good pagan/magic books- first post intro

[Derek Sears]

are there any good pagan/magic books like on amazon or somewhere anybody know? Im looking to research into old pagan religions. not the wiccan books though, ive heard from jos to stay away from wiccan.. Ive been reading a few books on lucid dreaming, i think u guys do that?.. well havent acheived a lucid state yet, also practicing on OBEs. Im moving next month so ill be free to meditate and practice other things related.
My parents are catholics and im counting down the days i have to go to church lol

although now i dont fully agree with jos and its beleifs but i have much respect. I dont like any jew/christian/muslim religion. My favorite big religion is hindu or buddhism but i only take some info out of them, i like old religions more, like pagan, ive also read on shamanism, idk if you guys agree with that, like any old religion, i just see bits of truth in each one havent found the right one yet....

thanks

i also studied masons/illuminati but heard that its not the same from long ago..