Is it me that changed or something else

[darkmonkey666]

I have to go to comment on that I was doing meditation to remember past lives. This lifetime till about 2 month into this year has been mostly miserable to me and I have not really had many friends. Unlike the most recent past life before this where I had friends and enjoyed it had things to do. Don't remember all of this but I have to wonder. The life before that too seems like things were much easier to me. Now obviously I am obsessive about this and talk about and long for the past cause I am a cancer moon person. However why was it so much harder in this life. My partner too who was with me in the same past life she remembers a lot of the same stuff I do and we often talk about it longing to get the same connection and find friends like what we had. She doesn't have many friends either and didn't. We hate modern society and long to return to a happier time. I talk about this a lot and think about it.

Only recently have I begun to be more optimistic and happy and actually enjoy life. I have been using all of these retrograde planets for healing workings. I am beginning to love myself and be happier and more confident. I did a lot of work on that not to mention some stuff showed up that helped me and her with that. We work on things together.

But it begs to question what is it I longed for that we don't have today I know there is something missing. What Changed that made this less fun and happy than last time. I mean from what I remember its not much like what happened this life although most basic themes continued. I mean why did we fit in back then and enjoy it but not now.

This doesn't even begin to talk about the Ancient times as we call them now. Rome Egypt etc I seem to remember both. Even damn dark ages Europe seemed to be eaiser for me than this life was so far as fitting in at least I had friends and community and we secretly practiced pagan beliefs in the woods while pretending to be xtian. It was more easy only cause of the community and all that.

When will the world get better.