Whats up all, I am pretty new to this whole thing. I was raised hardcore catholic and taught that satan is 100% evil and the "father of lies". Forgive me for my terminology. I have read the initiation ritual and have been doing a lot of thinking and reading and I am interested in doing it. I do have a couple of questions though and forgive me if I sound stupid. During mediation does Satan and/or his demons actually appear to you and talk to you face to face or is it like Christianity where they are only with you in spirit. Second being new and having been raised catholic, I am kinda nervous about doing it because of all of the stories/propaganda that I have read about "former" satanist doing it and experiencing bad situations. Should I be nervous or what? Can someone mature and knowledgeable give me some information please, I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks for your time.