.

Wunjo is a rune that pertains broadly to happiness and can therefore resolve many trust issues, including those outside just emotions. This can help with removing trust issues or other social obstacles that can hinder your growth.

With the Gods, use your controlling behaviors in a positive sense and draw their energy into your heart or other chakras, knowing this helps create and sustain a true connection between you and them.

There is probably more that can be said, but this should be enough. Hope this helps.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Satan

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