I am starting to open chakras are try to. Lately I’ve come to the realization I really hate myself for choices I made and being no where near where I want to be in life. I’m talking hate it want to bash my face in hate it. I still take suboxone I still take Zoloft. I’m not making much progress spiritually and personally I work 6 days a week at a job that doesn’t pay much and overworks you…. My girlfriend that I love is obese I’m not attracted to her but love her. I don’t have any friends anymore. I try to meditate daily but always struggle too. And deep down I feel I deserve sooo much more. Not trying to be vain or selfish but I know I’m sexy by society standards I know I should be happier I just know it. Sorry to vent on the grand scale of things it’s nothing at all a spec in the atmosphere but it effects me alot. Any advice why am I so full of hate and resentment????
I’m not sure what to do?????
Budtron19801 min to read
I am starting to open chakras are try to. Lately I’ve come to the realization I really hate myself for choices I made and being no where near where I want to be in life. I’m talking hate it want to bash my face in hate it. I still take suboxone I still take Zoloft. I’m not making much progress spiritually and personally I work 6 days a week at a job that doesn’t pay much and overworks you…. My girlfriend that I love is obese I’m not attracted to her but love her. I don’t have any friends anymore. I try to meditate daily but always struggle too. And deep down I feel I deserve sooo much more. Not trying to be vain or selfish but I know I’m sexy by society standards I know I should be happier I just know it. Sorry to vent on the grand scale of things it’s nothing at all a spec in the atmosphere but it effects me alot. Any advice why am I so full of hate and resentment????
I think it's normal to feel that way upon the realization that you could have been on top of the world but you chose to play video games instead or something. The question is, what do you do with these feelings now? Do you destroy yourself? Do you channel your hatred to improve out of your situation?
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I am starting to open chakras are try to. Lately I’ve come to the realization I really hate myself for choices I made and being no where near where I want to be in life. I’m talking hate it want to bash my face in hate it. I still take suboxone I still take Zoloft. I’m not making much progress spiritually and personally I work 6 days a week at a job that doesn’t pay much and overworks you…. My girlfriend that I love is obese I’m not attracted to her but love her. I don’t have any friends anymore. I try to meditate daily but always struggle too. And deep down I feel I deserve sooo much more. Not trying to be vain or selfish but I know I’m sexy by society standards I know I should be happier I just know it. Sorry to vent on the grand scale of things it’s nothing at all a spec in the atmosphere but it effects me alot. Any advice why am I so full of hate and resentment????
I think it's normal to feel that way upon the realization that you could have been on top of the world but you chose to play video games instead or something. The question is, what do you do with these feelings now? Do you destroy yourself? Do you channel your hatred to improve out of your situation?
Feel angry all you want, but know that hitting yourself or something like that won't change your life, questioning yourself won't change your life.
Spiritual advancement is like that, don't get your hopes up with 1 or 5 years of Satanism, things are built up little by little.
Advancement can be saved and it takes time, but not your wealth. Focus on solving your material life and then meditate a lot.
First by gaining free time or doing something else that is your priority now.
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... εἰ δὲ νοεῖς, ἔστιν, ὦ βασιλεῦ, ϰαὶ σωμάτων ἀσώματα. — Ποῖα; ἔφη ὁ βασιλεύς. — Τὰ ἐν τοῖς ἐσόπτροις φαινόμενα σώματα οὐ δοϰεῖ σοι ἀσώματα εἶναι; — Οὕτως ἔχει, ὦ Τάτ· ϑείως νοεῖς, ὁ βασιλεὺς εἶπεν. — Ἔστι δὲ ϰαὶ ἀσώματα ἄλλα, οἷον αἱ ἰδέαι οὐ δοϰοῦσιν εἶναί σοι, ἀσώματοι οὖσαι, ἐν σώματι φαινόμεναι, οὐ μόνον τῶν ἐμψύχων ἀλλὰ ϰαὶ τῶν ἀψύχων; — Εὖ λέγεις, ὦ Τάτ. — Οὕτως ἀνταναϰλάσεις εἰσὶ τῶν ἀσωμάτων πρὸς τὰ σώματα, ϰαὶ τῶν σωμάτων πρὸς τὰ ἀσώματα, τουτέστι τοῦ αἰσϑητοῦ πρὸς τὸν νοητὸν ϰόσμον ϰαὶ τοῦ νοητοῦ πρὸς τὸν αἰσϑητόν· διὸ προσϰύνει τὰ ἀγάλματα, ὦ βασιλεῦ, ὡς ϰαὶ αὐτὰ ἰδέας ἔχοντα ἀπὸ τοῦ νοητοῦ ϰόσμου. ὁ οὖν βασιλεὺς ἐξαναστὰς ἔφη, Ὥρα ἐστίν, ὦ προφήτα, περὶ τὴν τῶν ξένων ἐπιμέλειαν γενέσϑαι· τῇ δὲ ἐπιούσῃ περὶ τῶν ἑξης ϑεολογήσομεν.
Feel angry all you want, but know that hitting yourself or something like that won't change your life, questioning yourself won't change your life.
Spiritual advancement is like that, don't get your hopes up with 1 or 5 years of Satanism, things are built up little by little.
Advancement can be saved and it takes time, but not your wealth. Focus on solving your material life and then meditate a lot.
First by gaining free time or doing something else that is your priority now.
You probably can't help but feel that way. It's painful but things won't change just because you cry about it. The only thing for you to do is to continue trying to advance. Since you're suffering, I would recommend focusing more on cleaning and reprogramming yourself for more positivity like in the freeing the soul working.
Just know that the negativity will likely persist, but the only way is to keep fighting and cleaning your soul. There really isn't any fast way out of it. It's an unfortunately slow and deliberate process, but hopefully with time, you will be able to change your life for the better.
Self hatred will also make you weaker so learn to deal with this. The negative energy from self hatred is like cursing oneself and makes the self weaker when it gets out of hand. Try to forgive yourself but also maintain a balance of self discipline so you make progress.
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You probably can't help but feel that way. It's painful but things won't change just because you cry about it. The only thing for you to do is to continue trying to advance. Since you're suffering, I would recommend focusing more on cleaning and reprogramming yourself for more positivity like in the freeing the soul working.
Just know that the negativity will likely persist, but the only way is to keep fighting and cleaning your soul. There really isn't any fast way out of it. It's an unfortunately slow and deliberate process, but hopefully with time, you will be able to change your life for the better.
Self hatred will also make you weaker so learn to deal with this. The negative energy from self hatred is like cursing oneself and makes the self weaker when it gets out of hand. Try to forgive yourself but also maintain a balance of self discipline so you make progress.
I'd like to address the part about your girlfriend. You said you love her but her
obesity is an issue, so why not eat better yourself and involve her in healthy activities, inspire her to lose weight!
If you want your life to get better you have to open the doorways of positive changes within yourself then gradually everything around you will start to follow.
Part of this path is being open up to reflect within yourself as you get closer to the Gods and their ways. And as your life spiritually changes for the better you realize the physical must change.
Your partner should be on the same page as you, or open to being. If they don't want to change their lives in positive ways you may need to find someone who will or you won't be able to connect to them or find happiness in your life with them.
But, that doesn't mean give up or leave her yet! If you love her don't give up on her. Tell her that you both need to get healthier, take her out hiking and walking with you, maybe to the gym, or yoga, etc. Just involve them in healthy practices that you're doing as well then see where it goes and if she follows through with you good!!
You have a lot of physical work to do with yourself along with the spiritual. For a balanced and healthy life both the physical and spiritual need to be equally matched at a positive level in your life.
You can't focus on one and ignore the other. That's how humanity has reached this low level to start with. This is why when you get closer to the Gods and open your soul up to them you start realizing things within your life that you were previously blind to.
You've awakened to what must change, what needs your attention in your life now and you must be willing to make these changes to go forward.
That's the next step and you're not going to get there saying oh poor pitiful me, but by saying this old me has to go to make way for the new me.
Good luck, just don't get stuck hating your life, instead focus all of that energy on changing your life and growing, moving forward.
Hail Satan!!
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Hail Father Zeus!
Hail Lord Apollo! Hail Lady Astarte!
Hail Mother Hera!
Hail to all the Gods and
Goddesses of Elysium!
The virtue of justice consists in moderation, as regulated by wisdom. — Aristotle.
I'd like to address the part about your girlfriend. You said you love her but her
obesity is an issue, so why not eat better yourself and involve her in healthy activities, inspire her to lose weight!
If you want your life to get better you have to open the doorways of positive changes within yourself then gradually everything around you will start to follow.
Part of this path is being open up to reflect within yourself as you get closer to the Gods and their ways. And as your life spiritually changes for the better you realize the physical must change.
Your partner should be on the same page as you, or open to being. If they don't want to change their lives in positive ways you may need to find someone who will or you won't be able to connect to them or find happiness in your life with them.
But, that doesn't mean give up or leave her yet! If you love her don't give up on her. Tell her that you both need to get healthier, take her out hiking and walking with you, maybe to the gym, or yoga, etc. Just involve them in healthy practices that you're doing as well then see where it goes and if she follows through with you good!!
You have a lot of physical work to do with yourself along with the spiritual. For a balanced and healthy life both the physical and spiritual need to be equally matched at a positive level in your life.
You can't focus on one and ignore the other. That's how humanity has reached this low level to start with. This is why when you get closer to the Gods and open your soul up to them you start realizing things within your life that you were previously blind to.
You've awakened to what must change, what needs your attention in your life now and you must be willing to make these changes to go forward.
That's the next step and you're not going to get there saying oh poor pitiful me, but by saying this old me has to go to make way for the new me.
Good luck, just don't get stuck hating your life, instead focus all of that energy on changing your life and growing, moving forward.
Hail Satan!!
Gostaria de abordar a parte sobre sua namorada. Você disse que a ama, mas ela
a obesidade é um problema, então por que não comer melhor e envolvê-la em atividades saudáveis, inspirando-a a perder peso!Se você quer que sua vida melhore, você tem que abrir as portas das mudanças positivas dentro de você, e gradualmente tudo ao seu redor começará a acompanhar.
Parte desse caminho é estar aberto para refletir dentro de si mesmo conforme você se aproxima dos Deuses e seus caminhos. E conforme sua vida espiritualmente muda para melhor, você percebe que o físico precisa mudar.
Sabias palavras, achei extremamente digna e correta a forma como abordou o assunto!
faço de suas palavras como as minhas!
Eu sou dedicado a quase 7 anos, antes disso passei por transtornos piscicológicos, traumas, abusos emocionais, violências físicas e emocionais, com meus genitores familiares e depois com meu suposto companheiro misógeno e narcisista. Dei um basta, e nos últimos 7 anos, vim me reconstruindo equilibrando meus sentimentos, parei de fumar, e eu era muito obesa, cheguei a pesar 170 quilos, descontava tudo na comida porque o açúcar no sangue é droga, com muito custo, estou me libertando do massacre piscicológico, Lúcifer e meu DG sempre comigo, muitos ensinamentos. Consegui esse ano me libertar desse casamento e ser livre como Lúcifer falou pra mim uma vez (voê é livre agora) 1a 3 anos atras em um ritual. Custa pra gente se libertar, esse ano fiz novamente munka, as coisas mudaram mais e mais, e sei que nada foi fora, foi dentro, foi em mim, foi de esforço, de estudo, de querer ser melhor, hoje busco escolher meus alimentos com sabedoria, já perdi muitos quilos, ainda tenho consequências de escolhas pessimas no passado, tanto físicas quanto emocionais. Estudo bastante, leio muito, Lúcifer nunca me desamparou, sempre me direcionando. quando melhoro e avanço entendo o quanto estive doente e ainda o quanto preciso me curar, longa jornada.
Dito isso, talvez a causa da obesidade da moça citada no poste precisa ser investigado, talvez ela precisa de ajuda, precise de liberação da alma, de bons conselhos e de Satanás Lúcifer.
paz a todos!
Salve Meu Senhor Lúcifer
Salve Senhor Azazel
Salve meu DG
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Gostaria de abordar a parte sobre sua namorada. Você disse que a ama, mas ela
a obesidade é um problema, então por que não comer melhor e envolvê-la em atividades saudáveis, inspirando-a a perder peso!Se você quer que sua vida melhore, você tem que abrir as portas das mudanças positivas dentro de você, e gradualmente tudo ao seu redor começará a acompanhar.
Parte desse caminho é estar aberto para refletir dentro de si mesmo conforme você se aproxima dos Deuses e seus caminhos. E conforme sua vida espiritualmente muda para melhor, você percebe que o físico precisa mudar.
Sabias palavras, achei extremamente digna e correta a forma como abordou o assunto!
faço de suas palavras como as minhas!
Eu sou dedicado a quase 7 anos, antes disso passei por transtornos piscicológicos, traumas, abusos emocionais, violências físicas e emocionais, com meus genitores familiares e depois com meu suposto companheiro misógeno e narcisista. Dei um basta, e nos últimos 7 anos, vim me reconstruindo equilibrando meus sentimentos, parei de fumar, e eu era muito obesa, cheguei a pesar 170 quilos, descontava tudo na comida porque o açúcar no sangue é droga, com muito custo, estou me libertando do massacre piscicológico, Lúcifer e meu DG sempre comigo, muitos ensinamentos. Consegui esse ano me libertar desse casamento e ser livre como Lúcifer falou pra mim uma vez (voê é livre agora) 1a 3 anos atras em um ritual. Custa pra gente se libertar, esse ano fiz novamente munka, as coisas mudaram mais e mais, e sei que nada foi fora, foi dentro, foi em mim, foi de esforço, de estudo, de querer ser melhor, hoje busco escolher meus alimentos com sabedoria, já perdi muitos quilos, ainda tenho consequências de escolhas pessimas no passado, tanto físicas quanto emocionais. Estudo bastante, leio muito, Lúcifer nunca me desamparou, sempre me direcionando. quando melhoro e avanço entendo o quanto estive doente e ainda o quanto preciso me curar, longa jornada.
Dito isso, talvez a causa da obesidade da moça citada no poste precisa ser investigado, talvez ela precisa de ajuda, precise de liberação da alma, de bons conselhos e de Satanás Lúcifer.
paz a todos!
Salve Meu Senhor Lúcifer
Salve Senhor Azazel
Salve meu DG