In search of guidance.

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Greetings, I am a young man, and I have a lot of questions for whomever may answer. I have known of this "joyofsatan" website for a couple of years now, and at first glance I thought: "this is unfiltered information", and now, I've stumbled upon this group. I never had any belief in a higher power that was worrh holding on to, this has been fruatrating me ever since I asked myself " why does God allow this?", and thus my never-ending loop of uncertainty and insanity began, and as I went deeper down the rabbit hole, I have reached rock bottom. I will not go into detail about my personal life, I will just say I had a very disturbing childhood, you may say. I was but a lump of clay, so I searched yet again in hope of finding guidance, but surely you jest, christianity is vile, judaism even more so, the Quoran, is the portrait of absurdity.
Regardless, I commited "taboo", slowly but surely I managed to save some money and buy myself a copy of The Satanic Bible, and Anton left me with even more questions.

The frustration, anguish, and anger has led the child that I was to "sell his soul" to Satan. I drew a pentagram on parchment and proceeded. I did not ask for wealth, power or revenge, I mearly wanted answers, so I asked for "illumination". The following years have taught me more than I had bargined for.
Concluding my post, I need a mentor.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Satan and your Guardian Demon (of whom will choose you when you dedicate your soul to Satan) will be your teachers, guides and mentors. There are no mediators in Satanism. You go directly to Satan, yourself.
Here is the dedication ritual:
How to Dedicate You Soul to Satan
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(From the Joy of Satan website)
There are no human mentors or mediators in Satanism. 
Please continue reading and studying thoroughly http://www.joyofsatan.org and we also have a forum, which gets activity everyday:
http://www.ancient-forums.com

Feel free to post more questions here in these groups or on the forums. 

On Friday, August 30, 2019, 11:43:38 p.m. EDT, isinned@... [JoyofSatan666] <[email protected] wrote:

  Greetings, I am a young man, and I have a lot of questions for whomever may answer. I have known of this "joyofsatan" website for a couple of years now, and at first glance I thought: "this is unfiltered information", and now, I've stumbled upon this group. I never had any belief in a higher power that was worrh holding on to, this has been fruatrating me ever since I asked myself " why does God allow this?", and thus my never-ending loop of uncertainty and insanity began, and as I went deeper down the rabbit hole, I have reached rock bottom. I will not go into detail about my personal life, I will just say I had a very disturbing childhood, you may say. I was but a lump of clay, so I searched yet again in hope of finding guidance, but surely you jest, christianity is vile, judaism even more so, the Quoran, is the portrait of absurdity.
Regardless, I commited "taboo", slowly but surely I managed to save some money and buy myself a copy of The Satanic Bible, and Anton left me with even more questions.

The frustration, anguish, and anger has led the child that I was to "sell his soul" to Satan. I drew a pentagram on parchment and proceeded. I did not ask for wealth, power or revenge, I mearly wanted answers, so I asked for "illumination". The following years have taught me more than I had bargined for.
Concluding my post, I need a mentor.