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Karen1 min to read

I've been doing a lot more meditation than I usually do lately, and trying different types of meditations instead of just trancework. Since I've been doing this, I've been way more horny than usual. My feelings on sex have always been kind of contradictory (I've always understood it as being a natural thing, but I was sexually abused for four years so I'm kind of scared of it) and I've never had much of a sex drive until the past few weeks. Would this be at all related to doing more meditations?

#1

Yes, it could be.

I'd recommend the book: "How to raise your self-esteem" by Nathaniel Branden.

I'm not sure if this will happen with you, but it has for me(I was sexually abused as a child). As my Kundalini got more active(it may have just been the higher bio-electricity levels) it attempted to clear out any psychological hang-ups I had about sex. This was an intense process, and I might still have more things to clear. I wanted to tell your that so that it's not as hard for you.

If you need someone to talk to, you can talk to me if you want, I'm not a professional psychologist though.




Jonathon Billing

--- In , "Karen" <bloody_morrigan@... wrote:

I've been doing a lot more meditation than I usually do lately, and trying different types of meditations instead of just trancework. Since I've been doing this, I've been way more horny than usual. My feelings on sex have always been kind of contradictory (I've always understood it as being a natural thing, but I was sexually abused for four years so I'm kind of scared of it) and I've never had much of a sex drive until the past few weeks. Would this be at all related to doing more meditations?

#3

Probably. My libido goes up when I am meditating. Since i have meditating consistently, my libido has sky-rocketed. I'd also like to recommend a book: Victim No More: Your Guide to Overcome Revictimization - Jean Carlton. I can relate to you about the sexual abuse. My biological father was a pedophile, my mother got me away from him eventually but the damage was done... I can't consciously remember that time of my life. Though, there is infant amnesia, so that contributes to me not remembering the events. I also know that the mind can put up barriers for highly traumatic things. I pretty much had a fucked up childhood in several areas. I'm a young adult who is confident, out going and free. I've had allot to work through, but I have done so with flying colors. I'm open sexually. I subconsciously feel a bit negative towards negative at sex at times, but it's nothing that holds me back. I'm over all comfortable with my sexuality.

Since you are a Satanist, I am sure you know that you do have to release yourself sexually; even just by masturbation. Some things I did to explore my sexuality and feel more open about it was cybering. Before I had intercourse in my teens, I used to "cyber" with net friends. At first I used to just to type out erotic messages back and forth between another person via instant messenger. Later I got a webcam, so my cyber escapades involved masturbating infront of a webcam. Those are some different things you can consider to help yourself feel more comfortable around sex.

Like Mista Billing, I'm not a professional shrink either, but you can talk to me if you want to. I've had allot of people open up to me, you literally talk to me about anything. I'm on instant messenger allot, you can add me at ilms871 or email me if you want.

Good luck Sister with your journey, HAIL SATAN, FUCK GOD

--- In , "Karen" <bloody_morrigan@... wrote:

I've been doing a lot more meditation than I usually do lately, and trying different types of meditations instead of just trancework. Since I've been doing this, I've been way more horny than usual. My feelings on sex have always been kind of contradictory (I've always understood it as being a natural thing, but I was sexually abused for four years so I'm kind of scared of it) and I've never had much of a sex drive until the past few weeks. Would this be at all related to doing more meditations?

#4

I believe it is raising in Kundalini energy, I think Kundalini in nature is VERY sexual.... It is normal to have arousal and sex drive... As for your abuse, I am very sorry to hear that. If possible, try to be able to face the past and slowly move on, but be careful. Try to find some shy man/girl and teach him/her romance and such, if you are not married already. Love is a beautiful feeling, and having sex with someone you trust and are comfortable with is also very important... Safety first, trust second, emotions third and physical satisfaction fourth... :)

Respect.


--- In , "Karen" <bloody_morrigan@... wrote:

I've been doing a lot more meditation than I usually do lately, and trying different types of meditations instead of just trancework. Since I've been doing this, I've been way more horny than usual. My feelings on sex have always been kind of contradictory (I've always understood it as being a natural thing, but I was sexually abused for four years so I'm kind of scared of it) and I've never had much of a sex drive until the past few weeks. Would this be at all related to doing more meditations?