Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
My Last Ritual
Yoyo3 min to read
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
And they are getting busier and busier, almost by the day! This is actually a good thing, even though it means they don't communicate directly quite as much as before. It's been my experience, however, that when it's really necessary they are there. In the meantime, we keep on keeping on, so to speak, empowering ourselves.
It sounds to me like what you're going through right now may be (I hate to use this phrase but can think of no other at the moment) a "dark night of the soul." It is very, very unpleasant, to say the least, and can last from a few days to a few months, BUT it is not permanent unless you give up and allow it to be so. It's happened to practically everyone on occasion it seems, me included.
Go back to basics, almost as if you were brand new and set the rest on the back burner FOR NOW. Yes, you may feel you are only going through the motions, but that's because of your discouraged, depressed state, so just keep on.
You can't be a god in this lifetime? Since when? Unless you're about 95 -- where your health is gone & you might not have enough time left this time around -- it is doable. It's a long, difficult row to hoe, but rather than abandon it, why not just set it aside FOR THE TIME BEING, as I mentioned above. When one feels overwhelmed and completely alone is not always the time to take on something so weighty or momentous.
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
And they are getting busier and busier, almost by the day! This is actually a good thing, even though it means they don't communicate directly quite as much as before. It's been my experience, however, that when it's really necessary they are there. In the meantime, we keep on keeping on, so to speak, empowering ourselves.
It sounds to me like what you're going through right now may be (I hate to use this phrase but can think of no other at the moment) a "dark night of the soul." It is very, very unpleasant, to say the least, and can last from a few days to a few months, BUT it is not permanent unless you give up and allow it to be so. It's happened to practically everyone on occasion it seems, me included.
Go back to basics, almost as if you were brand new and set the rest on the back burner FOR NOW. Yes, you may feel you are only going through the motions, but that's because of your discouraged, depressed state, so just keep on.
You can't be a god in this lifetime? Since when? Unless you're about 95 -- where your health is gone & you might not have enough time left this time around -- it is doable. It's a long, difficult row to hoe, but rather than abandon it, why not just set it aside FOR THE TIME BEING, as I mentioned above. When one feels overwhelmed and completely alone is not always the time to take on something so weighty or momentous.
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Maybe some greys are fucking with you? I've gotten randomly depressed/scared before and was sure it was the enemy, so I cleaned my aura and worked on my aura of protection until I felt better. Also I did that thing where I snapped the tube things that the enemy puts there to control you, from High Priest Vovim Baghie website.
Also do you really think things will get better if you just give up? Satan's time to rule earth again is almost here and you want to give up?
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
Maybe some greys are fucking with you? I've gotten randomly depressed/scared before and was sure it was the enemy, so I cleaned my aura and worked on my aura of protection until I felt better. Also I did that thing where I snapped the tube things that the enemy puts there to control you, from High Priest Vovim Baghie website.
Also do you really think things will get better if you just give up? Satan's time to rule earth again is almost here and you want to give up?
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
You need to get yourself together brother.
Sometimes we trip and fall , but you must ALWAYS stand up again.
Rising up to the challenge much stronger then before.
I know that lately our bastard enemies are being pesky more then ever.
Don't let them get to you we are Warriors Of Hell and we are relentless and merciless.
Theres no room for self-loathing or whining.
I suggest you do the "Severing the link" meditation that HP VoVim has constructed.
HAIL THE GODS OF DUAT !!!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
You need to get yourself together brother.
Sometimes we trip and fall , but you must ALWAYS stand up again.
Rising up to the challenge much stronger then before.
I know that lately our bastard enemies are being pesky more then ever.
Don't let them get to you we are Warriors Of Hell and we are relentless and merciless.
Theres no room for self-loathing or whining.
I suggest you do the "Severing the link" meditation that HP VoVim has constructed.
HAIL THE GODS OF DUAT !!!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
--- In , "Spencer" <redfishbloofish@... wrote:
Maybe some greys are fucking with you? I've gotten randomly depressed/scared before and was sure it was the enemy, so I cleaned my aura and worked on my aura of protection until I felt better. Also I did that thing where I snapped the tube things that the enemy puts there to control you, from High Priest Vovim Baghie website.
Also do you really think things will get better if you just give up? Satan's time to rule earth again is almost here and you want to give up?
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
I won't give up.I won't do the favor to the enemy.I won't listen to their lies.I won't.
I am a Child of Satan and i will be for the whole eternity.
I cut my tube as guides us in his site.I experianced extreme relief,and seems like it was that.
I feel energized and confident.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
--- In , "Spencer" <redfishbloofish@... wrote:
Maybe some greys are fucking with you? I've gotten randomly depressed/scared before and was sure it was the enemy, so I cleaned my aura and worked on my aura of protection until I felt better. Also I did that thing where I snapped the tube things that the enemy puts there to control you, from High Priest Vovim Baghie website.
Also do you really think things will get better if you just give up? Satan's time to rule earth again is almost here and you want to give up?
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
I won't give up.I won't do the favor to the enemy.I won't listen to their lies.I won't.
I am a Child of Satan and i will be for the whole eternity.
I cut my tube as guides us in his site.I experianced extreme relief,and seems like it was that.
I feel energized and confident.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Stay strong!!
dont give up now , u re not alone =) Father Satan loves u
do some hatha yoga and kundalini and dnt stop it helps
Pray talk w/ Father everything will be fine soon ! patience!
Hail Satan!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@ wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
0
Stay strong!!
dont give up now , u re not alone =) Father Satan loves u
do some hatha yoga and kundalini and dnt stop it helps
Pray talk w/ Father everything will be fine soon ! patience!
Hail Satan!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@ wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
You can depend on Satan for things that are outside your control...but nine times out of ten there is something you personally can do to make it better for yourself. Daitsun88 is right- this is a religion for honoring Satan and his demons, to be sure, but its also a religiin which teaches self development, to the highest levels your 'self' can reach. Could it be that Father is holding back and simply trying to teach you something...?Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerryFrom: "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... Date: Wed, 02 Jun 2010 14:28:00 -0000To: Subject: Re: My Last Ritual
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
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You can depend on Satan for things that are outside your control...but nine times out of ten there is something you personally can do to make it better for yourself. Daitsun88 is right- this is a religion for honoring Satan and his demons, to be sure, but its also a religiin which teaches self development, to the highest levels your 'self' can reach. Could it be that Father is holding back and simply trying to teach you something...?Sent from my Verizon Wireless BlackBerryFrom: "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... Date: Wed, 02 Jun 2010 14:28:00 -0000To: Subject: Re: My Last Ritual
--- In , "daitsun88" <daitsun88@... wrote:
You realize that Satan and the Gods are VERY busy now right?Instead of typing a whiny message and damning yourself by not becoming a God in this life, take the life in your hands. We as Satanists don't depend on Satan for anything nor is Satanism based solely on Satan, it is about developing your soul and INDEPENDANCE. If you keep whining and saying "i'm bad i can't do anything" then your life is gonna get worse.
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@ wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Fuck it...I found the reason on
It was all about a tube.Its now snapped.I can't believe the extreme relief and power i got just from snapping it.
They angels were messing with me.I am going to get my revenge this night.
I was somewhat possesed by their fucking thoughts.Fucking bitches you will rot.FUCKING aNGELS.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Praise Father for being alive and free. Stop focusing on the negative things, stop focussing on anything but what's in front of you, it's hard when you don't know yourself and you want to think about it...don't, just focus and this will come with time.
IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE SOMETHING SATAN WILL BE THERE FOR YOU, IF YOU CAN HANDLE SOMETHING, THAT MEANS SATAN KNOWS YOU CAN HANDLE THIS.
IF SATAN BELIEVES IN YOU, YOU CAN BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!!!!
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
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Praise Father for being alive and free. Stop focusing on the negative things, stop focussing on anything but what's in front of you, it's hard when you don't know yourself and you want to think about it...don't, just focus and this will come with time.
IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE SOMETHING SATAN WILL BE THERE FOR YOU, IF YOU CAN HANDLE SOMETHING, THAT MEANS SATAN KNOWS YOU CAN HANDLE THIS.
IF SATAN BELIEVES IN YOU, YOU CAN BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!!!!!!
HAIL SATAN!!!!!!
--- In , "Yoyo" <kung_fukistas@... wrote:
Soon,ill be doing my last ritual.I am really pushed back in the fucking wall.I have gone through harder times,but this time i feel i am losing power.
Satan maybe has left me.I feel alone and abadonned.
No one has ever understood
what i stand for,and what i have to say.
I am leaving.Leaving the world.
I have lost anything.My talents,my self,my guide.
I am alone.
Not anyone can help me.
I still believe.I still have hope,but for how long?
Fuck these liars,christians,muslims,judaists.They ruined my life.
Where is my self?The confident me.The unfearful me?
Where are you Father?I need your help.
Brothers and Sisters?Where are you.
Where are my powers?
I got nothing to do in life.I haven't laughed for a long time.
My parents are not there.They cannot understand.I can't even understand myself.
I think Satan has left me.I
no longer feel him.
I loved him and still do.
I don't know why...Maybe i was weak.
Maybe because i haven't done a ritual for 1 month.
Maybe because i had angelic attacks all the time.
I have no longer his guidance.I only Hear voices of Angels.They are fucking my mind up.They always tell me "Satan Leave me" and such.I think thats the reason he left.They are always trying me to say that...But i don't know
My confidence is broke Father.I got not the money i used to have.
I see no future.I only see things getting worse.
I wrote that,to show you my love.But i feel so desperate that i search for love through the net.I feel sorry for myself.I feel sorry that i had not a girlfriend.
I am sorry.Thats all i can be.
I am sorry Father Satan.I am sorry.I give you my love.All i can do is leave.
I am bad at school,bad at anything i do.
I have no future.I have no hope,I have no one to rely on.
I have no target in my life.I am lost.
Suddenly,one morning,my powers were halfed.
I got to admit that i was lazy.and i did not meditate strogly.But i always did something.I did a full chakra meditation,every day.
I don't know if this message will be approved.I am pushed to where i can barely handle.But my hope is not dead.But i am lost.I don't feel the same way i used to feel Father in my life,in my being.I fell his energy more weak on me.
My power has been halfed.I know not the reason.I becoming weaker.My aura is not as it used to be.And all this...Happened in just 3 days...
I am really thinking of commiting suicide.But i don't know...Its a sign of disbelief.But why believe,when i am feeling lost and disoriented...But,at the other hand,Father Has done many things for me.But now,he doesn't do anything for me.
I know he exists,and that he is going to help me.
My self is doubled.I have a low self and an extremely high one.
But the high one seems to be losing power.Thats what i wanna know...
I really want your opinions.I will wait sometime before i do the final Step.
HAIL SATAN!
HAIL AZAZEL!
HAIL PAIMON!
Father abandons none of his children, this you must hold tight in your mind when those enemy fuck's try to tell you otherwise. by finding Father you are showing you are strong, the enemy tells you otherwise as it is them who are truly weak.
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Father abandons none of his children, this you must hold tight in your mind when those enemy fuck's try to tell you otherwise. by finding Father you are showing you are strong, the enemy tells you otherwise as it is them who are truly weak.