Better contact with succubus?

[exarkuun1991]

I get it, most things along this path take time to bear fruit. But, I've not been spending much time with my succubus. She is a great conversationalist, but, I don't necessarily get anything out of it. I meam to say, I can talk to another human, several at once, as equally as I can to her.

As for any kind of astral sex, I try. I'm trying to keep an open mind to the sensation, yet it doesn't seem to improve. Maybe this belongs in the adult section? Not sure. What should I do, keep trying? I'm not sure.

Also, she has been trying to calm me down about some of my...desires. Some desires of mine, I feel, make me kind of a monster. They're not pleasant. But, my succubus has been trying to help me with them, astrally. Is that..alright? These are just things I will not do physically. Nope.

Yes, silly question. Might not even go through. That'd be fine. I just need help. I'm not good at this stuff. I am not sure what I'm even rambling about, other than I am feeling like, some parts of me that might be "natural", or not. Vice versa, what I think is wrong, might just be buried, corrupted.

 

[exarkuun1991]

I think I'm going to do a Munka, as it was recommended to me before.
As for why I should do it, even on the astral, she's convinced me it's distracting me. My energy doesn't lessen; in fact, it kinda increases afterwards :/ but I just feel bad about it. It's just how I was raised..
I can only hope this Munka working does help; I hate change. I just do. I have no reason to love removing a part of myself, it just feels wrong. Then again, that's part of my misconceptions..we're not going to be of one mindset when we're "perfect"..we'll still be individuals, with our own personalities..but it feels like every time I change, I'm closer to one brainless mindset on life..I can only hope I begin to hate that more than change...

 

[exarkuun1991]

Alright then. I will be taking part in the group ritual that starts..today. sunday, after 1pm, I will begin the Munka. Right now, moon is in the, "don't bother, your plan won't last" phase. Sunday after 1, Cancer, meaning it will stick. And will be waxing, new to full..in fact it is perfect

I still don't have access to making a rosary. No excuses. But I will work towards one..safe to do the Munka without it? It does say use it..

 

[solarsonia666]

This might sound like a dumb question, but if you mostly did the MUNKA working at one point but didn't finish it for some odd reason, would that backlash and make you worse or would it just make you better?

 

[Light Yagami]

Responding to both questions (to both different people xD):1. It is safe to do the Munka meditation without the rosary... but how in the world will you count 108 repetitions? A rosary is really useful for so many repetitions. You could just buy simple marbles you know, they don't have to be anything fancy.
2. No, the Munka meditation would not "backlast" but.. it will most likely not have any effects at all? If you do not complete at least the 40 days... It's like doing a magickal square but stopping midway. However, the first time I had done the Munka meditation, around the 25th day and for the rest, I was feeling really... down. Really down. I was feeling horrible, I just wanted to crawl into a cave and stay there for the rest of my life. This is because of my past lives' karma etc, all the bad experiences etc, they sort of came to the surface, you know? And I REALLY did want to stop the meditation but I didn't. I stood strong until the end. The Munka meditation is really not for beginners.

Στις 8:49 μ.μ. Σάββατο, 6 Δεκεμβρίου 2014, ο/η "solarsonia666@... [JoyofSatan666]" έγραψε:


  This might sound like a dumb question, but if you mostly did the MUNKA working at one point but didn't finish it for some odd reason, would that backlash and make you worse or would it just make you better?