Help!!!

I have a question anyone who is willing to listen. I dedicated myself a few months ago 2 father and I was going strong in my meditation for a while and I was generally happy. I was working out on a regular basis, loosing wieght and getting stronger. My overall quality of life improved, even though I was still jobless, I was happy. Then for some reason that I dont remember, I stopped believing and tried to believe once again in god. I didn't reject satan but I stopped my meditation and prayer. I then stopped my workout and gained weight and wasn't really that motivated. So essentially, i was having a good life when I was with father but not so much when I TRIED(emphasis on that word) to believe in "god". My question is, what is going on at the moment, am I having withdrawals or is god trying to pull me back in or what? I have felt like I'm being watched over by someone protecting me but I dont know, I'm really confused and in need of help.