I'm feel your dismay. I too was a long time member of the Christian death cult. The day I approached Lucifer,  I immediately felt the difference. I always felt a void whenever I went into a Cristian church service even though we would practice ritualistic cannibalism symbolized in the...

If I may...speaking personally. I trust  in Lucifer in the same way that I trust that the sky isn't falling. Or that the sun will continue to rise every morning. Ask and you shall receive. Regardless who wrote it first, truth is truth. Your creator wants to enlighten you just as a potter wants...