HP Pythia I would greatly appreciate your advice as my life IS being attacked (very heavily), I do not know how much longer I can hold out. Okay so some of you know I am being heavily attacked and I have been doing my power meditations and the enemy attacks me through out the entire time and all the time after that. I did a ritual to Father Satan to bless my area and and asked him to send Orobas and haures to bless to protect my area. Now during the time of doing the ritual someone put there hand on my shoulder and so I thought it may be Father Satan or one of the Gods of Elysium, but then I got the numbing and burning aceking feeling all over my head so then I thought it might be the enemy. They are now really attacking me (they are trying to kill me.... they are attacking my body and when I try to focus on my throat chakra I hear a womans voice say "your all going to die"). I was wandering if it is possible to be permanently banned from Hell or the group? Also, I was thinking cause I have not really fought much for Father (I have been dedicated to Father Satan for almost two years and have barely done anything for him or myself (I know I messed up but I am only twenty now and I am still going to start to and continue to fight for Father no matter what.... I am not going to run back to xianity as I have too much experience to know its a hoax), only recently I was forced to act as I was then being heavily attacked) that maybe that is why they never blessed the area (the more I try and fight this on my own....the more I see I am just slowing it down and thats it). I do LOVE Father Satan and you and the Gods of Elysium and all of my brothers and sisters. I look at Father Satan's image alot now and I do love him. I think Father loves me too but I am not sure (this may be a long post HP Pythia but pls read me and my family really need your advice.... pls don't look at this as being disrespectful and I am not asking you to be a moderator.... just what you think may be going on and some advice.... pls respond). After the ritual things got really intense as they really started attacking me (feeling heat all over the top of my head. I can not even poop anymore (when I was really trying to do my power meditations I was able to poop but blood came out too.... I have a preasure on the side of my head and my left side of my face was going numb and now its more then half.... my sister was coughing blood for abit. A couple of days after the ritual I thought that "hey maybe if I try to do alot for Father maybe he will help me and accept me as you said the more you do for Father the more he does for you (I do not want Father to hate me as I DO love him). So I decided to go to the library to print off some flyers to post around places and when I walked out of the house I saw two crows that began to really follow me around and it was very unique in the way they did it all the way to the library and I had to go back home to send the flyers to my email as it did not work and all the way back and then back home they were almost always together and really let me know (could this be the enemy or are they of Father). Before I did my ritual I ran out looking for ritual tools and offerings (pastery and wine) and I saw signs every where like "WIN WIN WIN" and "EVERYDAY" and when I went to the library to print out Orobas's and Haures's sigils I owed 28 dollars at the library and I would have never been able to print there sigils if they did not end up waving it and I did not even ask the girl to do it she just said she would. Birds were also following me at this time but the trip to the library after the ritual was far more IN UNISON. I took to of the tracks an posted them out side on a poll as a start to fighting the enemy (I have posted things on forums a bit too) and then tried to get to sleep but they were poking me sitting on me and grabbing at me and everytime I would somewhat fall asleep they would try to smother me (used to that already and it is very annoying though). I told Father Satan, Orobas, and Haures that I would do alot for Father posting flyers everywhere and that I would go to a kingdom hall and ask for many bibles as i know they are free and I would burn 7 for Father Satan, seven for any of the Gods of Elysium that I may have disrespected (hopefuly not) and one each for Haures and Orobas (though I told them if I could get them more each then I would, and I also said that I would hand draw each of there sigils on poster paper once I get back the job I quite that I asked Father Satan to get for me and I told him when I was 19 or 18 that if I quite the job he could leave me forever (I really really hope he has not.... I don't think he has.... I feel like a brat child that lost his dad in the mall and is trying to find him.... and when he does he finally learns a lesson). As I was typing this.... a message from someone (a robot) popped up on the screen saying "don't promise it.. DO IT!!" so I believe they are telling me to do this (what do you think?). I think they are enemy nephelims attacking me as I see red nephelim eyes in the dark and could they just be giving me faulse hope? I had a demoness lover though she would pull on my heart chakra so I think that she may be an enemy (hoping so) she would get turned on when I would talk dirty to her (lol.... but not in a laughing mood) and I think I took it to far possibly dishonoring her and that is when the preasure in the head started and I saw a demoness siluet in the dark making out with some other guy which really bothered me. I hope she is the enemy and not a Demoness from Hell as that would really really suck as I have tried to apologize many times and it only seems to get worse when I do.... but it also got worse when I began to post the flyer (www.https://templeofzeus.org/LiturgicalTerms.php) on the poll outside my house so I think that maybe they are the enemy and were never of Father. I know that I must stay strong in Satanism and I know that this has REALLY woke me up and WHEN I get through this I hope to get the chance to get to know Father and The Gods of Elysium better like all of my brothers and sisters. I hope you read this HP Pythia or HP V. and I thank you very much for your time if you choose to respond. I am not trying to come off weak.... I am just pushed in to a corner at the moment.
P.S. I apologize for the lack of paragraphs.
HAIL FATHER SATAN AND THE GODS OF OLD!!!!
HAIL HAURES!!!!
HAIL OROBAS!!!!
VICTORY TO ALL OF FATHER!!!!
