For me I either write a poem or do a thanks giving ritual for them, or try and honour them in some way.

I myself would love to see more satanic music and jewelry, the only decent jewelery I have seen are either gemstones or jewelery from anime cos play, which aren't blasphemous and don't have enemy symbols. We really do need more out there, not to mention half the satanist online shops have items...

Enki doesn't hide info from his people, he only reveals it to us when we are ready to handle it and when he thinks we are ready. Just like what is on jos now it's enough to get us all going from beginners to advanced and they update the info just as they go and as he tells them to.

It could be or it could be a demoness who is trying to contact you for some reason? What did she look like if you can remember? If you can remember you could always look up the demonesses in the demon section to see if any match. Hail Satan

My suggestion is if you want a lover then to ask for an open relationship, but that would mean she could have other partners as well. You can choose to love her or not but that would be insulting to her. And yes it is possible to lvoe something you can't see I have a demoness lover I can't see...

Yes there are meditations, go to the jos site and do the meditations for opening the clairivoyance and Clauridiance meditations, thats for opening up your astral sight and hearing which will help you greatly. Also I would do the opening the hand chakras meditation that will help your astral...