Hello, new here and a testimony

[lucifers_new_aeon]

Greetings everyone, my name is Heath, I recently joined this group. I have heard about it before though, a lot of negativity from what I heard.

First let me introduce myself, I am Heath, a female to male transsexual/transgendered person (transsexual is someone who is biologically born with an opposite sex brain and other internal bodily parts) in my case I have a male brain, male body frame and carry more muscle mass than the average "woman" is suppose to carry, and since because I was suppose to be born a male, not getting to produce testosterone is conflicting what is within my body, and believe me it is not easy to deal with and will be going in for medical procedure and hopefully testosterone treatment soon, but I was denied TWICE, I was really pissed off about it, and it doesnt surprise me, both doctors had all christian shit up on their walls! I live in a very conservative area, now that I know this. When I was younger about 5 or 6 years I knew I was different I Knew i was suppose to be a boy or something but I didnt know anything, as I got older, I had conflict between what I was suppose to be? While in my teen years I was in a Christian school, at age 15, I got fed up with Christianity, and decided to find other alternative paths. So for a while I explored Wicca, Kabalah (the hebrew kind) ,etc. So when i was 18 years old I  found joy of Satan (I am 31 years old now), I joined it, it was ok for the first 6 months, but then again, when I had my own thoughts, and shared it with memebers, I got injustice done to me and relentlessly attacked! 

...one of my biggest problems because of the fact I am transsexual also effects me mentally too. It SUCKS. At that time confused, fearful and lost. I had followed what the clergy had said in the past as if they were dictators or were actual spokesman for Satan (they sure as hell acted like it! ) as I grown older, and through all my life's experiences I am starting to understand now what mental state i am at.schizophrenia! (yes I was I was diagnosed with it) Basically this type of mental illness has subcategories, one of them is disorganized thoughts, meaning, I can't stay "focused" and i jump from here to there, and a scattered brain. That is why I went on so many exploration on different "paths" and what this does is makes me suspectible to be manipulated by others, like if I was interested in Wicca right now, it would be suspectible because the fact is it is nothing more than Christianized witchcraft, I even heard "I worship the same Creator as you" I heard say from a Wiccan to a Christian. Ever since I am aware of this problem, I actually been a little more "focused" when I catch myself doing that. Also the problem with this, it leaves me open to variety of influences and I can be taken advantaged of, and I was! 

Likewise to writing papers, I do not doubt I am excellent at writing, and poetry, (my bad, some people have reacted to it because they thought I was saying it was solid truth, i think people react to it because they thought I was promoting a certain religion or creed the "I am right and you are wrong" attitude). I rarely write anymore, I am realizing now why people react. So if I do write,  its much different than it use to be. Anyway... Due to my state of mental problem, that explains why I kept going back and forth to different types of Satanism due to the feeling of being an outcast or rejection from Satan. Since I am going to therapy and other things, I  am done with being indecisive and being unfocused!

To be honest, before I was going to approach Satan in ritual directly, I was terrified due to all the experiences and recent psychic attacks I suffered. 


  Now I know, I was never rejected. I am extremely grateful, I did do a ritual to Him, the ritual was basically a paper where I said I promise to bring all my past experiences to future knowledge for others before I do a final commitment to Satan, I want to take it slow just like any relationship that is developed until one decides to make a commitment to each other you know what I mean? That is how I am approaching Satan/Lucifer.  When I did do this ritual, what is funny is, I noticed little changes in my everyday life, i feel like I am being put into line and guided to where I need to go, for one that is at least getting some help. And getting myself together. 

So that is my short story/testimony from Satan

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Don't stop writing if it makes you happy and gives you pleasure. Keep at it, perfect your art!Those weak people that read your writing had their feathers ruffled. Too bad for them.Life can sometimes have critics and stinky opinions and assholes, just develop a harder skin and carry on evolving, creating, destroying.
Hail Satan!

On Saturday, June 7, 2014 12:48:43 PM, "lucifers_new_aeon@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Greetings everyone, my name is Heath, I recently joined this group. I have heard about it before though, a lot of negativity from what I heard.

First let me introduce myself, I am Heath, a female to male transsexual/transgendered person (transsexual is someone who is biologically born with an opposite sex brain and other internal bodily parts) in my case I have a male brain, male body frame and carry more muscle mass than the average "woman" is suppose to carry, and since because I was suppose to be born a male, not getting to produce testosterone is conflicting what is within my body, and believe me it is not easy to deal with and will be going in for medical procedure and hopefully testosterone treatment soon, but I was denied TWICE, I was really pissed off about it, and it doesnt surprise me, both doctors had all christian shit up on their walls! I live in a very conservative area, now that I know this. When I was younger about 5 or 6 years I knew I was different I Knew i was suppose to be a boy or something but I didnt know anything, as I got older, I had conflict between what I was suppose to be? While in my teen years I was in a Christian school, at age 15, I got fed up with Christianity, and decided to find other alternative paths. So for a while I explored Wicca, Kabalah (the hebrew kind) ,etc. So when i was 18 years old I  found joy of Satan (I am 31 years old now), I joined it, it was ok for the first 6 months, but then again, when I had my own thoughts, and shared it with memebers, I got injustice done to me and relentlessly attacked! 

...one of my biggest problems because of the fact I am transsexual also effects me mentally too. It SUCKS. At that time confused, fearful and lost. I had followed what the clergy had said in the past as if they were dictators or were actual spokesman for Satan (they sure as hell acted like it! ) as I grown older, and through all my life's experiences I am starting to understand now what mental state i am at.schizophrenia! (yes I was I was diagnosed with it) Basically this type of mental illness has subcategories, one of them is disorganized thoughts, meaning, I can't stay "focused" and i jump from here to there, and a scattered brain. That is why I went on so many exploration on different "paths" and what this does is makes me suspectible to be manipulated by others, like if I was interested in Wicca right now, it would be suspectible because the fact is it is nothing more than Christianized witchcraft, I even heard "I worship the same Creator as you" I heard say from a Wiccan to a Christian. Ever since I am aware of this problem, I actually been a little more "focused" when I catch myself doing that. Also the problem with this, it leaves me open to variety of influences and I can be taken advantaged of, and I was! 

Likewise to writing papers, I do not doubt I am excellent at writing, and poetry, (my bad, some people have reacted to it because they thought I was saying it was solid truth, i think people react to it because they thought I was promoting a certain religion or creed the "I am right and you are wrong" attitude). I rarely write anymore, I am realizing now why people react. So if I do write,  its much different than it use to be. Anyway... Due to my state of mental problem, that explains why I kept going back and forth to different types of Satanism due to the feeling of being an outcast or rejection from Satan. Since I am going to therapy and other things, I  am done with being indecisive and being unfocused!

To be honest, before I was going to approach Satan in ritual directly, I was terrified due to all the experiences and recent psychic attacks I suffered. 


  Now I know, I was never rejected. I am extremely grateful, I did do a ritual to Him, the ritual was basically a paper where I said I promise to bring all my past experiences to future knowledge for others before I do a final commitment to Satan, I want to take it slow just like any relationship that is developed until one decides to make a commitment to each other you know what I mean? That is how I am approaching Satan/Lucifer.  When I did do this ritual, what is funny is, I noticed little changes in my everyday life, i feel like I am being put into line and guided to where I need to go, for one that is at least getting some help. And getting myself together. 

So that is my short story/testimony from Satan

 

[Sandra Waldron]

It is amazing to me how things seem to start to fall into place once one dedicates to Father Satan.
Good for you. Glad things are looking up for you now.
Hail Father Satan!
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On Sat, 6/7/14, lucifers_new_aeon@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Hello, new here and a testimony

To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Saturday, June 7, 2014, 9:48 AM


 









Greetings everyone, my name is Heath,
I recently joined this group. I have heard about it before
though, a lot of negativity from what I heard.

First let me introduce myself,
I am Heath, a female to male transsexual/transgendered
person (transsexual is someone who is biologically born with
an opposite sex brain and other internal bodily parts) in my
case I have a male brain, male body frame and carry more
muscle mass than the average "woman" is suppose to
carry, and since because I was suppose to be born a male,
not getting to produce testosterone is conflicting what is
within my body, and believe me it is not easy to deal with
and will be going in for medical procedure and hopefully
testosterone treatment soon, but I was denied TWICE, I was
really pissed off about it, and it doesnt surprise me, both
doctors had all christian shit up on their walls! I live in
a very conservative area, now that I know this. When I was
younger about 5 or 6 years I knew I was different I Knew i
was suppose to be a boy or something but I didnt know
anything, as I got older, I had conflict between what I was
suppose to be? While in my teen years I was in a Christian
school, at age 15, I got fed up with Christianity, and
decided to find other alternative paths. So for a while I
explored Wicca, Kabalah (the hebrew kind) ,etc. So when i
was 18 years old I  found joy of Satan (I am 31 years old
now), I joined it, it was ok for the first 6 months, but
then again, when I had my own thoughts, and shared it with
memebers, I got injustice done to me and relentlessly

attacked! 

...one of my
biggest problems because of the fact I am transsexual also
effects me mentally too. It SUCKS. At that time confused,
fearful and lost. I had followed what the clergy had said in
the past as if they were dictators or were actual spokesman
for Satan (they sure as hell acted like it! ) as I grown
older, and through all my life's experiences I am
starting to understand now what mental state i am
at.schizophrenia! (yes I was I was diagnosed with it)
Basically this type of mental illness has subcategories, one
of them is disorganized thoughts, meaning, I can't stay
"focused" and i jump from here to there, and a
scattered brain. That is why I went on so many exploration
on different "paths" and what this does is makes
me suspectible to be manipulated by others, like if I was
interested in Wicca right now, it would be suspectible
because the fact is it is nothing more than Christianized
witchcraft, I even heard "I worship the same Creator as
you" I heard say from a Wiccan to a Christian. Ever
since I am aware of this problem, I actually been a little
more "focused" when I catch myself doing that.
Also the problem with this, it leaves me open to variety of
influences and I can be taken advantaged of, and I was! 

Likewise to writing papers, I
do not doubt I am excellent at writing, and poetry, (my bad,
some people have reacted to it because they thought I was
saying it was solid truth, i think people react to it
because they thought I was promoting a certain religion or
creed the "I am right and you are wrong"
attitude). I rarely write anymore, I am realizing now why
people react. So if I do write,  its much different than it
use to be. Anyway... Due to my state of mental problem, that
explains why I kept going back and forth to different types
of Satanism due to the feeling of being an outcast or
rejection from Satan. Since I am going to therapy and other
things, I  am done with being indecisive and being
unfocused!

To be honest,
before I was going to approach Satan in ritual directly, I
was terrified due to all the experiences and recent psychic
attacks I suffered. 


  Now I know, I was never rejected. I am
extremely grateful, I did do a ritual to Him, the ritual was
basically a paper where I said I promise to bring all my
past experiences to future knowledge for others before I do
a final commitment to Satan, I want to take it slow just
like any relationship that is developed until one decides to
make a commitment to each other you know what I mean? That
is how I am approaching Satan/Lucifer.  When I did do this
ritual, what is funny is, I noticed little changes in my
everyday life, i feel like I am being put into line and
guided to where I need to go, for one that is at least
getting some help. And getting myself together. 

So that is my short
story/testimony from Satan















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[Heath Perkins]

Those damned xians! That is IT! I think it is time to really start putting in some work for Father Satan. Today, my christian mother called , bitching and taking things out on me, and I realize this is spiritual abuse! I felt immediately energetically lowered and stress levels are high (Just because her alcoholic christian mother died by drinking alcohol for all her life, she feels sorry for). And then later on, I  go in the office of my apartments (more christians), there was already a gossip spread about me being transgendered and I didnt say anything to anyone about it, there is only one gay guy that I know but I highly doubt he would tell other people! FUCK!  I use to be the person who kept my mouth shut.. but now i am fighting back on this.  So now I understand the issue of the problem is the fact since Christians, Jews and muslims are trying to take over the world. Looking at this from a spiritual perspective makes me realize a WHOLE lot more about spiritual abused being spread! And makes them suspectible to manipulation. I think Father Satan. But now I understand what the enemy is trying to do, people like myself, are basically wanting to use ANYTHING against me. 

I'll say, every day, I am starting to see Father Satan/Lucifer MORE active in my life just by showing me these things and the fact is, there is so much more at stake here.  I actually for once, feel like I am protected and Father Satan has been communicating with me through other means because I am not psychically opened all the way yet to be able to communicate with him. IT is amazing how so little a situation can actually be shown who is at your side if you know what I mean. And it is no joke, he definitely has been putting me in line, wanting to establish trust and a relationship which I am grateful for that. So now that I know what is really happening. Instead of seeing it as negatively , I see it as proof that Satan is feared by the enemy, I see it as something that shows the TRUTH. And it seems to only piss off the enemy more. 
(note, that my sacral and root chakra, are responsible for security and survival and relationships, indulgence like in myself and things like that, in fact the root chakra espeally, i think the enemy tries to attack these to feed and abused parts because it is these two chakras that are very important and now I am starting to understand why they are most targeted now, so yes.... so all I am saying is I am perceptive on the strategy of what the enemy is using against me, and I am glad I am seeing it.)