Time for one long ass post now... Sure ill just smile and fake happy and everything is better now. Maybe when I was 19. I Dedicated to Satan and started off on a path 13 years ago. All I have done is make shitty situations and be lied too and manipulated by every friend ive ever known. Aldrick, once...

Wunjo is good to heal such a trauma. Sun energies can banish depression very well, try Sowilo or Surya at least when you are feeling really down. Moon energies will repair your emotions if you feel like something is not okay with them. Maybe try to focus on Earth's energy. You can focus on the eleme...

Same here. I always feel like an alien in my country. Part of me wants to move out, and part of me wants to stay here like most SS should and to fight for my country, tho not every SS is the same so we should still see what is best for us. Maybe I am one of those who just should try to move out, at ...

LightAlgur wrote:Yo Azorm, why is your picture of burning wood?

Are you Rooks friend? Lol

No, it's a sword. If you want to insult me try better, but I am good at that myself anyways.

Have a nice day xP

SABNAC50 wrote:

Azorm wrote:...

Thank you so much.

Np

Also ofc pay more attention on your sushumna and even heart chakra extenions. Good luck comrade..

I just want some advices on which runes could help me, and I will not stop seeking for help and advices since I am not good at those things yet. Meaning, if I feel like crying, I will cry as much as I want to. I was using energy drawing and visualisation for my meditations all those years. Now it's ...

Most likely you will barely have time for meditations and yoga. You will have some time before going to bed and on weekends. And if you can use some small pauses during the day, but that will be harder. You can do some stuff ofc. Not impossible but it will be hard. Military will crush the weak. If y...

What if I was Nordic in my previous lives? Is being in a mixed body some sort of punishment? Being of another sub-race for a lifetime or few of them is not a catastrophe. We aren't so different if we have a hair or eyes of another color compared to others in our race. Pure Aryans have still similar...

Yes, i remember i told you about this before, i also told you that you need to pick up on your meditations and filter these self-destructive thoughts out. I was retarded idiot as usual and didn't wanted to master void properly. I was afraid that it will ruin my artistic abilities if I void all day....

Lately I started feeling and seeing energies more... I was shocked when I started seeing those ties. Apparently lot of normies, majority of them are linked to the enemy in some way or another or to the people who are linked to the enemy( those people always abuse them in some way it seems or are tox...

Ok ...so for some reason I like to spam rtr sometimes and for another reasons (I like kundalini yoga ) it seems like my kundalini is trying to get up . I read out this post and I know that it will be a similar situation if I'm spamming to much but at least I want to know your opinions about this, I...

It is not unlikely, but it is not very frequent. It can happen. But Nordic souls have priority as they are on have tight numbers for their own race's bodies. Rest of whites don't, compared to Nordics. What if I was Nordic in my previous lives? Is being in a mixed body some sort of punishment? Being...

Apparently literally everybody can notice that I have a problem with this and I do. Tho reason why I said I am my own enemy was for another reasons but okay ( because we are to blame for most of the bad things that happen to us blah blah...) I must start a working to fix my issue. I must pick a good...

You most definitely do not want to go to an facility for "help". it would be a lie that they could help you in such a place in regards to what you are experiencing. as far as being mentally ill or unstable is concerned, to psychologist and therapist, that is another deal completely. get r...

Sorry that im a little late on the reply, I hope your doing ok now that you've talked with your guardian and got help here on the forums. We're always here for you and I was even thinking about doing a ritual asking Amon Ra to help you out a bit. All okay, I will be better. Sorry for not being talk...

Considering you aren't in the teenager age group, then yes, Kundalini may factor into this, but you seem to have dozens of unresolved mental and spiritual issues that you need to work on. You need to take workings on these and start cleaning them one by one. The serpent brings these out for address...

You most definitely do not want to go to an facility for "help". it would be a lie that they could help you in such a place in regards to what you are experiencing. as far as being mentally ill or unstable is concerned, to psychologist and therapist, that is another deal completely. get r...

I do not think the good idea is to isolate yourself completely at this point, just try to modulate your own behavior Not sure how to even be around others now as I feel really weird, barely can think straight, panicking a lot when that all hits me, and sometimes even when I am calm I can get parano...

Sounds great about that working, as it's helping you so much, and yes 30 reps is perfectly fine, there's no need for really high reps as many other SS including myself have had great results from around 30 reps. I'm glad I could help, stick with it and in time you will look back to how you are now,...

I do not think the good idea is to isolate yourself completely at this point, just try to modulate your own behavior .... ... So basically I am severely mentally ill now for no reason whatsoever then if you are saying the truth... I will soon be 22 yo. If I am this much mentally ill and this is not...

In addition to what others will write, you need to think more positively about yourself. Just look at your signature, the fact that you took the time to write that you are your own enemy, and feel the need to announce that, really says something about your psychological state. You are the only you ...

I do not think the good idea is to isolate yourself completely at this point, just try to modulate your own behavior Not sure how to even be around others now as I feel really weird, barely can think straight, panicking a lot when that all hits me, and sometimes even when I am calm I can get parano...

Going insane Well, this is embarrassing but, yeah I kinda got mentally ill. They told me how important is to be clean and all before triggering Kundalini transformation, but due to my immaturity, obvious retardation, and sudden progress that I somehow made, I got unstable and lost my shit. For month...

What's that on your signature? "You're not my enemy, I am my enemy" That's called self-sabotage, and it seems your mindset is fixed on that. You really need to stop fucking yourself like that and do some void mediation so that you can become more aware of your thoughts, this will allow yo...

You helped me… now I only care about acquiring power… Enjoy and back to Akasha… people with power who wants to be a normie You do not have to be happy, you just have to fight for what you believe. You always manage to confuse me. I hardly can understand what you want really to say or what are your ...

I know a catch 22 is the last thing people wanna hear in these kinds of situations but I can not stress the importance of doing something that makes you proud. I grew up with an older brother who was heavly depressed and I myself delt with the kinds of thoughts you have rn so i feel like I can rela...

You have powerful destructive tendencies which you can use to an advantage, ie, turn this energy towards dissolving your own obstacles, destroying parts of your personality that you do not like [destroy in order to improve]. The specifics of this have to be understood on your own through meditation...

Everything can be fixed. If you have no money, you can get a job or go back to school to get education for a specific job you may want, start a business who knows... there are many ways to improve a financial life. Is not too late! You also can start doing things differently, instead of staying hom...

Why are people suicidal anyway? I am suicidal since forever, I barely was a kid and I wanted to die. I always had visions of me getting killed or similar, I always had a strong urge to die. I'm also very depressed person all my life and I had a lot of trouble with other people and my own family. I t...

cmon why is this guy allowed back again... all he wants to do is spread doubt and missinformation around here. This is the same guy that had multiple high ranking gods fall in love with him because he was such a potent satanist, he even had his kundalini raised at the age of 17. just seeing how he ...

Look into Decans. Nah no worries, im going through the same thing. Ready to change completely. Its nuts how much we are doing with the Final RTR. I deleted the post but, I guess it was too late xD It's nice that I'm more open but maybe I should not use forums as my diary or something. I'm suprised ...

SdD wrote:

Azorm wrote:.

When will you have the courage to be you?

You remind me of one of those really creepy guys around here who would just follow me and smile. Sometimes they even say something stupid ... aandd.. then they decide to disappear..

oh yea.. you an azom, i didn't want to say anything but, When you're new and you're opening yourself to astral you feel all sorts of weird sensations, not to put you down or anything, but this is not some sort of kundalini awakening or something like that, it's simply just exposure to the astral an...

Most of the Satan's Demon blocks me when they don't want me to speak. Usually I never do this, so I think you people need to understand that I have no intention to speak for her. I just said one thing, thing he already knows it seems. Btw, real guardians barely ever are allowing such sort of a thing...

It's double egded sword for me. The way I can pick from others and the way they can manipulate me with those things, I can manipulate them too, much much better. My water also senses weak spots in others, so it makes it even easier. I feel evil for even having this tbh, I feel like a living walking ...

@lilquote, swordofastaroth, Rook and Shael Thanks for the information, especially Rook, it is very helpful! You are right, they just use illusions, so to say, however... @Azorm Sorry to break it to you, but the advice you gave me is debunked the hard way: it wasn't the case for me. I should have as...

Confirmed, my hunch was right. "Yes, but you should clean your aura, chakras, and soul regardless." Stay safe everyone, as well as myself, I'll get to fix this problem now that I have the needed information. If ever you have any more advice, it would be greatly appreciated. @lilquote, swo...

When you are so sensitive to picking up everything.. What I am going to type next may not be exactly able to help you, but if most of those suggestions come through connecting with others, you could affirm to yourself, chakras and soul that they do not connect with anyone. Unless you specificly wan...

SdD wrote:and Azorm attacks again ...

What is the meaning of this?
Enlighten me.

Yeah I am willing to talk in email. You can email me at [email protected].com  This is an email I set up seperate from anything personal mainly for may own website and youtube channel. Then we talk there :) I think that you are a nice soul and I can see that you had some crazy shit in your li...

Look, the being is not really alive. This is your thoughtform that you maybe empowered for a lifetimes. You have probably some problems with a Neptune too (rules subc.), because it's connected to it, to your crown chakra, to your chakras above your head and aura around. You are so attached to it be...

Last night when I was going to sleep I felt huge energy rushes and felt this heat sensation in my back and spine. I moved the energy to my central channel and heard this kind of rushing sound felt something raising a bit I felt this like joy and laughter and happiness I am still happy today. The th...

Let me tell you a lot of "liberated women" and "liberated men" who are walking down the street beyond any suspicion, do carry in most cases way more STDs than professional prostitutes. They also get tested and care more than them. Professional prostitutes and sex workers of a hi...

Wow thanks you for sharing your situation! This is a great example of how important it is to keep psychic hygine up. Also I wish you best of luck and succsess! You will make it through this! Just be strong and push through! Remember you are not alone you are Satan‘s child! HAIL SATAN AND ALL POWERS...

When you are so sensitive to picking up everything.. What I am going to type next may not be exactly able to help you, but if most of those suggestions come through connecting with others, you could affirm to yourself, chakras and soul that they do not connect with anyone. Unless you specificly wan...

I think you will be ok. That sounds similar to what happened to me back when Neptune Conjuncted my Ascendant and I got sidtracked into drugs. I never let the process go that far and got scared by all the disturbing stuff. So I stopped it using drugs and alchohol that was really dumb and I quit medi...

Something similar to Ida and Pingala unison happened to me before few months. It felt like cold calm energy and raw hot energy united in my brain and after it, few weeks my consciousness barely was holding onto my physical body and I started feeling everything but not ordinary things... My kundalini...

Sometimes, specifically when I focus on Satan or another Demon for advice, I will feel a strange pressure deep in the middle of my chest (where the heart chakra is located). The feeling can alternate between a pressure, throbbing, and an emptiness. This sort of threw me off when asking for guidance...

Stimulate your brain and mind with something positive for you. Like after doing it all, reward yourself with something nice, so your brain will start connecting meditations with something good. Also, try to listen to some nice music while doing some meditations, and try to relax as much as possible....

When trying to communicate with Demons try to get in touch with their energy as much as you can. Meditate on their sigils, try to feel their energy, the more, the better. In time, while focused on their energy you will notice more things, more sings from them, guidance, appearance and in the end you...